The Abrupt End... Of Working In The World... Is Very Difficult... For Fiercely Independent Muftiah... To Accept...!

Before her marriage to Farlan... Muftiah had been very active... working in the world... but as soon as she had entered... the holy estate of matrimony... with him... all her involvement... with the world... came to an abrupt halt...!

And in addition... to her usual... frequent daily Guidance...of...:

"Allah Guiding...!" and "Obey Allah...!"

...to curb her willful... defiant spirit... she began to also Receive...:

"Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!"

And she would often feel guilty... at no longer being active... in the world... as she had been brainwashed... and trained to be... from her girlhood... with her father... torn between his love for her... his secretly "Darling Nadia..." ... and his passion... for his neurotic... jealously possessive Russian wife... Xenia... suddenly becoming harsh towards her... constantly telling her... that he had never wanted her... the brainless "dumb cluck" ... to be born...! And that the only worth she had... since she had been born... was in making herself useful to others...!

And she would often feel sad... and guilty... about no longer contributing... to help making this unhappy... disturbed world... a better place to live in... in some small way...

From time to time... Muftiah would try for an outer life... of usefulness... trying to bargain with Allah... that being useful... in the world... would be good for her... since it has always been her nature... to love being of service... to others...

However... it never worked... It seemed that the Blue Rainbow Arch... that Farlan saw... above her head... on the night he Received... that he was to become circumcised... before marriage... at the Santa Cruz SUBUD House... accompanied with the Flashing Words...:

"No More Working In The World"

...was to stand... forever...!

And the Divine Message... did not please her one little bit... for she hated the idea... of being entirely dependent... on another person... for she had always joyously gloried... and thrived... on living her wonderful... God-Guided life of independence...!

She had been working in the world... since the age of twelve... when she earned her living... teaching English... to Swiss adults... in Zurich... then singing... at the opera house... in operas... and operettas... at the tender age of sixteen...!

And from the age of seventeen onwards... gaining Secretarial work experience.... first at her father's affiliated offices... of the Rolex Watch Company... at their London office... during her school breaks... from the Kensington Secretarial College For Girls... in London...

And as an adult... holding down various positions... in all kinds of fields... from industrial... to legal... to Consular... to EMI (Electrical Music Industry)... to Bell Telephone... to BSA motorcycles... General Motors... department stores... Helvetia Insurance... Claude Neon... The Insurance Company of North America (where she found SUBUD!) etc.... and also working in the healing profession... and the literary field... and hotel business...!

And she had also cultivated culture... by continuing to sing in operas... musicals... on radio shows... with dance orchestras... and in exclusive... private nightclubs... in church... and at wedding receptions... and hospitals... and nursing homes...!

In the year... prior to marrying Farlan... she had been extremely busy... "working"... just as Almighty Allah Had Told her... she would... on that memorable sunny morning... in Soquel...!

Holding down five different jobs... all of which she loved...!

Such as practicing the art of Shiatsu Accupressure... on patients... in SUBUD Brother... Dr. Maniscalco's Chiropractic practice... with him having trained her...!

She was also teaching singing... to sundry SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... not as she had been trained... but Receiving how to bring their voices... gloriously forth... from their Jiwas...!

She was also busy... stringing beads... for the SUBUD enterprise... Dharma... and teaching French... writing... and elocution... and typing up yet another manuscript... for a budding author...!

Because so many of Dr. Maniscalco's patients... came to him... for treatment... after their work day was over... Muftiah... often did not get home... until late at night... too late for the earlier scheduled Group Latihan... at the Marin SUBUD House...!

But nevertheless... she got her Cleansing Latihan... every night... after the last patient left...

Last but not least... Muftiah was a "reserve" Helper... for the Marin SUBUD Group... And always managed... to be present... by fluke... whenever there was an "Opening"... of a new Member... scheduled... which required two Helpers... to be present... and there was only one Helper there... thus fulfilling her role... as a "reserve" Helper... as Willed by Almighty Allah...!

In short... by the time she married Farlan... at the age of almost forty-five... she had pretty much covered... quite the gamut... of "working in the world"...!

...read more in Chapter 29

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