Muftiah Gets "Attacked" ... Daily... In Her Kitchen...!

Finally... they were five years... into their Jiwa to Jiwa marriage... now living... in the Great Northwest... in Bellevue... a lovely suburb of Seattle... coming from Tampa... Florida... with Farlan Receiving the name of "Bellevue..." ... as the perfect place... for them to live in... during his very first Latihan Kejiwaan... at the SUBUD Seattle House...!

And it came to the point that... whenever Muftiah... would enter the kitchen... what she had come to call... her "battle arena"... at about four o'clock... in the afternoon... feeling peaceful and calm... as usual... the bottom would drop out of her complacent world...!

Ever the born optimist... giving herself plenty of time... to prepare a delicious dinner... for her hard working husband... for whom she felt such an abundance... of Inner love... and respect... with them no longer fighting... and arguing with each other so much... the following would happen...:

A feeling of abrupt Shock... Would Come over her... and she would just stand there... in the doorway... like an idiot... staring into space... her mind a total blank...!

And after what seemed like an interminable eternity... beginning to feel foolish... she would tell herself... to get a move on... as precious time was passing by... and Farlan would soon be home... ravenously hungry...

And she would literally force herself... to take that giant step... into what she now knew... irrevocably... was enemy territory...!

And feeling suddenly very heavy... physically... slowly... with great difficulty... she would set about... preparing their dinner... and the atmosphere in the kitchen... was like groping... through a thick fog...!

Then... while bent over the counter... or the stove... her legs would suddenly Be Attacked... by a myriad of Sharp... Stinging Sensations... not unlike flea bites...! However... when she looked down... to investigate... there would be no bite marks... on her never ending long legs...!

These invisible... painfully Sharp Stings... would make her jump... from one foot... to the other... making her increasingly nervous...

And she would spill the ingredients of recipes... breaking dishes... and burning herself... frequently... in the battle arena... of the kitchen... eventually emerging... with battle scars... of little cuts... and little burns... on her hands... and exceptionally long fingers... from her hard-won efforts... in there...!

This horrendous... nerve wracking state... would last... for as long as she remained... in the kitchen...

And the instant she left it... the Stinging Sensations... on her legs... would Stop...!

When Muftiah told Farlan... about her ordeals... in the kitchen... and he was a witness to her "Attacks"... many times... he would blithely explain them away to her... by telling her... that they were simply nafsu... trying to stop her... from doing her wifely duty... suggesting that she should just ignore them... and go on cooking...!

He explained further... that he frequently had these kinds of "Attacks" himself... on his legs... and that it was just a form of necessary Purification... of the lower forces... of his nafsu... Being Ejected... out of his body... by the Power of God... reassuring her encouragingly...:

"Just be patient... the Stinging Attacks... can't last forever...!"

Naturally... she believed... and trusted him... and kept on trying to cook for them.... But these strange... unnerving... Invisible... Stinging "Onslaughts"... on her legs... Continued... every single time... she stepped into her kitchen... to cook their dinner...!

And by marked contrast... she had absolutely no trouble... preparing herself something to eat... for her own breakfast... and lunch... in the very same kitchen...!

Never any Stinging Attacks... on her legs... but...on the contrary... Receiving to Joyfully sing Praises... to her Beloved Creator... Allah Almighty God...!

On very rare occasions... during one of her daily Latihans... she would Receive... that because Farlan... was having a particularly physically strenuous time of it... that day... it was all right to cook for him...!

Aand she would even Receive... what to prepare for dinner... that night... and their cozy meal... together... would turn out perfectly... with no "Stinging Attacks"... whatsoever...!

Looking back... on their years together... Muftiah now realizes... that she should have heeded... her original Receiving... in Hilo... Hawaii... not to cook for him anymore...!

As Perfect Guidance for her... from Almighty Allah... that was Correct... Enduring... and Lasting... for this particular marriage...

And that she should not have gone against... what her Creator... Chucklingly Suggested to her... that unforgettable morning... even though her intentions... at the time... seemed to be selflessly noble...!

Because she had already Received Guidance... from her Creator... years earlier... that every time... He Enlightened her... about something... The Holy Words... Given to her... Would Always Refer... To The Same Subject... And Never Vary...!

For He Was Ever Consistent... Knowing how weak His children were... easily influenced... by their clever... logical minds... and the fickle... never truly satisfied... emotions of their hearts... to assume otherwise...!

And also... that whenever He Gave her some Important Guidance... about something... in particular... He Would Not Repeat it... at a later date...!

Because He Expected her... to heed His Message... which was for all Eternity... for her... the first time... for He is Forever Steadfast... Never Wavering...!

...read more in Chapter 32

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