Newly Re-Named Muftiah... Is Made To Experience... How Sad... Empty... And Foolish... Her Life Will Be... If She Does Not Accept... The Married State Again...! Then Is Brought Together... With Her Much Younger... Future Husband... Farlan... About Three Months Later...!

Later on... after her five months... of necessary Spiritual Crisis... in Santa Cruz... and now living in San Rafael... as a member of SUBUD Marin... as Muftiah... and no longer Laura... the very Center... her dear SUBUD Helper Sisters... had Received... in Miami... three years earlier... as the best place for her... she was happily working... for SUBUD Brother Chiropractor... Dr. Maniscalco... in his successful medical practice... in San Francisco... where he had trained her... in the application of Accupressure... on his many patients...

She was also stringing beads... for the SUBUD enterprise... Dharma... and teaching singing... French... writing... and elocution... and also typing up a manuscript... for a budding author...!

So she was very busy... working in the world... and also serving... as a "reserve" helper... for the Marin SUBUD Center... happily "Working" ... just as her Heavenly Father... Had Told Her... He Was Deciding About... For Her... back in Soquel...!

And when she Received... about six months later... that it was now also time... for her to get married... she had vehemently protested... insisting that she had no room in her life... for a new husband... with all the work... she was so happily involved in...!

Besides... she was such a failure at marriage... with already three husbands behind her... although her first poignantly sad... so-called marriage... was never consummated...!

So her Creator... Who Was To Be henceforth... Addressed... only as Almighty Allah... when He recently Re-named her... Muftiah... and no longer... as her Heavenly Father... or Almighty God... Decided to teach His willful daughter... yet another... Valuable... Important Lesson...!

One night... shortly after... during Group Latihan... at the Marin SUBUD House... after about ten minutes... of Spontaneously Receiving... Vigorous Movements... instead of her usual Singing of Praises... to her now Almighty Allah... the gentle Vibration... of The Great Holy Life Force Of Almighty God... Suddenly Stopped Pulsating... inside her...!

And as she stood there... with her eyes closed... waiting patiently... for It to Begin Again... after the longest time... she began to feel strangely Sad... Off Balance... Empty... and Foolish...!

And then... after a good long while... with her coming to the point... where she felt... as if she could not stand another moment... of feeling so Sad... and so Empty... and so Off Balance... and Foolish... she heard the familiar Voice... Of The One... Whom she had always referred to... as her Heavenly Father... inside her... Saying...:

"Do You Still Not Wish... To Be Married...?

Because If That Is The Case... Then The Way You Have Just Been Feeling... Is Exactly How Your Life Will Be... Off Balance... Sad... Empty... And Foolish... If You Do Not Accept... The Married State Again...!"

And Muftiah became very afraid... trembling... and begged her Heavenly Father... to Forgive her... promising Him fervently... that every fiber of her being... all of her... would be willing to accept... and experience... the married state again...

Later on... becoming worried... Muftiah went to see her dear SUBUD Sister... Rochana Weissinger... whom she trusted implicitly... and telling her about her recent... most unpleasant... and disconcerting Receiving... about marriage... wondering to her... how on earth... she could fit a husband... into her busy working life... Rochana gently chided her... Prophetically saying...:

"You silly girl... now you will have a husband... who will be working for you...!"

And fiercely independent Muftiah... had felt very stupid... (a word which Almighty Allah... always Reminds her... not to use... when referring to herself) ... her mouth dropping open... never having even considered... the possibility... that a future husband... might be working for her... as she said...:

"Oh... I never thought of that...!"

And right after... during her very next Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... as all six foot two of her... Feeling as Light... as a Feather... Was Made to Happily Dance... all around the room... by The Power of God... she Received to Joyously Sing Out... at the top of her soprano Voice...:

"December...! December...!"

And at the same time... Happily Laughing... as she Distinctly... Felt a Male Force... which was very Noble... and very Light... Gently Bending her Backwards...!

And as her Latihan Kejiwaan ended... her SUBUD Sister... Olivia Weinberg... who was still in a surrendered state... Received to say to her... Chuckling...:

"Ja Ja... December... Come Husband...!"

And Olivia's Voice... Sounded Very Much... Like The Distinctive Voice... Of her Beloved Spiritual Father... Bapak... who was frequently heard to say... "Ja ja..." ... in approval...!

And Muftiah... bowled over... and still feeling... a teeny tiny bit reluctant... to be married again... had responded... by saying...:

"Well... I don't know about that... but it certainly will be most interesting... whatever "December December"... means...!"

And exactly three months later... on December 6th... at the wedding of Rashid and Halimah Butte... at the Marin SUBUD House... Farlan... having recently Received... to leave his wife... and Muftiah... were brought together... as virtual strangers... with Muftiah... having Received... to take the vow of Islam... a month earlier... with Farlan already being a Muslim...!

But only Inwardly... and not to study the religion... with the lower forces... of his heart and mind... which meant... that he was to be obediently surrendered... to the Will of his Creator... at all times... Who Was henceforth... to be Addressed... by him... as Allah...!

And Muftiah... likewise... was not to study the religion... of Islam... with the lower forces... of her heart and mind... which meant... that she also... was to be obediently surrendered... to the Will of her Creator... at all times... Who Was henceforth... to be Addressed... by her... as Allah...!

In fact... the Muslim wedding ceremony... of Paul/Farlan's previous... first marriage... to much older... society lady... Luzila... about four years earlier... was broadcast on TV... in a program... which was featuring... the various forms... of matrimonial rites... of different religions...!

...read more in Chapter 14

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