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I have provided this archive as a personal resource, that I shall share with the Members.
Thank you,
farlan . . .
MEMBERS RESOURCES
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Susila Budhi Dharma "is not a book that has to be understood, no. Just read it, and later you will be able to know what it means"
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Bapak's Story of the coming of the Latihan...
. . ."In the past Bapak did not want to speak about his receiving, for Bapak still needed proof of what he had received."
read more Bapak
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If the receiving is not yet sufficiently clear, and you are still troubled
about it, it is better for you to wait until it is very clear and logical...Read more Sudarto * * * * * * * * * * Songs & Prayers Of Bapak
After latihans I used to pray, asking God for His protection, and to provide for our daily needs.
One night the inner self corrected me.
Mangoen, don't ask God for anything.
He knows your needs better than you do.
He will give you what you need, not what you ask, because
He knows what is good for you.
At the next latihan, the voice asked:
Mangoen, why do you do the latihan?
Startled, I confessed I didn't really know.
If you don't know the purpose of the latihan, the voice said,
then it has no meaning for you. Why do you do the latihan? the voice persisted.
I couldn't answer, but the question was repeated over and over.
Suddenly I thought it might be the devil, or some lower force, that was
interrogating me. I was quickly disabused of this thought.
Now you are in doubt again, the voice observed. I will show you who I am.
Instantly my breathing stopped. I nearly choked before air entered my lungs again.
This happened several times. I had no control over my respiratory organs.
The voice continued to question me. Why do you do the latihan? I had to answer that I did not know, and each
time my breathing was stopped.
Mangoen, the voice said, the latihan has a purpose. The
purpose of our latihan is to worship God.
Why couldn't you have said so in the first place? I thought, rather ruefully, still weak and
shaking.
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SubudBooks.com The main purpose of this website is to provide a shop window for Subud authors with books for sale. Not just for books about Subud, though that is the content of most of the books on this site, but for all those novels and poems by authors who also happen to be Subud members.
We will showcase your work unedited, in any style or format you choose . . . .
If you have read what Bapak said about writing, and trust his guidance, you may be surprised at how easy the words come to you. I have never studied writing before, and yet here I am writing about all sorts of things. It is easy and fun. Your jiwa will help you, of that I am sure.
Muftiah... has her own style... of writing,... and I have mine. I like short stories and poems, she tells it all, from top to bottom, left to right.
So, Brothers and Sisters. . . come aboard this Subud Ship, and ride the latihan waves of the inner self.
Thank You farlan
Write about Subud experiences not about teachings.
Bapak did not mean that you should write a book about the relationship of the physical body and the jiwa, let alone about higher matters.
What Bapak meant was that members should write about their experiences since being in Subud and following the latihan kejiwaan, for other members to read. The content of the writings will thus not depart very far from what exists in the sphere of the kejiwaan, based on the Grace of Al mighty God manifested in the latihan kejiwaan of Subud, which in reality is guidance and direction from the Power of Almighty God.
If you write about things you have learned from books or from teachings, even though these teachings are generally called spiritual knowledge, and you then relate these things to what you receive in following the latihan kejiwaan of Subud, which in reality is the guidance and direction of Almighty God - this can cause your inner-feeling to feel empty or dead.
It seems necessary for Bapak to give some explanation here about the reasons for this. As you know, the latihan kejiwaan which we receive is a latihan of the jiwa, that is, the content of our whole self, which is composed of all the five senses together with the innermost heart ( hati-sanubari ) and the brain.
If we say that the jiwa is the content of our whole self, clearly it is the jiwa that takes the lead or plays the most important role in our lives. Thus, obviously, the heart and brain, or the ideas and the thoughts, however broad they may be, are still the instruments of the jiwa. So if the jiwa, which is the content of the self, is of a lowly nature ( material ), then it will not be aware that the perspicacity [ shrewdness ] of the heart and the intelligence of the mind possess a character less than truly human. The proof of this is that not a few people who are well educated and who know what is right and what is wrong behavior still do things that fall short of excellence.
So we very much need to find a way that can become the means of arresting the influence of the nafsu and cause our real jiwa to be uncovered.
It is fortunate for us that, through the Mercy of Almighty God, we are able to receive His Grace, which we feel as a vibration of life within us and which subsequently manifests the energy and movements we call the latihan kejiwaan. And, at the moment when the vibration of life is present, ire feel the influence of the nafsu that dwell in our heart and thoughts come spontaneously to a standstill. That is why we say this happens through the Grace of Almighty God. For, in truth, it is difficult to put a stop to the influence of the nafsu that dwell in the heart and mind, and supposing it were possible to stop it, this would mean the death of the person concerned. So, dearly, the way to stop the influence of the nafsu and change the jiwa for the better lies through death, although usually if a person dies he really dies.
This is why Bapak explained above that we are really fortunate to be blessed by God so that, although we are unable to stop or to put aside the influence of the nafsu, we can receive His Grace. For in this situation only God can act, and it is only necessary for us to follow the latihan kejiwaan, which is a guidance and direction, with patience, trust and sincere submission.
This is how it is, so you should not mix or connect all kinds of theories with your receiving when you receive and follow the latihan kejiwaan of Subud, because if you still do that it will readily cause you to become confused. Bapak therefore hopes that, if you still wish to write, you will write about all the experiences you have had in following the latihan kejiwaan of Subud. ( From the Pewarta -VII/5/29 )
