Muftiah Finally Accepts... Being Only A Housebound... Inwardly Muslim Wife... And Homemaker...!

In looking back on her life... Muftiah now realizes... that her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Was Gradually Weaning her... away from the world... that she had been so variously... and actively fulfilled in... for so long... and Farlan was the perfect mate... with whom she was to experience... her new existence... of...:

"Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!"

For she finally... after angrily champing at the bit... for about two years... happily became the traditional Muslim homemaker... whose sole existence... contentedly revolved... around her husband... and her home... and whose every action... Was Guided... By The Power Of Almighty Allah... which she constantly felt... inside her... like a Bubbling Fountain of Joy...!

As for Farlan... he had always wanted a wife... who had traveled around the world... as much as he had... considering herself Internationally cosmopolitan... and sophisticated... yet whose greatest desire... was to be a simple housewife... happy in making her home... a peaceful haven... for her husband... to come home to...

His friends laughed at him... saying that no such creature existed... for the contrast... would be too paradoxical...!

But it so happens that... although she has had a wealth... of worldly experience... traveling... and living... from one side of the globe... to the other... all she has really ever wanted... was a cozy... peaceful... "Little Blue Heaven"... in a little corner of the world... with her Beloved... One and Only...!

"Now Muftiah Make Muftiah Happy...!"

...as her Inner Guidance... so often was... and still is... having found it very difficult... to accept... in the beginning... for she had no idea... how to make herself happy... exclusively...!

Muftiah had a young... energetic husband... who was miserable... if he was not working... who hated to be idle... his mind always full of new ideas... and new projects... he wanted to pursue...

When he Was Miraculously Led to SUBUD... with all of him... Being "Opened..." and "Awakened..." at once... a Large Book... Was Placed... In Front Of Him... And He Spiritually Saw... In Its Pages... that he would be doing many different things... in his future SUBUD life...!

Being an extremely gifted artist... who paints beautifully... he is also an accomplished pianist... who Receives the most Heavenly music... through his soul... and into his sensitive fingers... although he has never had a music lesson... in his life...!

And by complete contrast... being born... with a very sharp... keen mind... for the scientific...! A real genius... just like her genius brother Remo...! May he be Gloriously Happy... in his Paradise of Heaven...

And despite all the fighting... and bickering... and arguing... he always made it his business... to see to it... that his wife... was as comfortable... as possible... in her home surroundings... both physically... and esthetically... never denying her anything... she Received she should have...!

For His Guidance... would often be... "Trust Muftiah...!" ... even at times... when his logical... clever... scientific mind... thought otherwise...!

And he also was very sensitively aware... of the times... when she would deliberately... shrink herself away... sitting as still... as a statue... in one position... for far too long... too afraid... and nervous... to draw attention to herself...!

And he would become very loving towards her... gently coaxing her to relax... and change her position... full of understanding... about her early childhood... when she was mostly ignored... as a despised... embarrassing love-child... born to her imperious... proud... exquisitely beautiful... Madonna-like Contessa mother... in adultery...!

As already said... a very rare... noble soul... indeed...!

What neither of them knew... at the time... though... was that her mother's gross neglect... of her little Tzi-Tzi... carelessly leaving her... in the care... of a succession... of village Amahs... had led to her little body... being sold by them... to low class... coarse Daiku-sans (construction laborers)... to be "inspected"... and fondled by them... who had never seen a white-skinned... golden-haired... baby girl... with blue eyes... before...!

And they would even slash... at her terrified little body... with their sharp knives... to see whether her blood flowed... as red as theirs did...!

And her Amahs... having brainwashed her into believing... that she was a "Nippon no Koi Mega-Mi" (Love Goddess)... born to please all men... thought nothing... of letting her see them... fornicating with the Daiku-sans... right before her eyes... making her terrified... that what she was seeing... was to be her fate... when she was old enough...!

The awareness... of those terrifying afternoons... of her sexual abuse... carried out in the back rooms... of the little village shops... were Mercifully Removed from her... by her Beloved Heavenly Father... when she was about seven years old... when she begged Him... to please let her come back Home to Him... in Heaven... because the weight of her shame... had become too heavy... for her to bear...!

And the memory... of those frightening times... were only fully restored... when she was at the ripe old age of seventy-two... via her Beloved soul mate... Richard... Sent down to her from SUBUD Heaven... with the Mission... to help her remember... telling her... that before she could leave earth... she would have to confront... all the experiences of her life... which had deeply shaken... and affected her sensitive self...!

(You can read all about those disgusting... terrifying... helpless afternoons... of the sexual abuse... of her little two to four year old body... in the special segment... titled "Heavenly Visitations..."!)

Perhaps that was the reason... why she would shrink away... at times... because... somewhere... in her subconscious self... her soul remembered... her sexual violation... when she was just a helpless... little baby girl...!

...read more in Chapter 30

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