Muftiah Awakens... Amazed... To Find Herself... Still On Earth...!

When Muftiah regained consciousness... some time later... all her SUBUD Sisters... had left the room... except for Isnaini... who was standing quietly... by her bedside... with her eyes closed... still in a surrendered state of Latihan...

And she was absolutely amazed... to find herself... still alive...!

And as she lay there... very bewildered... the bedroom door opened... and Farlan quietly walked in...

And she immediately knew... that he was still in a surrendered State of Latihan... because the whole bedroom... was suddenly Charged... with the awesomeness... of his powerful male force... his Jiwa obviously Filled... with The Holy Life Force... Of Allah Almighty God...!

He calmly stood beside Isnaini... and Bowing his head... still in a State of surrendered Latihan... Muftiah heard him say the Received Words...:

"I Need You...!"

And a feeling of Shock... went through Muftiah... as she realized... that her now husband in name only... still needed her... and that is why she had not been able to leave earth...!

And Farlan... becoming aware of her dismayed reaction... came out of Latihan... and quickly reassured her... saying that he had already totally accepted... her going... And that in fact... he had also Received... that she was going to die...

Whereupon Muftiah calmed down... but soon became concerned about Isnaini... and her faith... and quietly asked her...:

"Are you disappointed...?"

To which she responded... after a long pause... by quietly answering "No..."

So Muftiah relaxed... relieved that Isnaini's faith... and trust in God... and all her remarkable Receivings... and trips to Heaven... had not been shaken... after all...

Now Muftiah lay there... on her bed... wondering why she had not gone... totally unaware... that her face was all Swollen... which Isnaini immediately noticed... as she later told her...

Had Farlan's still "needing" her... stopped her... from actually going...?

And she agonized... over this possibility... not realizing that Farlan's Jiwa... had been Addressing Isnaini... and not herself... in "Needing" her...

Then... as she lay there... still very puzzled... she suddenly heard the familiar Voice... of her dear Guardian Angel Friend... Who Had Been Watching Over her... all her life... and He Whispered in her right ear... as usual... Saying...:

"Remember... She Suffered Two Strokes...!"

Muftiah had completely forgotten... about the second stroke... and the fact... that it was the major one... that had actually caused... Princess Grace Kelly's death... neither had anyone called her attention... to that fact... during her previous month of preparation... to leave earth...!

Then she happened to look up at Farlan... and Isnaini... standing quietly... next to each other... beside her bed... and noticed... what a perfect couple they made...!

And she suddenly felt... that they were already a husband and wife Helper Team... caring for her... as their SUBUD sister... only...!

And Muftiah truly no longer felt... as if she was Farlan's wife...!

On the contrary... she felt as if she was intruding... on the secret Inner Bond of Love... that they now shared... together... in which she had no part...!

Feeling overpowered by this realization... suddenly tired... she drifted off to sleep... once again...

At about 6:00 a.m... after everyone had gone home... having stayed up all night... Farlan came back... into the bedroom... just as Muftiah awoke... again...

And they simultaneously noticed... that her face was all Swollen... and her left eye was Drooping...!

And it was then... that she felt a heavy Pressure... inside her head... and a Tightness... in her face and neck... as if her skin was stretched... She also felt a marked Numbness... down the entire length... of her long... six foot two... left side...!

And as she lay there... feeling very weak... the understanding came to her... that she was Being Made to Experience... her Receiving... of "Dying Of Stroke... In Full Awareness..." ... and not dying of "A" Stroke...!

And it was only then... that they both realized... with a Feeling of awe... that she had suffered... the Allah-Willed Stroke... just as Received... by Isnaini and herself...!

Although... at the time... when they were comparing their Receivings... about her Dying of Stroke... over the phone... she had a feeling... that her "Dying"... would take quite a few more years...!

And not relishing the idea... of prolonged suffering... she had brushed aside... her Awareness... of that fact...

Which today... on September 1st 2008... with Hurricane Gustav... pounding the coast... of poor Louisiana... once again... at the ripe old age of seventy-eight plus... has been more than twenty-six years... of continued "Full Awareness" ... that she is slowly... "Dying of Stroke..." ... still suffering them... from time to time... with added complications... as her body ages... but with her face... still looking twenty years younger...!

...read more in Chapter 46

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