Muftiah Has An Angel Dream... Which Leads To The Great Blessing... Of A "Rajah"... From Her Beloved Spiritual SUBUD Father Bapak... And Special Latihans For Her... Set Up By Him...!

One night... during Muftiah's second year... of being confined... to her sick bed... in the lovely apartment... in Daly City California... having by now... suffered many Allah-Willed Strokes... which greatly weakened her... physically... she had an Angel Dream... in which she expressed her grave concerns... to the Heavenly Beings... telling Them... that she was not getting enough... special Sick Latihans... from her Sister Helpers...!

And instead of Responding to her... They Vanished...!

And she soon found herself... standing in a kitchen... where her Sister Helpers... were sitting around a table... enjoying themselves... eating some cake... and drinking coffee...

And one of them... she won't say who... was gorging herself... on some food... right out of her fridge... as the Americans... so aptly describe... she was "pigging out..."!

And Muftiah spoke to them... telling them of her concerns... and how much she needed... the collective Spiritual Power... of their Latihans...

But it was as if she was invisible... for not one of them... even noticed... her six foot two presence...!

They just continued on... eating and drinking... and happily chatting away... to each other...!

Saddened... Muftiah... in despair... went to her SUBUD Brothers... for help... And was delighted to see... that they were all in a room... although it was quite dark... joyfully worshipping God together... in the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD...!

And noticing her... standing there... wistfully forlorn... one of them... her dear SUBUD Brother... Hanafi Weinstein... who had come to her for singing lessons... years ago... and whose wife... had the same name as hers... came running up to her... with a great big smile on his face... and... with his arms outstretched wide... he joyfully told her... that he would be happy... to share his Latihan with her...!

And filled with Joy... Muftiah started to join him... in worshipful surrender... to her Beloved Creator... her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... when An Angel Of God... Suddenly Appeared Between them... And First Scolded Hanafi...!

And then... Turning to Muftiah... He told Her... That What She Was About To Do... Worshipping God... With Her SUBUD Brothers... In The Same Room... With Them... As She Already Well Knew... Because Of The Dangerous Mixing... Of Male And Female Forces... Was Strictly Forbidden By God...!

When Muftiah woke up... feeling greatly chastised... she was trembling... and deathly afraid... that she was... once more... in a State of Heavenly Disgrace...

And she called up her dear SUBUD Sister... Rosada Cantrell... who had helped her so much... when she first came to San Francisco... from Miami... telling her about her concerns... about not getting enough special Sick Latihans with her Sisters... and consequent Angel Dream...

It so happened... that when she called... desperate for help... a Regional Helper from Palo Alto... whom she did not know personally... happened to be visiting Rosada...!

And when Rosada heard Muftiah's sad tale of woe... and how an Angel of God... had Scolded her... in her dream... she promised to help her...

Muftiah naturally expected her... to come right away... and Latihan with her... which is what she most needed... the extra Spiritual Power... of another healthy person's Latihan... and in this case... the extra Power... of two SUBUD Sisters' Latihans...

But to her dismay... neither of them came... not even Rosada... who lived only ten minutes away...! Shame on you... Rosada... for never even coming once... to Latihan with your Sister... who loved you dearly... and needed the exceptional Spiritual Power... of your Latihan...!

The next thing... a letter came to her... from the Regional Helper... with Guidance... that she had Received... concerning Muftiah's unique situation... including a special diet for her...!

And soon after... another letter from her arrived... in which she let her know that... in becoming concerned... that she might have given her the wrong advice... she had taken it upon herself... to write to Bapak directly... about Muftiah... and her unusual situation...!

And that Bapak's reply... to her concerned letter... in which he was enclosing a special "Rajah"... for Muftiah... was being forwarded to her... forthwith...!

In reading her unexpected letter... Muftiah became quite intrigued... for as far as she knew... a Rajah was an Indian prince... and she found herself wondering... what on earth Bapak's particular "Rajah" for her... might be...!

When she got Bapak's forwarded letter... from the Regional Helper... she was full of awe... and wonder... to be getting something... so precious from him... without asking him...!

And as she read Bapak's wise words of counsel... in which he said... that "Only Almighty God... Can Cure Muftiah..."!... and that he was setting up... special Sick Latihans for her... which were to be held... three times a week... with her Sister Helpers... she understood... that he was giving her permission... to leave earth... and that the Spiritual help... of her Sister Helpers... would facilitate her going...!

And when Muftiah... saw the little envelope... with some strange letters... written on it... in Bapak's very own handwriting... she marvelled at the fact... that this Holy Man of God... who had brought the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... to earth... for all of mankind... to benefit by... was giving her... such a great sinner... such singular attention...!

This was the truly Holy Man of God... about whom... the Pope had been told... "that there was a Holy Man of God... living on earth... but he was outside the church...!"

And when she opened the little envelope... with a feeling of reverence... she read... on a delicate square of translucent paper... that she was to burn it... in a large cup of water...!

Then... while being in a state of being sincerely surrendered to Almighty God... in Latihan... she was to drink the mixture... of water and ashes... once each day... three small sips... at a time... which was to last her a week...!

She was dismayed... at first... for she wanted to keep this precious memento... sent to her... from her Beloved Spiritual Father... with his own handwriting... and with whom... she had had... such a meaningful... personal encounter... over twenty years ago... in South Africa... when he summoned her to him... for a very special purpose...!

But then she realized... that she was being foolish... for the Holy Essence... of what Bapak... was giving her... would remain forever... inside her...!

And every time... Muftiah took her three sips... of ashes and water... barely able to stand... because she was so weak... from the many Strokes suffered... while being surrendered... to her Beloved Creator... Allah Almighty God... with her eyes closed... as usual... the feeling... that she was about to leave earth... became stronger... and stronger...!

And the constant... painful... Powerful Knocking... of her Jiwa... against her chest wall... Wanting to be Released... ever since she began to Receive "Muftiah Mati..." (meaning dying in Indonesian)) ... in Bellevue Washington... a few years earlier... gradually became Weaker... and Weaker... until It Ceased... altogether... with her last three sips... of water and ashes...!

Muftiah heard later... that Bapak gave the "Rajah"... to those of his SUBUD children... whose Jiwas... were particularly suffering...!

And Muftiah finally... got her special Sick Latihans... with her Sister Helpers... but never three times a week... only twice... because there was always the controversy... whether a Sunday... was the first... or the third Latihan... of the week...!

And she had Received... that if she got her Latihans... regularly... three times a week... her "going" ... would be "pushed forward..."! Just like her Beloved Bapak... had indicated to her... in his precious letter to her... which also included... the perfect diet for her...!

At one point... concerned for Muftiah... Farlan wrote a letter... to his SUBUD Sister Helpers... letting them know... that if all the many of them... throughout the Bay area... took turns... in attending to his ailing wife Muftiah... then each Helper... would have to come... only once... every six months...!

But alas... they never responded accordingly... which would have been so perfect... making it much easier for them... in their busy lives...

And once again... Muftiah was reminded... of Bapak's comment... that the Americans... were such individualists... and what a pity... that such was the case... generally...!

...read more in Chapter 19

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