Farlan And Muftiah Quickly Learn... That Allah Almighty God... Is In Charge... Of Every Aspect... Of Their Marriage... Including Sexual... And Not Them...!

Farlan and Muftiah... both quickly learned... that Almighty Allah... Was In Charge... of every aspect... of their most unusual marriage... and not them... including their sexual life...!

Consequently... their marriage was not consummated... until about three months... after Farlan's God Commanded circumcision... and Muftiah's burns... healed...!

And most uncomfortably... and abruptly... one afternoon... on their burning hot... waterbed... heated from the rays... of the bright sun... streaming into the upstairs bedroom window...!

Because Farlan happened to overhear... her Sisters asking her... what kind of lover he was... eager to know... all the juicy details... during a SUBUD gathering... that afternoon...!

And laughing at her... when she innocently told them... that she didn't really know... chiding her... for not being able to seduce her husband... in three months...!

And as soon as they got home... that afternoon... with his offended ego... all in a dither... he had pounced on her... with both of them... all sticky and sweaty...!

They soon came to learn... that their sexual life... was also Orchestrated... and Conducted... by their Creator... Allah Almighty God... after their brief... belated... three week honeymoon... in Hawaii... with Farlan having Received... that they were to move there... about five months into their unique Jiwa to Jiwa marriage...

And now nicely healed... from his God-Commanded circumcision... Allah Gave Them Carte Blanche... Sexually... Without Any Interference... during their honeymoon...!

But once the honeymoon was over... He Restricted them... to only Once... Every Two Months...! And they soon came to understand why...

When the Command... "Now Time To Unite Sexually...!"... Came... Muftiah was always the one... to Receive the Command... which would irk Farlan... no end... and which was very hard... for his proud male ego... to accept... a real test for him...!

And his wife... sympathetically... and gently suggesting... that he ask God... about why it was she... and not him... who always Received the Command... for sexual intimacy... would result in his being stoically adamant... about never asking God for anything... about anything... and that if God Wanted him to know about something... then He Would let him know...

On looking back... the reason why Muftiah was the one... to Receive the Command... for sexual intimacy... and not Farlan... may have been due to the fact... that Allah Always Knew... when she would be likely to be more receptive... than usual...

Because of her deep-seated... sexual trauma... caused when she was brutally... sexually assaulted... by a young German POW... when she was a very sensitive... head-in-the-clouds... seventeen year old student... living in England...! (The full tragic story... and how her Guardian Angel Rescued her... yet again... is told under Part II EUROPE... under Chapter heading "Rape...!")

About which... she was not really aware... erroneously believing... as she grew older... having concentrated herself primarily... on Spiritual Growth... and Development... that since she was a Spiritual person... it was quite natural for her... to have no spontaneous sexual feelings... of arousal...!

And she found out... how wrong she was... when... at the ripe old age of sixty-eight... and in her 37th year in SUBUD... she Experienced spontaneous sexual feelings... for the very first time... in her life...!

Right after her dear Guardian Angel Friend... suddenly Informed her... one morning... Speaking in her right ear... as usual... as she was sitting... all alone... in her recliner... in front of her TV... watching the complicated... romantic entanglements.... of the fascinating characters... on her favorite soap opera... "The Young & The Restless...:

"You Are Now Purified Of The Deep Seated Sexual Trauma... Caused When You Were Seventeen... Living In England...!"

(That Miraculous Event... is fully described... under a separate Section... titled "Heavenly Visitations...")

For ever since that horrendous attack... in England... sexual intercourse... had always been a terrifying ordeal for her... an act that she would always endure... with gritted teeth... her long body... all tensed up... unable to relax...

And the strangest thing was... that no matter how much... she was in love... with her lover... of the time... and wanted to give herself to him... with all the love... she had for him... in her heart... being cat-like... and loving to be fondled... and tenderly caressed... by him... it seemed... as if her nether body... had a mind... and abhorrent memory... of its own...!

Because it would instantly... freeze tight shut... in recoiling terror... at the mere touch... of the intended invasion... by her lover's penis... of its private parts...!

But on the other hand... by complete contrast... oral stimulation... of her body... and private parts... either by her lover's fingers... or tongue... always made her shiver... with joyful delight... wanting to make her purr... like a cat... and never caused her to freeze tight...!

And especially when she knew... that anal penetration... was on the horizon... being her current lover's preference... which was actually quite pleasurable... enabling her to relax totally... without her usual feeling... of fear and dread... that the delightful fondling... and caressing... of her delighted... receptive body... was naturally going to be followed... by the dreaded... terrifying act of sexual intercourse...!

For being born... with the nature of a cat... she loved to be petted... and caressed... feeling like purring contentedly... every time a man tenderly showed his love for her... through his gentle touches...!

And she quickly came to understand... even more... why Almighty Allah... Restricted their sexual intimacy... with each other... to only once... every two months...!

Because of what transpired... during... and after... their very first... Allah Commanded... Sexual Union... Given to Muftiah... about two months... after their sexually unrestricted honeymoon... in Hawaii... was over...!

First they were Commanded... to wash their entire selves... including shampooing their hair...!

And while Muftiah... as usual... was in an instant state of surrender... the moment the Water of Life... gently Rained down... on her naked body... she Received... to her great dismay... that she was not to surrender herself... to her husband... while she lay in his arms... during their forthcoming sexual union...!

But she was to surrender herself... only to God... for her protection... because her husband was undergoing... extensive Sexual Purification... both his own... and also that of his ancestors... at the time... the powerful Essence of which... she would unnecessarily absorb... if she surrendered herself to him...!

Farlan and Muftiah Were Instructed... always to be in a state of humble surrender... to Almighty God... during their sexual union... and always with their bodies and hair... cleansed... whenever they were to be sexually intimate... with one another...!

Fully understanding why only once... every two months... when she Experienced... the type of very deep Purification... that can only Be Possible... in the married state...!

So here she was... for the first time... lying tensely... as usual... in her young husband Farlan's arms... dreading what was obviously coming... at any second... with Allah Almighty God... Conducting Their Sexual Union... for the very first time...!

And the most incredible thing happened... She soon realized... that Farlan was in a state of deep surrender... and that he Was Being Perfectly Guided... and Directed... Being Shown exactly... What To Do... to gradually relax... his fearful... tense wife... as she lay stiffly unresponsive... in his arms... her exceptionally long body... cringing...

Naturally... she had been fearfully expecting... to be penetrated... at any moment... without any foreplay... of tender caresses... whatsoever...

Utterly flabbergasted... and to her great amazement... and growing delight... she saw that Farlan... was Being Totally Guided... By Almighty Allah... In How To Intimately Use His Fingers... Lips... And Tongue...! ... to bring his wife... to a state of ecstasy...!

And her young husband... was so loving... and so tender... that before long... she started to relax...

And then... when she felt... that she was melting... and totally at ease... she experienced... a most overwhelming Feeling... that she had never... ever experienced before... in her life...!

And feeling the Vibration Of God's Great Holy Life Force... Pulsating Strongly Inside Her... Like A Bubbling Fountain Of Joy... she remembered... in the nick of time... that she was only to surrender herself... to her Beloved Creator... and not to her husband...!

Their precious moments of love... in each other's arms... had been very tender... and very intimate... so that she was taken completely aback... and shocked... to the very depths... of her soul... when... as soon as their Allah Commanded union... was over... her tender loving husband... of moments before... turned on her... and began to rail and rant at her... and the scathing look in his now blazing green eyes... was one of sheer hatred...!

And she soon came to understand... why they were to unite sexually... with each other... so seldom... because of all the deep seated errors... their own... as well as those of their ancestors... which they carried inside them... that needed to be Purified... and Cleansed... and Corrected... out of both of them...!

These most intimate... tender episodes... of Allah Guided love-making would... by total Contrast... be immediately... and instantly followed... by the most intense periods... of separate Purification... which would directly... and greatly separate them... from each other... in their feelings...!

And with each passing day... they would grow further and further apart... fighting... and bickering... and continuously finding fault... with each other...!

Until... feeling... as if they had become practical strangers... to each other... Allah Would Suddenly Command them... through yours truly... to be sexually intimate... with each other... once again...!

And obeying... they would instantly feel Inwardly... as one again... with warm tender feelings... towards each other...!

Until another bout... of intense Purification... right after their sexual union... completely separated them... in their feelings... towards one another... once again...!

And right after their intimate... sexual union... always in a state of surrendered Latihan... there would be the usual tirade... of his angry... vehement animosity... towards her...!

She was always shocked... when it happened... every single time... dazed by such a complete turn-around... from close... warm... tender affection... to either ranting and raving at her... or by complete contrast... icy cold indifference... and aloofness... and disdainful... hurtful criticism from him...!

And his most unpleasant behavior... towards her... at times... would almost make her feel... like a despised... cheap... dirty whore...!

And the strangest thing was... that as soon as Farlan... stormed out of their home... with both of them... fiercely hating each other... the moment... the front door slammed closed... behind him... Muftiah would instantly feel... utterly bereft... and feel an acute pain... as if her Jiwa... Was Being Split in two...! And she would long for him... to come back to her...!

He... meanwhile... never stayed away from her... for very long... and she wondered... whether he had the same reaction... of feeling bereft... without her... as she had...

But being a stoic... secretive Cherokee Red Indian... he never opened up... his intimate self to her... not until quite a number of years... after they were no longer... a true husband and wife...!

Looking back... Muftiah has come to realize... that Allah's Unique Scheduled Agenda... for them... was nine days of intense... hellish Purification... of being at total odds... with one another... followed by one extraordinary... twenty-four hours... of blissful harmony... when everything was gloriously perfect for them... in every way... usually prefaced... by Farlan suddenly Receiving... while at work...:

"Take Your Wife Out To Dinner... Tonight...!"

Or... when he had plans... to go somewhere... by himself... he would Receive...:

"Together...!"

And also... during this time... Muftiah became the brunt of her husband's Sexual Purification... of "It Must Out..." ... being taken by him... for a while... to porno movie theaters... where she sat... next to him... quietly surrendered to God... with her eyes closed... until they no longer held any more fascinating interest for him... the Process lasting for about six months...!

Her husband was also... at times... Commanded By Allah... after his Delightfully Guided Foreplay... to engage in anal intercourse... with her... the act Protected... by him being in a deeply surrendered state of Latihan... which she enjoyed... without fear... or dread... until he had had his fill... and was no longer interested... that particular Process... also lasting about six months...!

(Curiously... during the course... of her SUBUD years... there were quite a number of SUBUD Brothers... both in South Africa... and in the USA... who instinctively trusted her... and whom she Spiritually assisted... in getting over their fascination... with blatant... lustful sex... lewdly portrayed... in pornographic movie theaters...!

Receiving to go to the porno theaters with them... whenever they invited her... and for Protection... to remain in a surrendered state... of Latihan... as she sat quietly next to them... with her eyes closed...!

And in South Africa... where there were no porno theaters... her SUBUD Brothers... would trustingly... confide their sexual fantasies... of God Forbidden acts... to her... while she remained... in a surrendered state... of Latihan... with all of them... undergoing their Sexual Purification... of "It Must Out...!"... the particular Process... usually lasting about six months...)

One of the the most annoying things... that irked Muftiah... about Farlan... was that he never believed... anything she ever said... neither about her vast Spiritual Experiences... and many Miracles... in her life... nor about anything else...!

But particularly about her SUBUD life... always resentful of the fact... that her years in SUBUD... far outnumbered his... by about fourteen years...!

And she would be amazed... when he would come home... and enthusiastically tell her... about something he had heard... believing the person... who had told him... implicitly... even a total stranger... which turned out to be exactly the same thing... she had told him about... and refused to be believed by him...!

For instance... she felt it was so important... for him to truly understand... the seriousness... about the mixing... of male and female forces... and how they interacted... with one another... often in a negative way...

Confiding to him... her own experience... when she lived in the port city of Durban... in South Africa... and in her first year in SUBUD... slept with her charming boyfriend... who... she found out later on... from his own mouth... happened to be a womanizer... who wanted to test... how far her compassionate... cosmopolitan understanding... of his behavior would go...!

And being such a sensitive soul... she immediately went into a state of Spiritual Crisis... which lasted for about three months... with lots of unpleasant... Purifying Latihans... before she was restored to herself... with her wonderful... SUBUD Lady Helpers... gently explaining to her... all about the mixing... of male and female forces... and how they could be detrimental... to one another...!

For there is the very real Spiritual Fact... that whenever a male and a female... no matter at what age... engage in sexual intercourse... with each other... the male not only passes... his own male force... to the female... but also all the female forces... he absorbed... from the other females... he had slept with... before her...!

And the female... likewise... passes on to the male... not only her own female force... but also the male forces... of all the men she had slept with... before him...!

So that... if for instance... a husband is repeatedly unfaithful... to his faithful wife... with other women... but still also goes on... sleeping with her... there may come a time... when she not only... no longer recognizes him... as the man she fell in love with... and married... but may also no longer recognize herself... because of all the mixing... of the different male and female forces... she has absorbed through him...!

This is why active prostitutes... age so rapidly... because of all the different male and female forces... they constantly absorb... in their profession...!

But all these most important explanations... to stubborn Farlan... fell on deaf ears... because it was experienced Muftiah... telling him about them...!

There is the hurtful... and bewildering fact... that even to this day... on February 20th ... 2009... Farlan still refuses to read... whatever she has written... except for little snippets... here and there...!!!???

At one point... confiding... that reading about so many painful experiences... in her life... hurts him too much...! Although recently... he has caught himself... reading more and more...!

Nevertheless... he is perfectly willing... to publish everything... she has written... on this website... called "SUBUD Stories..."... simply because his Inner Guidance... tells him to... and he dare not disobey it...!

...read more in Chapter 27

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