Reflections... On Muftiah's Unique... Jiwa To Jiwa Marriage... To Much Younger Farlan... Which Moments... Of Their Holy Union... Are Designed... Orchestrated... Conducted... Directed... And Monitored... By Allah Almighty God... And His Specific... Perfect Will For Them... His Loving Children...!

Since what Muftiah has written here... in this Chapter... happened so long ago... it appears to her... that because... through her daily Guidance... of Being Constantly Reminded... that she is about to leave earth... at any moment... she feels it to be most important... at this time... to share with her readers... some predominant highlights... of her most unique... Jiwa to Jiwa... SUBUD marriage... to twelve years younger... fascinating genius... Farlan... descendant of the famous General "Stonewall" Jackson... and in whose veins... flow an intriguing mixture... of Red Indian Cherokee... Scotch... Irish... and German blood...!

Sharing with you all... some of the most extraordinary... and unusual Spiritual Experiences... she... with French... Italian... and English blood... flowing through her veins... also underwent... in being married to him...!

As Almighty Allah Continued... to Command His loving daughter Muftiah... to write... about all aspects... of her life... her turbulent childhood... and even her unusual ancestry... she came to understand... always with a feeling inside her... that she had Been Singled Out... by Him... simply due to the fact... that her whole life... has been so full... of Spiritual Experiences... and Wondrous Miracles... that are now... at the end of it... in her Golden Years... meant to be shared... with all her fellow... kindred in Spirit... brothers... and sisters... all over the world...

Mostly to prove to them... as her main purpose of writing... that God Is Not Dead... But Very Much Alive... Not Only In Each... And Every One... Of His Lovingly Created Souls... But All Around... Outside Us... As Well...!

Because... as her hopefully many readers... will come to realize... from reading about her most unusual life... both in her first book... "From The Shadow... Of The Rising Sun"... and this one... being her Spiritual Odyssey... that this humble to God soul... from her very beginning... and throughout her whole life... has been very much aware... of His Holy Existence... inside the very depths... of her being...!

Known to her Heavenly Father... and Allah Almighty God... at different times... throughout her extraordinary... Spiritual journey... at first... as Tzi-Tzi Darling... (exclusively by her adored mother)... Darling Nadia... (exclusively... by her adored Papa)... and Sera-chan... (by all her succession... of Japanese village Amahs... as well... as by her lifelong... "tomodachis" (friends)...

She was finally... addressed as Graziella... and Grazi Long Legs... (by her classmates... at the International School of Yokohama... and Graziella... in Zurich Switzerland...)... Grace... (in England... and also Nadia... in both Southern... and Northern Rhodesia... and South Africa)... Chuchi... (for four year... exclusively... by her adored lover John)... and then by her three SUBUD Names... namely Grazia... Laura... and finally Muftiah...

And throughout her long... turbulent life... with all the above mentioned names... which she has used... to identify herself... throughout all her writing... she has always been... very much aware... of her Beloved Heavenly Creator... and in very close... daily... and hourly communion with Him... often returning... to her true home... Heaven... for nightly visits... in her sleep state...!

There are so many souls... in different parts... of the chaotic... violent world... today... who have lost hope... and are floundering... believing... that God Is Dead... because He Is Doing Nothing... To Better our pitiful lot... and Stop all the cruelty... and non-caring... going on... and alas... only fifty-one percent... a tiny bit more than half... of His souls... inhabiting it... believe that He Created them...!

Here is an extract... from Part II... Chapter 7... of "From The Shadow... Of The Rising Sun..." ... where this almost twelve year old... trying to be humble to God soul... known as Graziella... very concerned... about the devastation of War... going on... all around her... and the world... was Given... a most important Revelation... as follows...:

"During our three-week stay in Shanghai... I learned something of the fascinating history... of this huge cosmopolitan city... and how the Japanese had... without any provocation... brazenly bombed it... in 1932...!

But in 1937... when they again assaulted... the teeming metropolis... its citizens... had bravely resisted their onslaught... for three whole months... before the great city fell... and there was an angry... Anglo-American reaction... to Japan's acts... of unprecedented hostilities... throughout China...

The Americans... began to seriously contemplate... an economic blockade of Japan... in cooperation with the British... Dutch... French and Soviets... while the British... urged a joint Anglo-American... demonstration of force...

But then the Japanese apologized... and it was unfortunate... that the Allies prematurely halted... their plan of intervention... the timely implementation of which... might very well have changed... the whole course of history... and the dastardly aerial... and naval attacks... of Japan's Imperial military forces... throughout the Pacific Theater... where so many lives were lost... may never have happened...!

And now that we were there... every now and again... we would overhear whispers... that there was an undercurrent brewing... that the Japanese were planning further hostilities... throughout the mainland... once again setting their greedy sights... on strategic... unprotected... defenseless areas...!

And I would find myself praying... with all my might... that such atrocities would never happen... begging for peace... throughout the whole world... and that my Heavenly Father... Please Do Something... to Stop the rampant Japanese... who were becoming more and more avaricious... for acquisition... and more and more drunk... with power...!

Then one night... as I was fervently praying for peace... for all of mankind... yet again... I suddenly heard a Voice... Calling out my name...!

And at the Commanding Sound... of the Voice... everything inside me stood to attention...

And then the Voice Told me... to empty my mind... of all agitated thoughts... and to still... the troubled emotions... of my heart... for a Great Spiritual Truth... Was About To Be Revealed to me...!

Feeling suddenly humbled... and full of awe... and wonder... I obeyed the Voice...and quietened myself... emptying my mind... of all agitated thoughts... and stilling all my heated emotional concerns... about the wellbeing... of my suffering fellow brothers and sisters... throughout the increasingly troubled earth...

After the longest time... as I waited patiently... in the privacy of my bedroom... with my eyes closed... the Voice Spoke again... and Revealed the following Great Spiritual Truth to me... Etching the Holy Words... for all time... inside the very depths... of my very soul...:

"Let It Be Known... That God’s Love... for His Children... On Earth... Is Boundless... And All Encompassing... And Eternal...

And That His Children... Are To Love Him... In Return... With All Their Souls... And All Their Hearts... And All Their Strength... Having Utter Trust... And Faith... In Him... Who Created Them All...

And Since Almighty God... Has Given His Created Children On Earth... Free Will... Within The Scope... Of Their Pre-Ordained... Individual Destinies... To Live Out Their Lives... In True Loving Concern... For One Another... As Kindred Brothers... And Sisters... He Will Not Intervene... Nor Interfere... With Man’s Actions... Even If They Are Profoundly Evil...!

For If God Should Do So... His Children Would Never Learn... The True Meaning... Of Brotherhood...

So His Children... Should Not Pray To Him... Asking Him... Why He Is Allowing So Much Evil... To Go On... In The World... That He Has Given To Them... For All Their Needs... And To Please... Do Something About It...

But His Children Should Be Asking Themselves...:

"Why Are We Allowing Such Evil... To Go On...?"

And Do Something About It... Themselves...!

For All Directions... And Guidelines... In How To Conduct Themselves... In Their Lives... Were Already Handed Down To Them... Through The Prophet Moses... In The Ten Commandments... Of Almighty God... Which Are Eternal...

And They All Have But To Live... By Their Perfect Rules... Which Are Still To Be Followed... Today... In Order To Enjoy... Lives of Grace... Peace... And Harmony... With All Their Fellow Brothers And Sisters... Throughout God's Created Universe..."

(End of Extract...)

And because of the rapidly downward spiraling chaos... throughout our most unhappy... confused... dazed... fearful... and greatly suffering... topsy-turvy... haywire going universe... all the souls of the earth... now... more than ever before... desperately need... to have their Inner selves... "Re-Awakened..."... and "Re-Opened..."... to Receive Contact... with God's Great Holy Life Force... as it was... In The Beginning... when He first Created them...!

And now... once again... through the Miracle of SUBUD... in order to become truly aware... through their own indisputable proof... of once more... feeling the Miraculous... familiar... Gentle Vibration... of Almighty God's Great Holy Life Force... Softly Pulsating... inside them... Which Guides... and Directs... the moments of their lives... so Perfectly... they can truly testify... that Almighty God... is indeed very much Alive...!

Under a separate Segment... titled "Heavenly Visitations"... put up here... on the Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories"... you may be interested... to be reading all about... how some of her dearly departed loved ones... from her Beloved Spiritual Father... Bapak... to her Contessa mother... to her beloved soul mate... Richard... who was the God Chosen channel... to "Open..."... and "Awaken..."... her Inner self... to the Glorious Miracle of SUBUD... to her dear mother-in-law Jasie... etc... have been paying her wonderfully meaningful... Heavenly Visits... for the past few years...!

Her beloved Spiritual Father... Bapak... who passed from this earth... when he was eighty-four... always Youthful... and Vibrant... and full of Energy... even entered her body... first to give her an all important Message... about the necessity... for all of mankind... to read all his Pewartas... plus all of his other important works... where Almighty God... So Often... Spoke through Bapak's Purified Mouth... when he lived amongst us... on earth... and we... his SUBUD children... were exceedingly Blessed... to be in his Holy Presence...!

And then going on... from time to time... Appearing to his most willing... SUBUD daughter... Muftiah... to dictate important Messages... from Almighty God... to her... for all of mankind... since Almighty God Has Ordained... that His Beloved son... Muhammad Subuh... known to his SUBUD children... as Bapak... is the "Father Of All Mankind..." ... and therefore... his Holy Mission... to spread SUBUD... to those souls... worthy in the Eyes of God... still goes on... even asking her... to reproduce... all of his dictation... here... on the Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories..."!

During one of her Beloved Bapak's many Heavenly Visitations to her... Bapak suggested... that Farlan... who was also Receiving relevant Guidance... set up a special Kejiwaan Website... to be titled "SUBUD Stories"... to encourage Bapak's SUBUD children... from all over the world... to share their individual... unique Spiritual Experiences... not only with one another... but with all their kindred brothers and sisters... throughout the largely unhappy universe...

In doing so... they will thus... not only keep the Light of SUBUD... Shining Brightly... in this ever increasingly dark world of ours... but also to touch... and attract... all those floundering... fractured... unhappy... bewildered souls... throughout the universe... who desperately need... to Receive Inner Contact... with the Great Holy Life Force... of their Creator... Almighty God... through the Latihan Kejiwaan...of SUBUD...

Through her many wonderful... meaningful Encounters... with her Beloved Spiritual Father... Bapak... in person... and in dreams... even flying her with him... to visit other planets...! ... and now... for the past five years or so... in most unique... Heavenly Visitations... from him... all her work... just like Spiritual SUBUD... and the Spiritual Healing... that her Heavenly Father... Chose her to be a Divine Channel for... for a number of years... is to be offered... to the whole world... absolutely free of charge...!

So that every single soul... that Almighty God Has Singled Out... to be worthy... in His Eyes... of Being Especially Blessed... will Be "Tapped On Their Shoulders"... and Led... to this Very Special... Holy Website... by the Assigned SUBUD Angels of God...

Where they can read... not only about this soul's turbulent life... filled with all kinds of ordeals... trials... and tribulations... but also with Wondrous Miracles... and Spiritual Experiences... but also those of others... of her dear... kindred in Spirit... SUBUD Brothers... and Sisters... and it will cost them absolutely nothing... to be so singularly Blessed... because Almighty God... Has no need... for money...!

Already while Muftiah was re-editing "Shadow"... her Beloved Bapak... Would Come Bouncing... into her presence... always full of Youthful... Vibrant Energy... read what she was writing... and very pleased... that she was sharing so much of herself... with others... would be grinning... and constantly encourage her... with lots of "Ja jas..." ... and add lots of his own dictation...!

Which reminds her... to share something... that Bapak confirmed for her recently... as true... about a Receiving she had... during the year of 1983... when Bapak had instructed her Sister Helpers... to come to her sick bed... and Latihan with her regularly... at least three times a week... and how... such obedience of God's Will... would cause her leaving earth... to be "Pushed Forward"... and that... because that did not happen... for they continued to be only twice a week... she still remains on earth...!

This confirmation... by Bapak... made her realize... even more... how truly Inwardly Connected... we SUBUD souls... are to each other...!

So then... just as Allah Commanded... His loving daughter... to write her "Open Letter"... on January 3rd... 1987... from her sick bed... to all her fellow SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... throughout the SUBUD World...

So did He Decide... to Continue to Use her... Commanding her... to continue writing... about her most unusual life... sharing it here... with all of mankind... resulting... over an on and off period... of about twenty-seven years... these two books... plus a lot of other writing...

Including a letter... she Received... to write... to Oprah Winfrey... which will also be featured here... on the Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories... and from whom... she is still patiently waiting... for her reply...!

So... to go back to that time... here Muftiah is... sitting bedridden... from the already many God-Willed Strokes... suffered... It is about two years and a half... after the very first one... on October 28th... 1982... at 4 a.m.... and she is reflecting... upon how much... her life has changed...!

From the bustling activity of... for about six years... being Guided... to move from place to place... with her husband Farlan... for much needed Spiritual Growth... and Development... - usually every eighteen months or so - to now... for the first time... being Made to remain... in only one place... which would turn out to be bedridden... for seven years...!

Her hitherto very active life... came to an abrupt halt... as soon as she Was Made to... very reluctantly... marry him...!

Reluctantly... because she always seemed to fail... in her marriages... four so far... although her first... was never consummated...!

For it was not even two months... after she married Farlan... when they had already been Guided... to move... twice...!

Their memorable Muslim wedding ceremony... had taken place... on April 5th... 1975... at Santa Cruz SUBUD House... turning out to be just five days... before what this soul... had always been led to believe... was her birth date... now becoming forty-five... although... by the Grace of God... she still looked twenty years younger... younger than Farlan...! (Farlan having Received... about how important it was... that he marry her... before her next birthday... which was actually on April 20th... and not 10th...!)

And their Holy... Allah Commanded Union... of a Muslim wedding ceremony... at the Santa Cruz SUBUD House... was witnessed... and blessed... by many well-wishing... SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... who had come... from all over California...

And right after she married Farlan... Muftiah's hitherto... active life... of working... in the world... which she had loved... had changed completely... by becoming one of... an Allah Commanded...:

"Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!"

Which Divine Command... was preceded... by a most incredible... frightening... Spiritual Experience... as fully described... in the next Chapter...!

...read more in Chapter 4

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