Muftiah Seeks Help... From Her Subud Sister Helpers... And Is Very Disappointed...!

Muftiah's Sister Helpers... have been graciously coming to do special Sick Latihans with her... from time to time... which she appreciates very much... sharing a close Inner Bond... with all of them...

Since she did not actually pass on... into the Glory of her Afterlife... on the Special "Night of Vigil..." ... there has been much speculation... by some of her SUBUD Brothers and Sisters wondering... whether Farlan and Muftiah... are in some kind of Spiritual Crisis...!

There have even been suggestions... that Muftiah... might have a "death wish"...!

In view of all these opinions... floating around... Muftiah Received to ask her Sister Helpers... to ask Almighty God... about her unusual situation...

But other than Farlan... Isnaini and herseIf... nobody else... has actually Received anything... about her dying... other than that it is an Experience... Coming Directly from God... and not from her imagination...!

Apparently... Isnaini... Farlan... and Muftiah... are to be truly alone... in this unique Spiritual Experience... and it is indeed a test of trust... and faith... and patience... that their mutual Guidance... is truly coming from their Creator... Allah Almighty God...

Muftiah heard about how... as her dear SUBUD Sister... Halimah Martin... drove home to Santa Cruz... from the very special... "Night of Vigil" ... that she had attended... she had earnestly asked Almighty God... about Muftiah's unique situation... and Received... about how every soul needed to...:

"Prepare... Prepare... Prepare...!"

Bapak's initial message... to his two sincere SUBUD children... was open-ended... leaving the responsibility of Receiving further Guidance... up to them...

Farlan expressed his feeling... that Bapak's message... did not make it easy for them... by either confirming... or denying... their Receiving... and Guidance...

Rather... Bapak wisely gave his sincere SUBUD children... in a few short words... the entire picture... of what they were to Experience...

And how to remain properly submitted... entirely to God's Will... throughout the ensuing months... and years... now almost twenty-seven... of our faith... and trust... in Him... being Tested... by Him... without real help... or confirmation... from anyone else...!

And so Muftiah now waits... with all doubts gone... having Been Especially Trained... for the past nine years... to be patiently surrendered... and obedient... to the Will of Allah Almighty God...

Ever since... at the very outset... of her most unique... Jiwa to Jiwa marriage... to Farlan... Allah Suddenly Brought her outer life... of working in the world... which she loved... to a screeching halt... with the Command Of...:

"Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!"

There was initially a Divine Hint... of what was to come... which annoyed fiercely independent Muftiah... immensely... when... as she and her fiancé... Farlan... were leaving the Santa Cruz SUBUD House... with him just having Received... with his Helper Brothers... that he was to become circumcized... before marriage... Farlan suddenly Saw a Blue Rainbow Arch... above Muftiah's head... with the following Words... In Gold Lettering...:

No More Working In The World

...read more in Chapter 51

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