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By
Countess Muftiah Hateley Rau Turin
FOREWORD
In the pages... of this book... from the outset... of what has been written... in the Prologue... the reader will see... how it was born... already begun... way back in 1953... with the shock of seeing the sinking... of her beloved... Dutch ocean liner... the majestic "Klipfontein..." ... off the coast of Africa... in a newsreel... at His Majesty's Theater... in the metropolis of Johannesburg... South Africa...
The magnificent vessel... which... for about sixty days... had carried thousands of anxious... jittery passengers... including her... and her family... to safety... across the oceans... and high seas... fraught with constant... imminent danger... of lurking Japanese submarines... and German U-boats... during the early part of World War II...
And in the ensuing chapters... is described a most unusual life... of about ten years... growing up in the mysterious... exotic Orient... mostly in Japan...
For example... at already four years old... the first of three attempts was made... to kidnap yours truly... for the thriving Oriental Sex Slave Trade...!
Young girls with white skin... and blonde hair... and blue eyes... were a very rare... coveted commodity... for the wealthy Chinese mandarins... and brothels... throughout the Orient... and fetched the highest prices...
Another attempt was made... to kidnap the little girl... this time successfully... by a gang of Chinese thugs... on the day before her fifth birthday... as she was walking down the village street of "Kutsu Kake" (Put on your Shoes)... in Kobe... Japan...
And yet again... when she was about seven... this time... right out of her bedroom window...!
And each time... she was Rescued... by her Guardian Angel Friend... Who Appeared to her... when He Delivered her... from the Chinese ruffians... Transporting her... in His Arms... safely back to her home...!
Quickly noticing the proud mother's gross... careless neglect... of the little baby girl... her succession of village amahs... who all knew each other... all came up with the brilliant idea... of cleverly brainwashing their little "ningyo" (doll)...!
And lavishing all their attention on her... they made her believe... that she was a "Chiisai Nippon no Koi Mega-Mi" (Little Japanese Love Goddess)... born to give delight... to all "Nippon no ningen" (Japanese men)... just like the accomplished... beautiful Geishas... whom they were forever praising to the skies... to her...!
And at the age of already awkwardly too tall two... to about four... they would daily sell... her little baby body... to a variety of different... coarse... low-class... muscular... terrifying "Daiku-sans" (construction laborers) ... meeting with them... in the back rooms... of the little village shops... during the weekday afternoons...
These to her... huge... rough... frightening... guttural men... about five to seven of them... at a time... curious about the long-bodied... "burondo no sozobutzu" (blonde creature) ... who already spoke fluent Hiragana... the language of the upper classes... from her previous Nipponese incarnation... wanted to "inspect" her...!
And after fondling her... they would even expertly slash at her... with their sharp... glittering knives... curious to see... whether the "akambo no chi" (baby's blood)... flowed... as red... as theirs did...!
And all she could do... was just lie there... helplessly naked... and exposed... with her expensive... silk kimono... which her adored Papa... had brought back home for her... from one of his long... business trips abroad... opened to them...
And frightened out of her wits... with her head... cradled in her current amah's lap... as she stroked her long golden tresses... and cooed soft reassurances... to her... she would try to endure their rough invasion... of her trembling little body... with their fingers... and their tongues... and insertions of various things... into her "oshiri" (backside)... and be a brave little Koi Mega-mi... with the seductive scent of incense... pervading the softly lit room...
And she would even be forced... to watch them brazenly fornicating... in front of her... with her current amah... after they had had their fill of her... when sexually aroused... they would negotiate terms of payment with her...!
And trembling with fear... and with her little heart... beating very fast... she would wonder... whether what she was witnessing... of the panting... and grunting... of the men... and the high-pitched... piglet like squealing... of the women... and their sweaty... glistening naked bodies... would become her own "Ummei" (destiny)... when they thought her old enough...!
They even thought... of selling her to a prestigious Geisha House... where she would have been lost... to her largely indifferent family... forever... except for her adored Papa... but he was away so often... and for such long periods of time...
However... you will not be reading... about that horrendous... two year period... of her babyhood sexual abuse... in this book... because her Beloved Heavenly Father... Had Caused an Incredible Miracle... to happen... when she was about seven years old...
She had been constantly living... with the heavy weight of her shame... inside her... because... having the nature of a cat... and loving to be petted... and caressed... some of the fondling... and licking... and tickling... had stimulated her nerve endings... with pleasure...
And after undergoing two more soul-shattering shocks... one after the other... one morning... while she was staying with her Papa... and his new Russian wife... Xenia... in their brand new... two storey house... at the lovely beach resort... of Nara... during a short school break... she had begged Him... to Please let her Come Home to Him... because there had already been... far too many soul-shaking shocks... in her as yet very young life...
And if not... then to Please Let this be... her very last incarnation on earth...
And Her Heavenly Father... Had Not Allowed her to return Home to Him... but He Had Mercifully Removed... all memory... of her babyhood sexual abuse from her...!
But... as destined... she was kidnapped yet again... and for the very last time... that very night... of her Miraculous Deliverance...!
But you will be reading about her traditional Japanese custom... of sexual initiation... by the O-baa-san (village elder)... when she was about four and a half... which was not frightening... in the least...
The ghastly memory... of her babyhood sexual abuse... was finally restored to her... about five years ago... when she was about seventy-two... when her Beloved soul mate... Richard... Was Sent down to her... from Heaven... on a Special Mission...!
And it was to help her remember... her frightening... sexual ordeals... gently... and tenderly telling her... that before she left earth... she would have to confront... and overcome... all the conflicts of her life... which had affected her very deeply... and been disturbingly shocking... to her sensitive psyche...
And you can read... all the disgusting details... as they were painfully... wrenched out... and brought to light... from her deep sub-conscious self... in her special "VISITATIONS" segment... under the streaming umbrella... of...
"CLOSE ENCOUNTERS... OF THE SPIRITUAL KIND..."
on the recently set up website... called
"SUBUD STORIES..."
She was also forced to face her beloved son... Marco... whom she had "murdered"...! ... who was also Sent down to her... from Heaven...
But this book does describe... her fascinating four years... when at the age of six... she was sent to the world famous International School of Yokohama... with her six... and five year older siblings... sister Prima... and brother Remo... as permanent boarders... associating with children... from all over the world... learning all about their unique culture... different customs... and traditions...
Then after about a year... as a day student... at the Catholic St. Maur's Convent for Girls... because the ISY... sponsored by the Anglican Church of England... was forced to close down... with the outbreak of the war... at about eleven and seven months of age... narrowly escaping from Japan... on a Chinese junk boat... with her family... without official permission... to leave...!
Because of her Swiss father's vast import/export empire... across the Far East... and to the West... and because he might know something... of Japan's future... secret war plans... he was subjected... for about three months... to being harshly interrogated daily... by the Nippon no Keisatsu... at their Miharashibashi Keisatsusho (police headquarters)...!
With his family anxiously sitting... on their packed suitcases... waiting for him to come home... with official permission... to leave Japan...
And you will be reading... about the harrowing... four month journey... traveling from East to West... over land... and sea... with danger lurking... around every corner... and always... somehow... Miraculously avoiding it... with the terrible... uncertain conditions of war... always trailing... right behind us...!
For example... almost getting our throats slit... by the rough... highly excited... sing-song jabbering crew... of the Chinese junk boat... who were greedy for the valuables... sewn in our Russian stepmother... Xenia's clothing... before throwing our bodies overboard...!
Then again... avoiding being blown to bits... by a bomb... placed right under our restaurant table... in Shanghai... just before the bomb went off... as we exited the crowded restaurant... filled with people... of all nationalities...!
And on and on... the narrow escapes... kept happening... even with a beautiful... German spy on board ship... who had cleverly endeared herself... to the passengers... then almost got us torpedoed... by a German U-boat... off shore of the California coast line...!
Then... there is the hiatus... of almost three months... spent in the USA... with our Swiss passports confiscated... after almost being sent back to Japan... and certain death... because of the lingering shock of Pearl Harbor... pervading the country...!
And after an idyllic... short interlude... in Los Angeles... auditioning in Hollywood... and meeting in person... the two contrasting... exquisite movie star beauties... Hedy Lamarr... and Ingrid Bergman... undergoing horrendous experiences... in New York...!
From being terrifyingly mobbed... in a department store... by a thundering horde of hysterical females... who mistook five foot eight... yours truly... for the enigmatic legend... Greta Garbo... to almost being kidnapped... yet again... by a devilishly handsome... notorious sex slave trafficker!
Then there is the somber Atlantic crossing... and nerve-wracking... torturously snail-slow... train ride... across Portugal...
And then being thrown off another train... in Spain... with their passports... being confiscated... yet again... because the pompous official... refused to believe... that the odd looking blonde one... of the family... was the father's daughter... insisting that she was his wife...!
And then there is the Miraculous rescue... by Catholic nuns... living in the bowels of the civil war torn... blood-soaked... scorched earth... of Spain...who gave the Rau family... shelter... and food... after they walked for miles... in the pitch black... of a freezing night... towards what they hoped... was the French border... with their passports thrown after them...
And this time... yours truly was the one... who avoided... the terrible tragedy... of witnessing German soldiers... boarding the train... looking for the "Verdammte Juden"... and roughly hauling the hapless souls... off the train... never to be seen... or heard from... ever again...!
And last... but not least... the Miracle... of finding a Swiss Information Bureau... right at the French border... and armed with fresh... official entry papers... the final train ride across pristine... peaceful... cow grazing Switzerland... to their final destination... of Zurich...
In this soul's second book..."FROM SEVEN HELLS... TO SEVENTH HEAVEN... SUBUD..."being her Spiritual Odyssey... you will be reading about yours truly... at different times... known as Graziella... Grace... Tzi-Tzi... Chuchi... Grazia... Laura... and finally... Muftiah...
Which is to be her name... even unto the Glory... of her Afterlife... where she will be reunited... with her Beloved soul mate... Richard... who... during the early years of SUBUD... in the Western World... in the late fifties... had brought thousands of souls... White... Colored and Black... throughout South Africa... to the SUBUD Way... of worshiping God...!
First destined... as Graziella... for a seven year life... of sheer HELL... lusted after... for two years... by her young... tall... handsome blond... arrogant... Nazi schoolteacher.... always decked out in his Army uniform... including heavy boots... with her Guardian Angel Friend... always Rescuing her... from his evil clutches...!
And subjected... to the generally cruel... narrow minds... of the petty... anal retentive... humorless German Swiss... many of them secretly allied... with the megalomaniac monster... Hitler...!
Except for another idyllic interlude... when... at the age of sweet sixteen... at five foot ten... she became a fledgling opera singer... for a wonderfully happy year... at the Zurcher Staats Operhaus...
Before her father... abruptly sent her to England... for secretarial training... instead of honoring his promise... to send her to Italy... for further voice training... with him returning to Japan... with Xenia... the love of his life...
There were those horrendous... tumultuous... first five years... in HELLISH Zurich... then on to her one fatal year... in England... which was to drastically change... and affect... her psyche... for almost the rest of her life...!
Where... at the tender age of seventeen... as an innocent... daydreaming... head in the clouds... with one foot... always in Heaven... young girl student.. she was brutally... sexually assaulted... by a handsome young... German POW...!
And although her Guardian Angel Friend... Rescued her... from actual penetration... nevertheless the terrible aftermath... of blackouts... lies... and deceit... associated with her brutal attack... caused a life-long... deep-seated sexual trauma... inside her... the horrible effects of which... greatly plaguing her... were finally... totally Purified... out of her... by her 37th year in SUBUD... when she was about sixty-eight...!
Then back to Zurich... for another two HELLISH years... largely on her own...
And then... by complete contrast... immigrating to the continent of Africa... a few months after she turned twenty-one... to be reunited... with her adored... French/Italian mother... in Johannesburg... South Africa... from whom she had been separated... for thirteen achingly long years... because of divorce... and the war... and discovering... to her utter amazement... that she was a Countess...!
And after another tumultuous four years... including "murder"... suicide... and Miracles... and becoming a Divine Healer... through the world famous... Australian psychic... and medium... John Ford... moving to Southern Rhodesia... for the next six years... attending to hundreds of afflicted souls... there... and also in Northern Rhodesia...
And marrying for the first time... at twenty-seven... soon after being hospitalized... and going into a seven month long coma...!
And then back to South Africa... divorced from a three year... never consummated marriage... where... in her thirty-first year... she Was Miraculously Led... to SUBUD... and a Glorious reunion... with her soul mate... Richard... for whom... as her betrothed... and because of his betrayal... she had drowned herself... "to save face"... in her previous Japanese incarnation...!
And after another six years... of Spiritual Growth... and Development... in SUBUD... on to the Caribbean island of Antigua... and another three year marriage... which ended in yet another divorce... here in the USA... her final place on earth...
A large part of her tumultuous... unusual life... has dealt with the gamut of involving herself... in all kinds of fields... from secretarial... to medical... to the arts...
And there have been abortions... murders... suicides... rape... lesbianism... pornography... numerous love affairs... born ever an optimist... always looking for THE SPECIAL ONE... who would unlock her perpetual sexual freeze... three disastrous marriages... serious illnesses... and operations... near fatal accidents... car... and otherwise...!
And by complete contrast... Divine Healing... numerous Miracles... remarkable Revelations.. awesome Visitations... and many Spiritual Experiences... etc...!
All fully described in her second book...
"FROM SEVEN HELLS... TO SEVENTH HEAVEN... SUBUD..."
And also in the ongoing streamer...
"CLOSE ENCOUNTERS... OF THE SPIRITUAL KIND..."
Which will also feature... random snippets... of fascinating Spiritual Experiences... from SUBUD members... of all... and no religious faiths... different cultures... and traditions... from all over the world... with SUBUD now established... in over seventy-eight countries...
Thus all her extensive volume of writing... will be available... to the Blessed... worthy in the Eyes of God souls... who Have Been Guided... by specially assigned Angels of God... to "click" onto this recently set up... what this soul feels... is a Holy Website... titled...
"SUBUD STORIES..."
Because the very same Angels of God... Have Assured this humble to God soul... that the website will...
"GROW... FLOWER... AND FLOURISH...!"
May our Beloved Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... or by whatever Holy Name... you souls call your Creator... Bless each and every one of you worthy... Angel-Guided... "SUBUD STORIES" ... website clickers...
With the fervent hope... that you all enjoy... and are enlightened by... first by the following pages... of almost twelve years... of a turbulent life... lived to the hilt... full of danger... and excitement... and even some Miracles... ranging from the Far East... to the Far West...
And then by a further sixty-five years... of a largely tumultuous life... full of sudden... shocking upheavals... lived in Europe... Africa... the Caribbean... and finally... here in the USA... from Florida... to California... to Hawaii... to Colorado... then back to California... and finally to here... in Grand Bay... Alabama...
With Feelings of Inner Love for you all... and wishing you all lives of Inner Peace... Grace... and Harmony... with all those around you...
Countess Muftiah Rau Hateley Turin
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