How Farlan And Muftiah... Learn The Very Real Truth... About "Speeded Up Purification..."! And Farlan... Experiences... A Rude Awakening... About Circumcision...! Reminding Sexually Fractured Muftiah... Of Her Many Intimate Conversations... With Both Troubled SUBUD Men... In South Africa... And Troubled SUBUD Brothers... In The USA... Regarding Their Sex Lives... And Secret Fantasies... And Some Of Them... Even About Their Homosexuality...!

During the month... before their wedding... with them constantly fighting... and arguing... with each other... Experiencing... "Speeded Up Purification..." ... because they had foolishly slept together... but only once... Farlan was very annoyed... with his fiancee... because she was Receiving Guidance... of her own... which did not include him...!

The fact about "Speeded Up Purification..."... they had already found out about... months earlier... during their Allah Commanded Pilgrimage... first to the homes... of only married SUBUD Helper couples... throughout Marin... Receiving their names... in sequence... from the least Spiritual... to the most Spiritual...!

Commanded to share with them... their incredible Experience... of Being Brought together... Jiwa to Jiwa... as virtual strangers... and not even Allowed... to date... so that they could get to know each other better... before marriage... but leaving out the fact... that they had slept together... just that once...!

Then... when they were further Commanded... to also go down the California coast... to share with some other married... SUBUD Helper couples... their unique coming together... of Jiwa to Jiwa... as virtual strangers... without dating... when they compared... their unusual Experience... with a number of them... when this time... they Were Made to also confess... their one time... of sexual intimacy... with each other... to them... they found out... for the first time... that some of them... had also slept with each other... only once... before marriage... to see whether they were sexually compatible...!

And they heard... for the very first time... that the most unpleasant Process... which they had earned for themselves... as a result... was called... in SUBUD... "Speeded Up Purification..."!

And yet... with all their consequent arguing... and fighting... with each other... feeling the rightness... of marrying each other...!

Now living in Santa Cruz... Muftiah was Getting... her own Receiving... daily... in her Latihan Shower... that she was to part... from her fiance... Farlan... by 11 p.m... every night... while she lived... for that very special month... of Marriage Preparation... in the apartment... of a much younger... kindly SUBUD Sister... Receiving to observe... the special Banana Fast... etc...

And becoming exasperated with Farlan... because he kept insisting... that they should already be living together... at her suggestion... he went to the Santa Cruz SUBUD House... to complain about her... to his SUBUD Brother Helpers... that since Bapak... had Blessed their union... surely he should not be prevented... from spending as much time as he liked... with his fiancee... Even insisting to them... that they should already be living together... since they had slept together...!

And to Farlan's enormous surprise... while surrendered in Latihan... with his Brother Helpers... who Received for him... that marriage... through the wife... grounded a man... to the earth... when all he truly wanted... was to fly up... to his home... in Heaven...! ... he had his own Receiving... to his utter amazement... that he was to become circumcized... before marriage...!

And when he joined Muftiah afterwards... who was quietly waiting for him... and told her of his incredible Receiving... about circumcision... she had been pleased... that his attention... for a change... would now be diverted... to something else... other than exclusively... on her... and their unpleasant... disappointing relationship...

She already understood... that the Spiritual Reason... why men... in general... should become circumcized... before marriage... was so that the sexual sins... of the blood line... of their male ancestors... could be greatly Purified... through the very necessary procedure... since it would be most unfair... to pass onto the wife... the essence... of all those sexual sins... which had nothing... whatsoever... to do with her...

Then Muftiah became very annoyed... when... Farlan suddenly told her... that her Working Days... In The World... Were Now Over...! ... adding that he could see a Bright Blue Rainbow Arch... above her head... Saying So...!

She loved "working in the world"... and hated the very idea... of becoming totally dependent... on another human being... having happily lived a life of independence... for quite a while... enjoying her spacious... "movie star" apartment... and loving to drive... the Rambler Station Wagon... her very first car... that she had bought... from her dear SUBUD Sister... Miriam Brannan... about two years earlier...

And just like the very first car she drove... loaned to her... by her dear SUBUD Brother... Howard Welsh... in Miami... who had taught her to drive... albeit the wrong way... legally...! ... this Rambler... also seemed to drive itself... as she was instantly... in a state of surrender... the moment she stepped into it... Receiving to sing Joyous Praises... to her Creator... her Beloved Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... at the top of her operatic... soprano voice... while her foot... on the gas pedal... Was Guided... not to drive too fast...!

When she separated... from Farlan that night... before eleven p.m.... as Commanded... by Almighty Allah... lying in her bed... in the charming guest room... of her younger SUBUD Sister... she found herself recalling... the many intimate conversations... over the years... with both troubled SUBUD Men... in South Africa... and troubled SUBUD Brothers... in the USA... who had found her to be most understanding... and compassionate... and easy to talk to... about their most intimate selves... and especially confiding to her... their sex lives... secret fantasies... and homosexuality...!

Some of them... addicted to porno movies... had even invited her... to go with them... to those hole-in-the-wall... secretive... dark theaters... which were never lit up...!

And to her utter amazement... expecting to be Forbidden... to go with them... when she consulted... the repugnant... prurient matter... with her Heavenly Father... He Told Her... That He Was Fully Aware... Of How Fractured She Was... Sexually... And How Terrified... She Was... Of The Sexual Act Of Intercourse... Ever Since She Was Seventeen... Because Of Her Near Rape... By A German POW in England... But That Nevertheless... She Should Accompany The SUBUD Men... (or SUBUD Brothers...) ... Whenever Invited By Them...!

However... While She Sat Next To Them... In The Darkened Theater... She Should Not Look At The Screen... But Close Her Eyes... And Remain In A Quiet... Surrendered State... To Him...!

And the most amazing result... was that... while she... known to them... as either Nadia... Grazia... or Laura... sat... in the darkened porno theater... next to them... with her eyes closed... and totally surrendered... to her Heavenly Father... as Instructed by Him... she did not hear any sounds... or voices... coming from the screen...!

And furthermore... within a few short months... all those porno addicted SUBUD men... in South Africa... and all the SUBUD Brothers... in the USA... who had confided in her... had lost all interest... in porno movies... their powerful addiction... Miraculously Evaporated... completely...!

And as she lay in her bed... marvelling all over again... over Almighty God's Great Power... little did she know... that there was to be one more sexually troubled... SUBUD Brother... who was addicted... to porno movies... and that it would turn out to be... none other... than her much younger husband... Farlan...!

And as far as her South African... homosexual SUBUD Men... and American SUBUD Brothers... were concerned... every single one of them... eventually became normal... through the Miracle of SUBUD... through their sincere... unconditional surrender... to their Creator... during their Latihan Kejiwaan... times of worship...!

...read more in Chapter 12

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