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Johannesburg... South Africa... Some Time In Early 1953...
My Beloved Nippon... Land Of The Rising Sun... Remembered For Three Past Japanese Incarnations...!
Chapter 1
Yokohama... November 8th 1941... A Momentous... Startling Date In My Life... When I Am Forced To Say "Sayonara"... Forever... To My Beloved Nippon... Land Of The Rising Sun...!
Chapter 2
We Must Leave... Our Lovely House... On The Bluff...!
Chapter 3
Reading Papa's Random Thoughts... Makes Me Go Back... Into Some Of The Intriguing Past... Of Growing Up... Living In The Exotic Orient...!
Chapter 4
The Marked Discomfort... Of Living Under The Same Roof... For The Very First Time... With Love-Smitten Papa... And His Neurotic Wife... Xenia...!
Chapter 5
Poor Neurotic Xenia's Very Lonely... Unhappy Upbringing... In Military Camps... With Her Stern Father... General Bogoluboff... In Mother Russia... Sadly Turn Her... Into An Unsure Of Herself... Pathetic Soul... Who Is Fiercely Jealous... And Possessive... Of Her Beloved Theo... And At Times... Mean-spirited... And Vindictive...!
Chapter 6
The Rau Family Is Subjected... To Repetitious Dinners... Night After Night...!
Chapter 7
Saturday Nights Are A Mixture Of Bliss... And Terror For Me... Because Of The Fearsome "Genki"...!
Chapter 8
Our Invigorating... Sunday Hikes... Through Beautiful... Breathtaking Japan...!
Chapter 9
Xenia's Delectable Russian Specialties...!
Chapter 10
My Life-long... Very Special Relationship... With Dear Old Cook-san...!
Chapter 11
On Our Very Last Night... In Our House... Papa Gives Us Exciting... Cloak And Dagger Instructions... For Our Forthcoming... Sneaky Escape... Out Of Japan...!
Chapter 12
More Poignant Reminiscences... On The Night Of November 8th 1941... Recalling The Sudden Invasion... Of The Magnificent Mansions... On The Bluff... By German Military Families...!
Chapter 13
Our Prophetic Day Of Deliverance... On November 9th 1941... Which For Yours Truly... The Barely Tolerated... Awkwardly Too Tall... Brainless "Dumb Cluck"... Turns Out To Be A Most Significant Day... Full Of Joy... Disappointment... Shame... Chilling Fear... And Deep Sorrow...!
Chapter 14
A Brief Digression... Of Explaining The Miracle of SUBUD... To All The Specially Chosen... Blessed By God... Souls Of Mankind... Who Have Been Led... To This Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories"... By His Angels... In This Crazy... Dangerous World Of Ours...!
Chapter 15
Getting Back To The All Important... Prophetic Date... Of November 9th 1941...!
Chapter 16
A Frightening... Too Close To Home Scene... At The Hectic Yokohama Eki... (Railway Station)... Makes Me Realize... As Never Before... That We Were Getting Out Of Japan... Just In The Nick Of Time...!
Chapter 17
Some Meaningful Memories... Some Happy... Some Hellish... Including The Very Special Times... Spent With My Dear Angel Friends... Sitting Way Up High... In The Treetops... At St. Maur's Catholic Convent School For Girls...!
Chapter 18
Living On The Spectacular Bluff... Of Yokohama... Amidst Ferocious Typhoons... Devastating Floods... And Terrifying Earthquakes... That Would Occur Yearly... During The "Noroubeki Tsuki"... The "Cursed Months"...!
Chapter 19
The Great Shame Of Nippon... Being Their Inhumane Treatment... Of The Helpless... Pitiful Korean... And Formosan Refugees...!
Chapter 20
Remo And I Encounter Rishin... The Village Idiot...!
Chapter 21
Rachel... The Most Pitiful Girl... This Sympathetic Soul... Has Ever Befriended...!
Chapter 22
The Creeping Encroachment... Of The Insidious Tentacles Of Evil... Even Into Japanese Schools... Which Fact... I Find Out All About... In Person... While Being Protected... By My Angel Friends...!
Chapter 23
My Own Personal Encounter... With A Bullying... Nazi German Boy...!
Chapter 24
Shamefully... I Myself Become A Bullying Tomboy... As Tarzan...!
Chapter 25
The Closeness... Between Two Lifelong... Blood Oath "Tomodachis" ... "Miko-chan"... And "Sera-chan"... Is Suddenly Sadly Destroyed... Overnight... By The False Propaganda... Of War...!
Chapter 26
At St. Maur's Convent School For Girls... With Dear Sister Theresa... To Whom My Very Special... Heavenly Angel Friends... Reveal Themselves... That Momentous Evening... Which Ultimately Results... In My Shyly Opening Myself Up... Totally To Her...!
Chapter 27
My Soul Deep Confrontation... At The Age Of About Eight... With The Good Man Of God... Reverend Andrews... Of The Anglican Church Of England...!
Chapter 28
A Brief Synopsis... Of This Soul's Lifelong... Spiritual Search... For The True Path... Which Would Lead Her... Straight Back... To her Beloved Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God...!
Chapter 29
An Embarrassing Incident... at St Maur's... During A French Lesson...!
Escaping From My Beloved Nippon... Without Official Permission...!
Chapter 1The Momentous Advent... Into My Life... At The Tender Age Of Five... Of Neurotic "Auntie Xenia"... Being The Second Grownup... European Female...!
Chapter 2
Only Six Years... With A Mostly Absentee Mother...! ... And Yet How Well She Prepared Me For Life... On One Single... Unforgettable Night...!
Chapter 3
Mummie's Tzi-Tzi Darling... Is Shocked To Learn... When She Finally Reaches Her Mid Thirties... How Much Her Adored Mother... Had Always Loathed... And Despised Her... And Her Very Existence... Even Before She Was Born...!
Chapter 4
Mummie's Tzi-Tzi Darling... Also Hears... For The Very First Time... All About How Much Her Adored Mother... Loathing... And Despising Her... Had Tried To Abort Her... In Vain...! And All About The Publicity Generated... About Her Miraculous Birth... On The Holy Day Of Easter Sunday... Just After Her Mother... Had Accidentally Swallowed... A Deadly... Poisonous Solution Of Lye Mixture... In Her Ninth Month...!
Chapter 5
How Papa's "Darling Nadia's" Blissful Life... Changed So Greatly... Almost Overnight... With The Ominous Advent... Of Strangely Odd... Fractured... Fiercely Possessive... "Auntie Xenia"... Becoming The Love Of His Life...!
Chapter 6
Papa Falls In Lust With Me...! ... And Out Of Guilt... Almost Chokes Me To Death... Realizing Many Years Later... That It Was Because... He Had Caught Me... Dancing Ballet... Stark Naked... In The Light... Of A Full Moon...!
Chapter 7
A Most Unexpected Rare Day... Of Happiness... Alone With My Adored/Feared Papa Rau...!
Chapter 8
French/Italian... La Contessa... Vera Quarta Turin... Meets Bavarian... Alfred Stempfle... On The Very Day... Of Her Official Divorce Decree... From Romansch/Swiss... Theodore Rau...!
Chapter 9
My Precious Mummie... Going Off On Her Honeymoon... With Dear Uncle Alfred... Seems Lost To Me... Forever...!
Chapter 10
A Very Brief... Happy Interlude... Of Six Months... Living In A Lovely House... With My Adored Mummie... And Her New Love... Who Is Now... Dear Papa Alfred... To Me...!
Chapter 11
A Step Back In Time... To A Very Vivid Memory... Of My Previous Lifetime... As A Nipponese... And Reincarnation... Into This Lifetime... As A Caucasian...!
Chapter 12
The Fascinating International School Of Yokohama... My New Home... Away From Home... Where I Happily Rub Shoulders... With Students... Of All Nationalities...
And All Ages... From All Over The World... Instantly Feeling Right At Home... With All Of The Day Scholars... Thrilled And Delighted... To Learn All About Their Fascinating... Distinctive Character Traits... Different Religions... Cultures... Customs... And Traditions...!
Chapter 13
In Meeting Dear Mrs. Mendoza... our Hawaiian/Portuguese Housemother... I Become The Roommate... Of Her Nine Year Old Daughter... Elena/Eileen... The Fiend From Hell... Experiencing My Very First... Of Being Loathed... And Despised... By Another Human Being...! Elena's Jealousy... Ultimately Leading Her... Into An Uncontrollable... Destructive... Frenzied Rampage... Of Fury...!
Chapter 14
A Gross Insult... To The Discerning Palate... Of Being Forced To Eat... The Most Unappetizing Form... Of English Cooking... Ugh...!
Chapter 15
The Extremely Well Organized... Orderly Fashion... In Which The ISY... Was Being Run... And Operated...!
Chapter 16
An Equal Combination Of Education... And Sports... At The ISY...!
Chapter 17
My Adorable Little Baby Stepbrother... Hans Reiner... Is Born...!
Chapter 18
Some More Fascinating... Shameful History... About Nippon...!
Chapter 19
Magical Alpine Karuizawa... Where I Learn All About Agriculture... And Animal Husbandry... Taste Homemade Ice Cream... For The Very First Time... And Also Learn To Swim... All At The Age... Of About Seven And A Half...!
Chapter 20
My Discovery... Of A Secret Garden Of Eden... And A Family Of Tame Baby Frogs... Which Become My Adorable Pets...!
Chapter 21
A Very Dirty... Cruel Trick... Is Played On Me... Teaching Me A Very Valuable Lesson... Of How... "Pride Goeth Before A Fall...!"
Chapter 22
This God Created Soul's Most Extraordinary Life... Which Is Specially Monitored... Guided... And Directed... By Her Beloved Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... And The Miraculous Way... In Which the Glorious Blessing of SUBUD... Came Into Her Life...!
Chapter 23
The Reason Why Spiritual Growth... And Development... Is Of Primary Importance... For Every Single... God Created Soul... While Still Living... And Before Leaving Earth...!
Chapter 24
Dirty... Nasty... Sex Obsessed Walter... Our Only American Student...!
Chapter 25
On My Tenth Birthday... I Become Secretly... Gloriously Baptized... By Dear "Papa Bear"... Reverend Pott... Together With My Sister Prima... And Brother Remo... At The ISY... On Both The Happiest... And Saddest Day... Of My Young Life...!
Chapter 26
My Very Special... Unique Relationship... With "Papa Bear" Reverend Pott...!
Chapter 27
The Fascinating Story... Of How The International School Of Yokohama... Came Into Existence... After The Great Kanto Earthquake And Fire Of September 1st... 1923...!
Chapter 28
How The Far East... Met The West... And Vice Versa...!
Chapter 29
How Very Wise... Reverend Pott... Shows His Complete Trust... In His Permanent Boarder Students...!
Chapter 30
A Wonderful... But Shameful Afternoon... Spent At Dear Miss MacLean's Charming Hillside House... For Tea...!
Chapter 31
Some Sweet... And Some Poignant Memories... Of My Darling... Italian
Boyfriend... Guido Gandossi... From The Age Of Six...!
Chapter 32
My Very First... Verbal Declaration Of Love... At The Age Of About Nine And A Half... To A Member... Of The Opposite Sex... Being My Adored Boyfriend... Guido...!
Chapter 33
Poor "Shu-shu" Obsessed Pamela... Attacking Me Sexually... When I Was Only Three...!
Chapter 34
My Own Rude... And Sudden... Shocking Exposure... To Disgusting... Lewd Pornography... One Unforgettable... Rainy Afternoon... At The Tender Age... Of About Nine... And The Decadent Orgy That Followed... Closely Monitored... By My Guardian Angel Friend...!
Chapter 35
The Disturbing Echo Of... "Nippon No Heitai-san Wa... Banzai...!"
Chapter 36
Our Safe Arrival... In Nagasaki... Being My Very Last Night... On The Shores Of My Beloved Nippon...!
A Terrifying Night Crossing The China Sea... From Nagasaki To Shanghai... On A Scary Chinese Junk...!
Chapter 1
The Ghastliest Thirteen Hours Of Terror... This Sensitive Soul... Has Ever Experienced... In Her Young Life...!
Chapter 2
My Very First Exposure... At The Tender Age... Of About Seven... To A Most Shocking Deceit...!
Chapter 3
My Second Violent Encounter... This Time With An Insolent... Lewd... Naked From The Waist Down... Handsome Young Daiku-san...!
Chapter 4
Karate... And Judo Champion Papa's Strict Discipline... Of Daily Vigorous Physical Exercises... Ever Since I Was A Tot...!
Chapter 5
This Greatly Outraged... Seven Year Old Soul... Fearlessly Attacks... The Vulgar... Muscular... Naked From The Waist Down... Young "Daiku-san"...!
Chapter 6
The Most Incredible... Miraculous Blessing... Deliverance... And Divine Revelation... Of My Seven Year Old Life... When My Beloved Heavenly Father... First Removes All Memory... Of My Helpless... Shameful... Babyhood Sexual Abuse... From Me... And Then Shows Me His Wondrous Creation... As Seen Through His Perfect Eyes...!
Chapter 7
Kidnapped Yet Again...! That Very Same Night... And By The Very Same... Handsome Young "Daiku-san"... I Had So Viciously Attacked... That Very Morning...!
Chapter 8
The Diverse Cruelties... Of My Authoritarian Patriarch... First With The Dreaded... Huge... Terrifying... Dive Bomb "Aburamushis...”!
Chapter 9
...And Then With The Fearsome "Genki..."!
Chapter 10
This Humble To God Soul's Sudden Deliverance... Of Not Only One... But Two Miracles... Overnight...!
Chapter 11
The Poignant... Heart-wrenching Reason... For My Lifelong Terror... Of The Cockroach Species... From Dive Bomb "Aburamushis"... To Palmettos... Etc...!
Chapter 12
Papa Rau’s Diabolical Cruelties... Towards Me... Begun When I Was About Five... With The Fateful Advent... Of Jealously Possessive... Neurotic Xenia... The Love Of His Life...!
Chapter 13
About Three Months Into My Eighth Year Of Life... On The Fourth Of July 1938... Being The American Day Of Independence... Heralds My Life-Long Fragile Heart Beat Lurching Condition... Of No Name... Disgusting Papa Rau... Who Adamantly Refuses To Accept Any Weakness... In His Children...!
Chapter 14
“As Ye Do Unto Others... So Shall It Be Done Unto You...!”
Chapter 15
Papa’s Unexpected... Very Rare Acts Of Kindness... Towards His Secretly "Darling Nadia"...!
Chapter 16
“Ah Ha...! The Devil Made You Do It...!”
Chapter 17
A Very Unique... Japanese Babyhood...!
Chapter 18
My Happiest Times... At The Communal "Nippon no Yuya" (Japanese Bathhouse)... Splashing About Stark Naked... In The Huge Pools... With My Adored Papa...!
Chapter 19
My Very First... Devastating... "Dark Night Of The Soul"... Aboard A Chinese Junk... In the Stinking Bowels... Of The “Black Hell Hole Of China..."!
Chapter 20
A Soul-Searing... Pink Elephants Story...!
Chapter 21
The Puzzling... Frightening... Unexplainable Little Scars... In The Intimate Area... Of My Groin...!
Chapter 22
My Abject Terror... of My So-Called... Favorite "Uncle Wagner"... Whom I Cannot Remember...!
Chapter 23
Growing Up In The Mysterious... Exotic Far East... This Tender Soul... Is Exposed To Violence... From A Very Young Age... With Tinges Of Memories... Of A Previous Violent Life... As The Daughter... Of A Powerful... Ruling Shogun...!
Chapter 24
Our Very First... Wonderful Christmas Holiday... With Papa... And The Love Of His Life... Xenia... Married Now For About Two Years...!
Chapter 25
Almost Murdered... Robbed... And Thrown Overboard... On The Chinese Junk... On My Very First Agonizing Experience... Of "The Dark Night Of The Soul..."!
Chapter 26
Shanghai... Banzai...!
Exotic... Dangerous Cathay... Living Amid Unprecedented Acts... Of Deadly Sabotage... In Shanghai...!
Chapter 1
The Mysterious... Teeming Cosmopolitan City... Of Modern Shanghai...!
Chapter 2
An Unprecedented Act Of Deadly Sabotage... And Once Again... It Is Neurotic... Emotionally Fractured Xenia... Who Saves Our Lives...!
Chapter 3
My Frightening Daily Ordeals... With Hostile Chinamen...!
Chapter 4
Some Deep... Puzzling Soul Searching...!
Chapter 5
Yours Truly Becomes An Inadvertent Life Saver...!
Chapter 6
My Very First Russian Feast... On Xenia’s Thirty-fifth Birthday... The 19th
Of November...!
Chapter 7
Some Interesting Facts About Shanghai... Plus An Unexpected... Divine Revelation...!
Chapter 8
An Unexpected Quirk Of Fate... Saves Our Lives... Yet Once Again... Via Fractured Xenia...!
Sailing On The Perilous High Seas...!
Chapter 1
Some Embarrassing Moments... On Board The Dutch Ocean Liner... Ms "Tjisadane..."!
Chapter 2
Yet Another Miraculous Deliverance... From Certain Death...!
Chapter 3
This Humble To God Soul's Special Spiritual Grace... Of Life-Long Protection... Which... Because Of Her Modesty... She Does Not Truly Realize... Until She Is Exceedingly Blessed... To Be Inwardly... Gloriously "Awakened..."... And "Opened..."... Into The Miracle Of SUBUD... When She Is In Her Thirty-First Year Of Life...!
Chapter 4
A Miraculous Deliverance... From My Worst... Nearly Fatal... Car Accident...!
Chapter 5
The One And Only Time... This SUBUD Soul... As Muftiah... Defiantly Questioned... And Disobeyed... Her Constant... Perpetual... Daily Guidance... Of "Obey Allah...!"... And "Allah Guiding...!"... Thereby Losing Dearest Lilijana... One Of Her Closest SUBUD Sisters... In The Process...!
Chapter 6
The Insidious Brewing Of War... In The Pacific..!
Chapter 7
A Series Of The Most Shocking... Most Devastating War News...!
Chapter 8
My Horrendous... Daily Ordeal... With About Fifty War Babies... In The Children's Dining Room...!
Chapter 9
"Sayonara... Nippon No Riku Hinode...!"
Chapter 10
Going Way Into The Future... A Nasty Taste of Soul-Searing Confessions... Under "Heavenly Visitations..."!
Chapter 11
Back On Board the "Tjisadane"... Nostalgically Reminiscing... About My Life... In Beloved Nippon... And Of The Nights... When As A Four Year Old... I Would Join The "Bukkyoto Shinden No Odoriko..."! (Buddhist Temple Dancers)
Chapter 12
Yet Another Miraculous Deliverance... This Time From A Raging Bull...!
Chapter 13
More Poignant Reminiscing... About My Unusual Life... Growing Up In My Beloved Nippon... Land Of The Rising Sun... Mixed With Curiosity... About My Future Life... In My Home Land... Switzerland...!
Chapter 14
A Fairy Tale Babyhood... In Peking... China... Alone With Just My Adored Mummie and Papa...!
Chapter 15
The Beginning Of My Life... In Already Very Familiar Nippon... Where... At Two And A Half Years Old... I Become The Cause... Of Great Drama... At The Very Outset...!
Chapter 16
Theodore Rau's Most Unusual Penchant... For Wanderlust...!
Chapter 17
This Four And A Half Year Old... Humble To God Soul... Experiences Her Very First Prophesy... By A World Famous German Artist...!
Chapter 18
This SUBUD Soul... As Muftiah... Rescues Her Beloved Sister Prima... From Hell... Just Like She... As Grazia... Rescued Her Ex Husband Rene From Hell... Some Ten Years Earlier...!
Chapter 19
Two Identical... Miraculous Episodes... In Two Different Hospitals... Where This Soul's Heavenly Father... Avails Himself... Of His Loving Daughter's Services... To Be His Most Willing Channel... For The Divine Healing... Of Thirteen Co-Patients... Even While She Herself... Is Lying Flat On Her Back... Very Ill...!
Chapter 20
The Poignant... Heartbreaking Story Of Guido... And His Utter Transformation... Fourteen Years Later... Through The Power Of The Holy Word... "SUBUD"...!
Chapter 21
How Two Devoted Children Of God... Nadia And Dimitri... Are Introduced To... And Deeply Touched... In Their Souls... By The Miracle... Of The Holy Word "SUBUD"... In A Very Unusual Way... The Remarkable Experience... Exceedingly Blessing... And Transforming Them... Forever...!
Chapter 22
This Most Willing Servant Of God... Is Once More Called Upon... By Her Beloved Heavenly Father... To Be His Channel... For The Miraculous Healing... Of Again Thirteen Patients... Despite The Fact... That She... Herself... Is Lying Gravely Ill... In Hospital... Again... This Time... With Yet Another Nasty Kidney Infection...!
Chapter 23
Right After This Soul's Obedience... To Her Heavenly Father... To Be His Willing Channel... For The Healing Of Another Thirteen... Of His Chosen Souls... She Is Extremely Blessed... To Finally Be Led... Straight To Longed For... Elusive SUBUD... By Her Life-long Guardian Angel Friend...!
Chapter 24
Now... Even At The Ripe Old Age Of Seventy-Nine...This Trying To Be Humble To God... SUBUD Soul... Is To Offer Her Divine Healing Services... To Those Of Her Physically Afflicted... Kindred Brothers And Sisters... From All Over The World... Chosen By Her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God...To Be Healed Through Her... Once More...!
This Humble To God... SUBUD Soul's Noble... French/Italian Ancestry... Plus...!
Chapter 1
The Fascinating Ancestry... Of My French/Italian Mother... La Contessa Vera Quarta Turin...!
Chapter 2
"Contessa Graziella Nadia Rau... Di Turin... Di...!?"
Chapter 3
The Puzzling... Life-long Bewilderment Of Controversy... About The Actual Date... Of My Miraculous Birth...!
Chapter 4
My Adored Mother... The Proud... Imperious Contessa... Becomes Inwardly "Opened..." ... And "Awakened..." ... to Receive Contact... With The Great Holy Life Force... Of Her Creator... Almighty God... In The Glorious Miracle Of SUBUD...! And At The Same Time... He Removes From Her Darling Tzi-Tzi Daughter... Her Life-long... Harmful... Blind Adoration For Her...!
Chapter 5
The Truth About My Miraculous Birth... Is Finally Explained... To This Soul... Soon
After Becoming Muftiah... By Her Beloved SUBUD Father... Bapak... After He Takes Her Flying Up... Into The Heavens With Him... When She Is In Her Forties... And By The Grace Of God... Still Looking Twenty Years Younger...!
Chapter 6
My Mother And Her Adored... Seven Year Old Son... Hans... Get Swept Up... Into The Hitler Mania... In Germany...!
Chapter 7
Mummie’s Tzi-Tzi Darling... Is Tested By Her Adored Mother... To Give Up SUBUD... Claiming It Is Of The Devil... And Not From God...! In The One And Only Letter... She Has Ever Written To Her...!
Chapter 8
The Violent Sexual Ravishment... Of Innocent... Fifteen Year Old Vera Quarta
Turin... By Twice Older... Theodore Rau...!
Chapter 9
At The Age Of Seven... Vera Has A Frightening Sexual Encounter... With A
Catholic Priest...!
Chapter 10
The Marriage Contract... Arranged Between Vera's Formidable Grandmother... Nonna... And Theodore Rau...!
Chapter 11
Sixteen Year Old... Bridal... Pregnant Vera... Is Shocked To Meet Her New
Husband’s Japanese... Common Law... Geisha Wife... And Their Three Year Old Baby Daughter...!
Chapter 12
Vera Discovers Her Natural Prowess... On The Tennis Courts... And Five Years
Later... Just As She Officially Becomes La Contessa... She Meets Englishman Arthur Cannon... The Love Of Her Life...!
Chapter 13
The Innocent Love-child... Is Blissfully Conceived... In Adultery... On Top Of The
Cliff Called “Dai-shichi No Kami...”! (Seventh Heaven)... Being A Drowned Nipponese Soul... Determined To Immediately Reincarnate... To Be Reunited With Her Beloved "Itoshii"...! (Soul Mate)
Chapter 14
A Terrible... Fatal Public Scandal... Surrounds The Star-crossed Lovers... Arthur And Vera... Poignantly Separating Them...!
Chapter 15
Heartsick... And Publicly Humiliated... Imperiously Proud... Young Contessa Vera’s Seven Months... Of Excruciating... Festering... Agony... Banished By Her Husband... Home To Italy... To "Get Rid Of The Brat"... While Shamefully Hidden Away... In Her Zia Lucia's House... In Genoa... After Her Attempts... To Abort Her Now Loathed... And Despised... Love Child... Fail...!
Chapter 16
La Contessa Vera's Near Fatal... “Accident”... And Subsequent Deliverance... Of A Miracle Baby... On The Holy Day Of Easter Sunday... Who Is Named Graziella... Meaning “Little Grace Of God...”... By Hundreds Of Well-wishers... And Newspaper Reporters... From All Over The World... As They Pay Reverent Homage... To Mother And Angel Child... In The Turin Palazzo...!
Chapter 17
Theodore Rau... Intrigued That He Might Be The Father... Of The Miracle Baby Girl... Comes To Italy... To Investigate... For Himself... And Instantly Loses His Heart To Her...!
Chapter 18
Love-smitten Vera's Rude Awakening...!
Chapter 19
A Most Unusual... Spiritual Encounter... At An Outdoor... Mitch Miller Concert...!
A Very Important Digression... To The Miraculous Blessing Of SUBUD... Because This Humble To God... SUBUD Soul.... Is Constantly Being Reminded... By Her Beloved Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... That She Is About To Be Called Back To Him... At Any Moment...!
Chapter 1
Some Inner Reflections... Painful Purification Of Sins... And Prophecies...!
Chapter 2
Another Wonderful... Delightful Visitation... From Her Beloved SUBUD Father... Holy Man... Bapak... in 2009... While Muftiah Is Re-editing This Adventurous Epic... For The Very Last Time...!
Chapter 3
Quite An Amazing... Spiritual Experience... Of Incredibly Wondrous Enlightenment... Regarding The Great Destructive Force... Of The Comet Kahoutek...!
Mysterious Java... Exotic Pearl... Of Southeast Asia...!
Chapter 1
Slowly Inching Into The Java Sea... In The Tropical Heat... And Almost Shipped Back To Japanese Occupied Shanghai... Save For Another Miraculous Deliverance...!
Chapter 2
Three Magical... Carefree Days... Sampling Unique Javanese Cuisine... And Touring The Fascinating Islands Of Java... Which Is The Home... Of This Soul's Beloved Spiritual SUBUD Father... Who Some Nineteen Years Later... Would Indirectly... Lead Her To The True Way... For Her To Worship God...!
The Magnificent... Awesome Pacific Ocean...!
Chapter 1
Some Wonderful... Exhilarating Adventures... On Board the Majestic Ocean Liner... MS "Klipfontein..."!
Chapter 2
A Very Special... Delightful Invitation... To Yours Truly... From The Good Captain Post... Himself...!
Chapter 3
A Chance Encounter... On Deck... Leads To Meeting... A Most Exquisite... Classic Nordic Blonde Beauty...!
Chapter 4
The Jittery... Anxious Passengers... Are Introduced... To The Charismatic... Incredibly Artistic Millers... Who... Between Them... Enormously Boost The Flagging Morale... Aboard Ship...!
Chapter 5
My Overwhelming Curiosity... About The Ship's Beauty Salon... Which... Alas... I Never Get To See...!
Chapter 6
My Wonderful Dream Ball... Of Christmas Eve...!
Chapter 7
The Real Costume Ball... Of Christmas Eve...!
Chapter 8
Surprises Galore...! One After The Other...! Some Wonderful... Like Helga's Fabulous Fashion Show...!
Chapter 9
And Some Not So Wonderful... Such As Being Reminded... Of The Grim Reality Of War... In The Form Of Daily Enforced... Lifeboat Drills...!
Chapter 10
The Biggest Surprise Of All... A Battleship...!
Chapter 11
My Very First... Brief... But Poignant... Shipboard Romance...!
Chapter 12
For The Very First Time... In My Life... I Play A Very Dirty Trick... On Poor... Repressed Xenia... For Her Own Good... Which Her Sister Thanks Me For... That Night... In A Dream...!
Chapter 13
A Very Painfully Poignant Parting... From My Very First... Adult Male Admirer...!
Chapter 14
Thoroughly... Miserably Lovesick..!
Chapter 15
Sailing Along The Spectacular... Breathtaking... 150 Mile Long Coast... Of New Zealand...!
Chapter 16
Arriving In Auckland... To The Wonderful... Warm... Welcoming Hospitality... Of The New Zealanders...!
Sailing Northward... Towards Danger...?! Or Hopeful Safety... In The New York Harbor... Of The United States Of America...!
Chapter 1
Many Days And Evenings... Of Enchanting.. Distracting Entertainment... By The Millers... For The Once More... Jittery... Anxious Passengers...!
Chapter 2
A Rude... Insulting... Frightening Encounter... With A Very Handsome Frenchman.. in the Radio Room...!
Chapter 3
Some Deep Soul Searching... On Board The “Klipfontein...”!
Chapter 4
Terror Of Another Human Being... Enters My Life... For The Very First Time... At The Age Of About Four... When Almost Kidnapped... I Hear My Guardian Angel’s Voice... For The Very First Time... As He Divinely Delivers Me... From A Fate... Much Worse Than Death...!
Chapter 5
My Very Special Relationship... With Dearest Suzuki... Who... By Example... Taught Me So Much... About Being Proud... To Be A Female...!
Chapter 6
On The Very Same Day... Of My Divine Deliverance... I Also Tell My Very First Lie... To Of All People... My Adored Mummie...!
Chapter 7
My Traditional “Nippon No Josei No Kaishi...” (Japanese Sex Initiation)... As A Little Girl... Of Only Four And A Half...!
Chapter 8
A Raging Storm at Sea...! And A Hilarious... Quirky... Endearing Incident... All Alone... With My Strict... Authoritarian Pater...!
Chapter 9
And Yet Another Precious Life Is Saved... By Yours Truly... Once Again...! The First... A Very Old Man... In Shanghai... And The Second... By Complete Contrast... A Little Baby... On Board Ship...!
Chapter 10
The Utterly Disbelieving... Mind Boggling Shock... Of Learning... That There Is A Nazi Spy on Board Ship!!!???
Chapter 11
At The Age Of Almost Twelve... I Write My Very First Loving Letter... And Poem... To A Grown-Up Man... Reeling In Shock...!
At Long Last... America - Land Of The Free... Home Of The Brave...!
Chapter 1
Arriving in Los Angeles... Not New York...!
Chapter 2
On Terra Firma Once More... We Are Immediately Rudely Assaulted... By A Horde Of Eager News Hounds... Of Both Newspapers... And Radio...!
Chapter 3
Staying At The Magical... Famous... “The Mayfair...”!
Chapter 4
Hooray for Hollywood...!
Chapter 5
Meeting Some Famous Movie Stars... And Almost Becoming An Overnight... Singing Sensation Movie Star... A La Deanna Durbin... Myself...!
Chapter 6
A Most Enlightening... Heavenly Meeting... With Ingrid Bergman... In Her
Glorious Afterlife...!
Chapter 7
Yours Truly Has Her Singing Voice Recorded... At Warner Brothers Studio... In Hollywood...!
Chapter 8
Some Fascinating New Experiences... Such As Papa... Introducing Me To The
Delicious... Traditional American Hot Dog... And The Ice Cream Cone...!
Chapter 9
Prima And Remo's Fascinating Day... Getting The Grand Tour... At The Los Angeles Times...!
Chapter 10
A Fascinating... Mind Boggling Discovery... And Some Impressive
Revelations... About The Land... Of The Free... And The Home... Of The Brave...!
Chapter 11
My Very First... True American Education... From A Sweet Little Old Lady... At The Mayfair...!
Chapter 12
Some Equally Shameful History... Of The Nationalist Government... Of South Africa...!
Chapter 13
Some More Fascinating... American Education... From The Sweet Little Old Lady... At The Mayfair...!
Chapter 14
My Very First... Shocking Experience... Of Suddenly Losing... A Dearly Beloved Soul... To Death... And Her Subsequent... “Spiritual Visitation”... To Me...!
Chapter 15
Traveling By Train... On The Streamlined Super Chief... From The Fascinating Western Coast Of... "The City Of Angels..." ... To The Mysterious... Unknown Eastern Coast Of... "The City Of Skyscrapers..." ... I Meet Most Genial Bill... My Very First Member... Of The African-American Race...!
Awesomely Daunting New York... "City Of The Skyscrapers...!
Chapter 1
A Twelfth Floor Suite... At The Elegant Swiss Hotel Dauphin... In Fascinating Manhattan... Becomes Our Home...!
Chapter 2
Skating On Thin Ice... In More Ways Than One... In The Dauntingly Overwhelming... Awesome... “City Of The Skyscrapers... ”!
Chapter 3
A Hugely Mortifying... Shameful Episode... Back At The ISY...!
Chapter 4
The Five Musketeers...!
Chapter 5
The Most Wonderful... New Discovery Of All... The New York Public Library... At The Distinctive Beaux Arts Building...!
Chapter 6
A Disgusting... Sickening Scene... At Macy's Department Store... And Yet Another Miraculous Deliverance... From Being Kidnapped... Yet Again... By Madonna Guided Xenia... Who Rescues Naive "Grad-zella..."... This Time... From The False Kindness... Of A Handsome Stranger...!
Chapter 7
The Biggest Shock Of All... Finding Out... That I Had Narrowly Escaped A Fate... Much Worse Than Death...! ... That Of Being Kidnapped... For The White Sex Slave Trade... Yet Once Again...!
Chapter 8
Another Very Embarrassing Episode... In The Overwhelmingly Daunting... “City Of The Skyscrapers...”!
Chapter 9
The Enormous... Delighted Surprise... Of Getting My Very First... Beautiful New... Shirley Temple Winter Overcoat...!
Chapter 10
A Terrifying Case... Of Mistaken Identity... That Of Yours Truly... As Greta Garbo...!!!
Chapter 11
More Fascinating Experiences Of Life... Spending A Rare Precious Time... Alone... With My Beloved... But Also Feared... Papa Rau...!
Chapter 12
Growing Up Too Fast...?!
Three Horrendous... Soul Shaking Shocks... One After Another... In The Awesome... "City Of The Skyscrapers"...!!!
Chapter 1
The First...: Strange... Eerie Jessica...!
Chapter 2
Learning Brand New Vulgar Words... For The Very First Time...!
Chapter 3
The Second Shock...: A Terrifying... Threatening Episode... Of... “Remember Pearl Harbor...!”
Chapter 4
A Very Rare... Cozy Private Time... With My Big Brother Of A Genius... Remo... After He Is Divinely Led... To Rescue Me... From Certain Death... In The Nick Of Time...!
Chapter 5
The Third Shock...: An Extremely Cruel Act... Is Perpetrated... By Neurotic Xenia... Against A Truly Innocent... Ignorant... Sensitive Soul...!
Chapter 6
My Wonderful Big Sister... Comes... Miraculously... To The Rescue...!
Chapter 7
My Loving... Motherly Sister... Brings Her Little Sister... Back To Sanity...!
Chapter 8
Prima Really Brings Home To Me... The Realization... That My Young Life... Has Actually Been... Mostly... One Of Ordeals... Trials... And Tribulations...! Explaining... Why She Had Started To Call Me... “Grace...”...!
Chapter 9
Some Very Serious... Sobering Discussions... Between Two Loving Sisters...!
Chapter 10
The Fascinating... Age Old Love Story... Of Adam And Eve...!
Chapter 11
Another Very Important Digression... To The Miraculous Blessing Of Subud...! (written On Monday... June 22nd 2009... Beloved Bapak's Birthday...!)
Chapter 1
Some Inner Reflections... Painful Purification Of Sins... And Important Prophecies... Because This Trying To Be Humble To God Soul... For The Past Twenty-Seven Years... Is Constantly Being Reminded... By Her Beloved Creator... Her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... That She Is About To Leave Earth... And Return To Him... At Any Moment...!
Chapter 2
Another Wonderful Visitation... On The Very Next Day... From Her Beloved SUBUD Father... Holy Man... Bapak... In 2009... While Muftiah Is Re-editing This Book... For The Very Last Time...!
Chapter 3
Quite An Amazing Spiritual Experience... Of Incredibly Wondrous Enlightenment... Regarding The Comet Kahoutek... Which... According To The Will Of God... Was Supposed To... Destroy The Earth...!
Crossing The Chilly... Foreboding Atlantic Ocean... Towards The Bloody European Theater... Of War...!
Chapter 1
Farewell New York... Farewell America... Until 1971...!
Chapter 2
My Wild... Gypsy Sister... Prima... The Careless Heart-Breaker...!
Chapter 3
The Surprisingly Quite Famous History... Of The Portuguese Ocean Liner... S.S. "Serpa Pinto"...!
Chapter 4
My Gypsy Wild Sister Prima’s Incredible... Utter Transformation... Caused By Her New Beloved... Strong And Silent Type... Canadian... Alan...!
Chapter 5
A Nameless Dread... Creeps Ever Closer... and Closer...!
Chapter 6
My Unexpected... Momentous... Brief Encounter... With “Whipped Cream...” Reverend Whipple...!
Chapter 7
The Final Anxious Days... Aboard The “Serpa Pinto”... Before Silently Docking... In Pitch Darkness... At Lisbon Harbor...!
Chapter 8
Yours Truly... Becomes An Inadvertent... "Diamond" Smuggler... For The Resistance...?!
The Devastation Of... Heart-breaking... War-torn Europe...!
Chapter 1
Lisboa... Portugal... Utterly Enchanting For Yours Truly... But Devastatingly Heartbreaking... For My Beloved Sister... Prima...!
Chapter 2
The Poignant... Tragic Story... Of Prima's Very Brief... Fatal Marriage...!
Chapter 3
Prima's Dream World... Of Love... Is Devastatingly Shattered... Even More... In An Instant...!
Chapter 4
Prima's Most Unpleasant Purification Latihans... For Alcoholism... After I Introduce Her... To The Miracle of SUBUD...!
Chapter 5
Alcoholic Prima... Fatally Shot... By A Spurned Lover... Has A Near Death Experience... Where She Is Sent... Straight To Hell... The Shocking Experience Of Which... Results in Her... Finally Giving Up Alcohol... Altogether... For Good...!
Chapter 6
Between The Ages Of Eighteen... And Twenty-one... Our Roles Become Reversed... Where I Become... My Alcoholic Sister's Fierce Protector... With The Help... Of My Guardian Angel...!
Chapter 7
Our Torturous... Long Train Rides... In Early March... 1942... First Across Beautiful... Peaceful Portugal...!
Chapter 8
And Then... By Total Contrast... Through The Pitiful Devastation... Of Civil War Ravaged Spain...!
Chapter 9
Yours Truly... Is Brought Up Very High... In Unexpected Opulence... In A First Class Hotel... In Madrid...!
Chapter 10
And Then Brought Down Very Low... In The Same Opulence...!
Chapter 11
Another Slow... Excruciatingly Dreary... Long Train Journey... Across The Terrible... Heartbreaking Devastation... Of What Should Have Been... "La Bella Espagna"...!
Chapter 12
A Most Unpleasant Confrontation... With An Arrogant... Spanish Officer... Resulting In Our Being Bodily... Thrown Off The Train... Because Of Unusual Looking... Yours Truly... Adamantly Believed By Him... To Be Papa's Wife... And Not His Daughter...!
Chapter 13
A Freezing Night... Of Frightening Uncertainty... Trudging Through The Pitch Black Night... Of God Forsaken Spain...!
How The Wondrous Miracles Of God... Never Cease...!
Chapter 1
Our Most Amazing Deliverance Yet... In The Middle Of Nowhere... By None Other... Than Most Gracious... Catholic Nuns... Ending In A Most Magical Night... Of Celebrating... Papa's Fiftieth Birthday...!
Chapter 2
Crossing Dreary... Desolate Spain... On Foot... Ending... Some Torturous... Nine Hours Later... In Yet Another... Miraculous Deliverance...!
Chapter 3
La Belle France... Not So Belle Anymore...!
Chapter 4
How The Miracle Of SUBUD... Miraculously... Came... Into My Miserable Life... Miserable... Because I Had Disobeyed... My Guardian Angel's Warning... Not To Marry My Ardent Fan... Brian... Who Had Taken Such Wonderful Care Of Stranger Me... While I Lay... Unconscious... In A Seven Month Long Coma...!
Chapter 5
Now... At The Ripe Old Age Of Seventy-Nine... Blind In One Eye... This Soul Is Urged... To Tell Her Kindred Brothers And Sisters... Once Again... About The Miracle Of SUBUD... So Desperately Needed... By Bewildered... Fearful... Floundering Mankind... Today... In This Chaotic... Ever Increasing... Violent World Of Ours...!
Chapter 6
A Most Interesting... Yet Horrific... Divine Revelation... Of SUBUD... Given To My Beloved Husband... Farlan... Regarding This Soul’s Regular... Monthly Migraine Attacks... For The Purpose Of Necessary... Ancestral Purification... On A Very Deep Level... Begun When She Was Almost Twelve... And Lasting For Some Sixty-three Years...!
Chapter 7
This Humble To God Soul... As Grazia... Meaning “Big Grace Of God...”... Already During Her First Year In SUBUD... Makes The Spiritual “Acquaintance...”... Of Her Many Ancestors Of Nobility... Writhing In The Very Pits Of Hell... Because Of Their Evil Deeds...!
Chapter 8
On The Very Same... Incredible Night... Of Being Made... To Make The Spiritual “Acquaintance”... Of Her Many Evil Ancestors... Grazia... Is Made To Relive... The Greatest Remorse... Of Her Life... When She Is Reminded... Of Her Terrible Sin... Of Murdering Her Precious... Five Month Old Fetus Son... Marco... When She Was Twenty-Three...!
Chapter 9
Wonderful Confirmation... From My Beloved Spiritual SUBUD Father... Bapak... That The Soul... Enters The Body... Of A Receptive Woman... At The Moment Of Conception... During Her Intimate Union... With Her Lover... And Not Some Four Months Later... As The Catholic Church... Has Led Us To Believe... Over The Centuries...!
Chapter 10
An Incredibly Blessed... “Heavenly Visitation...”... When This SUBUD Soul... As Muftiah... Is Seventy-two... And Willed By Her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God.. To Finally Meet... Her Oh So Precious Son... Marco... In Spirit... Who Serenades Her With His Violin... As A Sign Of His Forgiveness...!
Chapter 11
The Miracle Drug... Excedrin Migraine... Leads To The Sudden End... Of This Soul’s Sixty-Three Years... Of Ancestral Purification... In The Form Of Regular... Monthly Migraines...!
Chapter 12
The Last Leg... Of Our Four Month Journey... From The Far East... To The European West... Aboard A French Wagon Lits Train...!
Chapter 13
Papa's “Dumb Cluck” Graziella... Inadvertently... Is Instrumental... In Her Family's... Avoiding The Ruthless Invasion... Of The Nazi Germans... On The Train... Via The Eating Establishment... Of The “Bistro & Café De Pierre Chambray...!”
Chapter 14
How Prima And Graziella... Discover... Quite By Accident... That The “Bistro & Café de Pierre Chambray”... Was Actually A Grace From God... A Miraculous... Materialized Establishment... That Did Not Exist... In The Light Of Day...!
Chapter 15
My Very First Encounter... With Grim... Swiss Officialdom... Causes A Dreadful... Heavy Feeling... Of Ominous Foreboding... To Rise... Inside My Chest...!
Chapter 16
As My Foot Touches Swiss Soil... For The Very First Time... In My Life... I Know... Instinctively... That I Am Destined... Irrevocably... For Another HELL... Of Gigantic Proportions... In My Young Life...!
Chapter 17
Ours Is Truly A Remarkable... Perilous... Yet Often Miraculous... Four Month... Journey... Over Land And Sea... From The Far East... Of The Orient... To The Hemisphere... Of The Western World... Of Europe... During The Uncertain... Dangerous Time... Of World War II...!
Surprises Galore... On One Single... Momentous Night... in 1946...!
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FOREWORD PROLOGUE PART I PART I-A PART I-B PART II PART III PART IV PART V PART VI PART VII PART VIII PART IX PART IX-A PART IX-B PART X PART XI PART XII PART XII-A EPILOGUE
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