Muftiah Patiently Waits... For The Prophecy... Of Farlan And Isnaini... Now Called Ismana... To Be Fulfilled...!

Muftiah was being very patient... during the five years... from 1982 to 1987... waiting for the Prophecy... to be fulfilled... that Isnaini... who was now officially a Spiritual Helper... approved by Bapak... who also gave her her new SUBUD name... of Ismana... would get divorced... so that she and Farlan could marry... and Muftiah could go... constantly Receiving... "Baby Boy Coming...!"... giving her the Inner Feeling... that they would be exchanging places...!

Which almost happened one night... at the San Francisco... SUBUD House... when Ismana's husband... Saufan... after Latihan... approached Farlan... and begged him to take his strong-willed wife... off his hands... telling him that he already had another Japanese woman... he was seriously pursuing... courting her with flowers...!

And Farlan... still being in a surrendered state of Latihan... Received from Almighty God... to slap Saufan...! (probably for all the nasty ways... he had been treating his wife... for the past four years... of their marriage...!)

But as bad luck would have it... the Slap... and only the Slap... was... unfortunately... witnessed by a horrified Ismana... who had not heard her husband... begging Farlan... to take her off his hands...!

And becoming fiercely loyal... to her husband... and feeling guilty... about her strong feelings for Farlan... feelings that she had never before experienced... for a man... in her life... she convinced herself... that he was a bad temptation... which she must resist...!

And yet... whenever she came for special Latihans... with Muftiah... she would Receive... to call out plaintively... with such a sound of yearning longing... in her voice...:

"Farlan... Farlan... Farlan..."!

Then came the time... when An Angel Of God... Appeared To Farlan... In A Dream... One Night... And Told Him... That It Was All Well And Good... To Just Accept Ismana... In His Jiwa... But Did He Want Her...?

And when Farlan honestly replied... that he did... the next thing... Ismana was separated... and then divorced...!

She tried very hard... to appear innocent... claiming that it was all Farlan... who was having feelings about her... and that she had no such feelings for him...!

But every time... she merely mentioned his name to others... in protest... it was clear to them... that Ismana loved him... for her whole face would light up... and she would blush... to the roots of her hair...!

Muftiah became hopeful... once more... that she and Farlan would get together... especially after she left her engagement and wedding rings behind... one afternoon... after Latihan with Muftiah...!

Because when she called... to ask whether she had left them behind... it was Farlan... who answered the phone...!

And Muftiah... hearing the sound of his voice... in the living room... from her sick bed... as he spoke to Ismana... for the next hour... was absolutely enthralled...!

For in all the time... she had known him... she had never heard such sweet tones of tenderness... issuing from his mouth...!

And during their intimate telephone conversation... Ismana even went so far... as to confide to Farlan... that her husband... had threatened to kill himself... if she ever left him...!

But alas... soon after... Ismana's mother sickened... seriously... and Ismana went back home to Japan... to nurse her...

Interesting to note... all in all... Farlan and Ismana... had only two private encounters... with each other... although they saw each other... at the San Francisco SUBUD House... with other Members... where she always tried to avoid him... but kept bumping into him...!

Once... when he drove her... to the bus station... after she spent the weekend with them... in their apartment... and the second time... was their long... tender telephone conversation...!

And today... some twenty-six years plus later... Ismana is still longingly calling out Farlan's name... from inside his Jiwa... for they are still Inwardly Connected... to each other...!

And Farlan today... at the age of almost sixty-seven... on October 17th... the fateful day... of the great earthquake... in San Francisco... is still being faithful to her... living a celibate life... for all these years... and without dying of a sickness... like Muftiah slowly is...!

Truly a most remarkable... rare... noble soul... of enormous integrity...

One afternoon... when Ismana came for the usual Special Latihan... with Muftiah... after again plaintively calling out Farlan's name... she fell to her knees... at Muftiah's bedside... and cried out... in anguish... with tears streaming from her eyes...:

"Oh Muftiah... I still virgin...!"

And Muftiah understood perfectly... that although she had experienced pregnancy... she had never been fulfilled... as a woman... by her odd husband... who would think nothing... of running naked... down the street... to embarrass her...!

As she once confided to Muftiah... that living with him... was like living exposed... in a fish bowl...!

There is the curious fact... that Muftiah was never Permitted... to share with her beloved little "itoko"/SUBUD Sister... any of her Receivings... regarding her future with Farlan... neither that there was a baby boy coming... to be born to them... or to help her accept... a still legally married man... and come and live with them... so that she could become Spiritually... like her older cousin... in four year's time... as she was Told... when she was Lifted up to Heaven...!

It seemed that Ismana... had to come to the point... of obeying God's Will for her... all on her own... despite the conventions... of the day... cope with her own moral... narrow opinions... that it was wrong... to associate intimately... with a man... who happened to be still married... of which bed-ridden Muftiah... thoroughly approved... and who would have been overjoyed.. to have her dearly loved Ismana... come and live with them...!

...read more in Chapter 53

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