Chapter 1

Some Inner Reflections... Painful Purification Of Sins... And Important Prophecies... Because This Trying To Be Humble To God Soul... For The Past Twenty-Six Years... Is Constantly Being Reminded... By Her Creator... That She Is About To Leave Earth... At Any Moment...!

This humble to God soul... is once again... being Visited today... by her Beloved Spiritual father... Bapak... which happens to be his birthday...!

And he... ever Youthful... and Vibrant with Energy... urges her... once again... to write here and now... about her SUBUD Life Experiences... and she is only too happy... to comply herewith...

For the past thirty-four years... or so... ever since Almighty God Willed... that this soul... be named Muftiah... and that she now worship Him... as a Muslim... but only inwardly... and not outwardly... with her heart and mind... and no longer... as a Christian... and especially... when He Willed her to marry... once again... abruptly Stopping... all her previous busy activity... of happily working... in the world... He Began her Inner Training of...

“Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!”

And she began to spontaneously Receive... periodically... throughout the waking hours... of her days and nights... these very important Reminders... from her Beloved Creator... to help curb her strongly independent... and impulsively willful... Aries spirit... following which... always brought her unhappiness... and misery... to utter the Holy Words... of His Divine Command...:

"Obey Allah...!"... and... “Allah Guiding...!”

And these Holy Reminders... Would Occur... like an involuntary Arising... from deep inside her Inner being... Spontaneously Coming Out Of her Mouth... like best described... as a kind of unintentional Sighing...!

All these Divine Blessings... of singular Reminders... are as a result of having her Inner self... initially "Awakened...”... and “Opened..."... to Receive the Great Holy Life Force... of her Beloved Heavenly Father... Almighty God... on February 12th... 1961... when she was in her thirty-first year of life... living in Johannesburg... South Africa... with her beloved soulmate Richard... being the God-Willed channel... to pass on the Holy Contact... to her...

Then... over the past some forty-six odd years... Almighty God's Great Holy Life Force... Has Been gradually Purifying her sins... and those of her French/Italian... noble bloodline... according to her capacity to absorb... accept... and understand Inwardly... through the Spiritual Process of Growth... and Development... called SUBUD... in preparation for her Glorious... Eternal Afterlife...

Sad to say... the glaring fact... is that the Word of God... alone... is no longer enough... for questing... suffering mankind today...

So that... in this violent day and age... to fit the Spiritual needs... of His anxious... fearful children... in His Merciful... Compassionate Wisdom... our Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Has Now Sent Down to earth... His Very Own... Perfect Holy Spirit... To Be Received... In The Inner Selves... Of His Created Children...!

And for the past thirty-four years or so... this humble to God soul... has been having the very same reaction... whenever... instead of Receiving to say...:

"God..."...

over and over... as she used to... she has been Receiving to say...:

"Allah..."...

and more recently...

"Amen Allah... Amen...!"...

and

"Receive... Obeying Allah..."

over and over...

And Muftiah's whole being... always swells... with the same feelings of overwhelming Joy... the tears welling up in her eyes... every single time... as she feels... the Divine Loving Breath... of her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Whispering in her soul... and Feels the Divine Flow... of His Eternal Merciful Love... Flooding throughout her entire being... by constantly being aware... of the Vibration... of His Great Holy Life Force... Gently Pulsating...inside her... like a Bubbling Fountain of Joy...

These spontaneous Receivings... not differing from each other... in the slightest... are absolute proof to Muftiah... that "GOD..." and "ALLAH..."... are One and the Same... the Eternally Living... Divine Spiritual Being... known to all of mankind eternally... as Allah Almighty God... and also by whatever other Holy Name... He is Called... in other languages...

Only today... as an adult... as Muftiah Receives... to utter the Divine Word...: "ALLAH..."... she is sometimes Reminded... of her many sins... in this lifetime... some of them quite grave...

And this soul... is most deeply ashamed to confess... that she has... at times... impulsively... and defiantly willfully... followed her fiercely independent Aries nature... instead of her quiet... Perfect Inner Guidance... which actually means... that she has gone against the Will of God... Whom she worships... and adores so much... ever since she drew breath... on this planet... without ever anybody bothering to tell her... the embarrassing... unwanted... barely tolerated love-child... born in adultery... of His Existence...!

And she has even defied the Warnings... of her life-long Protector... her Guardian Angel Friend... not just once... but three times... regarding her all important... crossroads of life... including that of marriage... and divorce...! (These gross incidents of disobedience... caused her... a great deal of suffering... as you may be interested to read all about... in the sequel to this book...)

Her first gross defiance... against the Will... of her Heavenly Father... Conveyed to her... by her Guardian Angel Friend... known to her... in her life... ever since she was four years old... happened... when she... as Graziella... was 12... already standing at five foot eight... and even arguing with Him... about wearing her favorite... pink angora sweater... which prettily showed off her budding breasts... to her first day... in a Swiss school... reminding Him... of the great culture of Europe... and the great poets... philosophers... and composers... it had produced... and surely the Swiss... were not that narrow-minded...!

And this disobedience... caused her to be chased... around the classroom... daily... for about two years... by her lustful... handsome young Nazi school teacher... and yet... mercifully always Rescued... by her Guardian Angel...!

Just like He Did... when she was either kidnapped... or about to be... four times... between the ages of four... and almost twelve... for the thriving Oriental Sex Slave Trade... her golden blonde... blue-eyed looks... being a rare... coveted commodity... in the Far East...!

The second time... she defiantly disobeyed... the Will of her Heavenly Father... for her... Conveyed to her... via her Guardian Angel Friend... was when she... as Nadia... was about 27... and about to marry... for the very first time... in her life... with these Words of Warning... Given to her... in her right ear... as usual...:

"Do Not Sign...!"

... just as she was about to sign the Marriage Certificate... at the City Hall... in Bulawayo Southern Rhodesia...!

The young giant of a man... with a heart as big as the ocean... whom she should not have married... but did... out of affectionate gratitude... causing her three years... of great unhappiness... was a total stranger to her... who... as an ardent fan... had tenderly nursed her... through a seven month long coma... after she collapsed on stage... and he leapt up onto it... swept her up... into his powerful arms.. and rushed her to hospital...!

And the third time... was when she... as Laura... was about 42... giving in to her husband's demand... for a divorce... when it was the Will of her Heavenly Father... that she remain married... to unfaithful him... already living in adultery... with another woman... her Guardian Angel Friend... once again... Warning her... in her right ear... as usual...:

"Do Not Sign...!"

... just as she was about to sign the divorce papers... now living in Miami Florida... in the United States of America...!

And because of her gross defiance... against the Perfect Will of God... for His loving daughter... her penance - which is actually a labor of love... for she loves to write - is to offer... all of her extensive volume of writing... to all of her kindred brothers and sisters... across the universe... absolutely free of charge... just like the Miracle of SUBUD... is being offered... to them... at no cost to them... whatsoever... ever...

Regarding purification of sins... periodically... she is Inwardly Reminded... of a particular sin... such as her greatest... a cowardly abortion... when she was an insecure... love-starved girl of 22... openly rejected by her adored... imperious Contessa mother... "murdering" her oh so precious... five month old fetus son... Marco... whose noble soul... she distinctly felt... enter her being... becoming gloriously one with him... while she lay blissfully... in her lover's arms... on Christmas Eve... 1952... now living in Johannesburg South Africa...

And each time... of her Divine Reminder... her sin is felt within her... at that particular level... of her Spiritual Growth... and Development... and each time... on an increasingly deeper... and wider level... so that she is gradually Shown... how much she truly harmed herself... and how much... she blackened her soul...

Even though that greatest sin of "murder"... Was Forgiven her... by her Heavenly Father... via her Guardian Angel Friend... some eleven years later... she has never been quite able... to forgive herself... for destroying her precious son...

And in feeling... the increasing reality... of her wrongdoing... the irrevocable truth... of how much she had wronged herself... in sinning... so does the remorse... and regret... become more and more real... and on a deeper... and wider level... with each inevitable Reminder...

So that she has finally come to the point... where her whole being... is filled... with such pain of regret... and overwhelming remorse... and humbled... to the depths... of her very soul... and filled with such self loathing... and feeling so unworthy... of Receiving her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God’s Wondrous Grace... that she feels that she should be eliminated completely... feeling that even a grain of sand... is far worthier of God’s Infinite Loving Mercy... than she is...!

And in that humbled... lowered state... of enormous remorse... and regret... she sincerely begs her Heavenly Father... Almighty Allah... throbbing in every fiber... of her being... to please... oh please... Forgive His sinful daughter... known to Him... at different times... as Tzi-Tzi darling... darling Nadia... Sera-chan... Graziella... Grazi-Longlegs... Grace... Chuchi... again Nadia... then by the God Commanded names... of first Grazia... then Laura... and finally Muftiah...

And no sooner... has she uttered... her fervent plea... with all the sincerity... that is within her... when she instantly tangibly Feels... a Wonderful Sensation... of Being Washed Clean... through and through... with her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God's Boundless Loving... Merciful... Forgiveness...

And there is a Blissful Awareness... suffusing her whole being... which is Being Made to Feel... Indescribably Light... Peaceful... Calm... and Happy... Utterly Fulfilled... once again...

That is to say... until the next inevitable Divine Reminder... of yet another great sin of hers...

And so it is... during her Golden Years... with each Reminder... of each sin... at different times... For her Creator... her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Is Loving... and Compassionate... and Merciful... and never ever Gives her... more than she can handle... or bear... regarding deeply painful self-realization... at any one time...

Thus Muftiah... is very grateful... that her Creator... Allah... Keeps her humble... so that she never runs the risk... of becoming Spiritually arrogant...

As you may read... in the sequel to this book... there came a time... when... besides her constant... daily Divine Reminders of...: "Allah Guiding..." and...: "Obey Allah..."... which have been going on now... for some thirty-three years... ever since Muftiah's phase of “Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...”... began... right after she married her last husband... Farlan... being her fourth... although her first... was never consummated... because her stage rescuer... worshipped the very ground she walked on... and refused to sully her... with his dirty self... there were to be further Divine... Constant Reminders...

So that... ever since the second year... of her God-Willed Strokes... she stopped counting them after the 37th...! - which kept her bed-ridden... for over seven years... she has also been Receiving Divine Reminders... to write about... what she only came to realize... as she kept on writing... as Inner memory dictated... was actually... a most unusual life...!

And at the same time... that she is Being Commanded to write... she is also constantly Being Reminded... that now is the time... that Allah Almighty God... Wills that His daughter... Muftiah... prepare herself... to leave earth...!

And these Heavenly Reminders... for the now past twenty-six years... ever since her fifty-second year of life... and being in her twenty-first year in SUBUD... Are Forever Consistent... and Persistent... and never varying...!

She has also been spontaneously Receiving... these Divine Prophetic Words... over and over... for the past twenty-six years... kindly bearing in mind... only according to her limited Spiritual capacity... to absorb... accept... and understand...:

"Jesus Is Coming... Sweeping Across Time... Obeying Allah... Forever And Ever... Amen...!"

Furthermore...

"Giant Coming... Amen...!"... and "Nations Rising... Amen...!"

And more recently...:

"Jewish Time Now Over... Amen...!"

And only once...:

"New York No More... Amen...!"

Muftiah's beloved husband Farlan... has also been spontaneously Receiving... some of the same Words... and whenever they try to ask Almighty Allah... for more information... more enlightenment... as to the time and place... these Momentous Events Of Prophecy... are to occur... out of our compassionate concern... for our kindred brothers and sisters... of all of mankind... and their fate... there is only Silence...!

Except where “Giant Coming... Amen...!”... is concerned... when Muftiah asked to have Revealed to her... if it should be the Will of God... for her to know... what that particular Prophecy meant...

And she Was Shown... The Entire World... In Deep Sorrow... And Floundering In Darkness... And Was Made To Hear... The Great Weeping.. And Wailing... And Anguish... Of All Mankind... And Also Made To Feel... The Painful Reality,,, Of Their Suffering... Within The Depths... Of Her Very Being... !

And as she Was Being Shown... And Made To Feel... The Reality Of This Poignant... World-wide Tableau... Of Great Suffering... Upon The Planet Earth... As Time Went On... The Great Weeping... And Wailing... Increased... Louder And Louder... And Her Inner Awareness... Became Deeper And Deeper... until she could not stand To Be Shown... Or Feel... any more... and she begged... for the terrible Revelation to stop...

Thus... both Farlan and Muftiah... have both come to the conclusion... that it is not the Will of Allah Almighty God... for them to know anything more... than the Words of Prophecy... Given to them... by His Merciful Grace... and they must be content... to merely be His mostly ignorant prophets...

Chapter 2

Another Wonderful Visitation... On The Very Next DayFrom Her Beloved SUBUD Father... Holy Man... Bapak... In 2008... While Muftiah Is Re-editing This Book... For The Very Last Time...!

And now... it is 5.41 a.m... on Monday... June 23rd... in the year 2008... after her usual... special Dawn Latihan Kejiwaan... where all of her... is dripping wet... from her Allah Commanded Latihan Shower... set up by her dear mother-in-law... Jasie... may she be happy... and at peace... in the Glorious Eternity... of the Afterlife... when she was Sent down from Heaven... to her daughter-in-law... on a Special Mission from God... (see “Heavenly Visitations...”)

And at the physical age now... of 78... and Spiritual age of 47... being in her 47th year... of living the SUBUD Way of Life... Muftiah is sitting in her wheelchair... blind in one eye... due to the many God-Willed Strokes... over the past 26 years...

And in re-editing her volume of work... one last time... she is squinting... with only the use of her left eye... and fingers of her left hand... because... for the past year... she is... once again... for the third time... being afflicted with tendonitis... in her right arm... being a great Karmic Debt... she owes her mother... when she grossly betrayed her... when they were fervent mother and daughter Christians... living in ancient Rome...!

And now her Beloved Spiritual SUBUD father... Bapak... fills this soul with utter delight... as he appears to her... once again... in Spirit...

And now she is Being Directed... here and now... through yet another one of her Beloved Bapak’s delightful Heavenly Visitations... (including the Miracle... of having his Spirit... enter her body... for a very important Message...!)... also fully described... under “Heavenly Visitations...”... in the streamer... "Close Encounters... Of The Spiritual Kind..."... to offer this Wondrous... Miraculous Grace... and Blessing... for all of mankind... to have Bestowed Upon them... through the new Holy Website... “SUBUD Stories...”

Bapak now dictates... to his loving daughter... as follows...:

The world today... has plunged into a terrible state of utter chaos... and confusion... and is on an inevitable downward spiral... falling down ever further... into the darkness of self destruction... and oblivion...

And the reason... for this pitiful catastrophe... is because mankind is living his life... exclusively following the destructive dictates... of the actually impure cleverness... of his mind... and the fickle... unreliable passions... of his heart... and his proud ego... which are his lower forces... and which are causing him... to make dire mistakes... and wrong decisions... in both his private life... and working life... to his great detriment...!

And that... because of this sad state of the world... God’s Created children... each individual... needs His Great Holy Life Force... to Perfectly Guide... and Direct... their lives... individually... from within themselves... more than ever before...

And her Beloved Bapak... now tells his faithful servant helper... SUBUD daughter Muftiah... to remind all those uniquely Blessed by God... fearfully anxious... and unhappy souls... who are Led... by His Special SUBUD Angels... to click onto this Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories..."... that the Divine Inner Contact... with Almighty God's Great Holy Life Force... is now to be made available... to them... and as always... absolutely free of charge...

All those questing souls of mankind... who are worthy... in the Eyes of God... or by whatever other name... they call Him... are to Receive... Inner Contact... with His Great Holy Life Force... in the form of the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... which is solely a Magnificent... Miraculous... Life altering... Spiritual Experience... a Perfect Divine Way... to Grow... and Develop Spiritually... with His Perfect... Inner Guidance... Which Will Be Different... for each individual...

And this Divine Process... of Spiritual Growth... and Development... goes even beyond... into the Glory... of their eternal Afterlife... and which has absolutely nothing to do... with whatever religious faith they follow... with their hearts and minds... which actually does not go beyond their earthly lives...!"

So... in compliance with her Beloved Bapak’s wishes... today... here is a perfect explanation... of Bapak's “The Basis & Aim Of SUBUD...”... written and compiled... by this Holy Man of God... being the very first man... on earth... in this day and age... to be exceedingly Blessed... to Receive... the Great Holy Life Force... of Almighty God... in 1922... when he was a young man of 22... which he describes beautifully... in his book... " The Coming of the Latihan.. "... which is also featured... on this website "SUBUD Stories..."

Bapak's Divine Mission... while living on earth... was to pass on the Holy Contact... to all of mankind... through his many representatives... all over this vast world... known as his Spiritual Helpers...

And since his passing... into the Glory of his Afterlife... when Almighty Allah... Decreed... that he was now "The Spiritual Father... Of All Of Mankind..."... his Divine Mission... to spread SUBUD... throughout the planet earth... still goes on...!

Bapak now urges his faithful servant... SUBUD daughter Muftiah... this day... during yet another one of his Miraculous... Heavenly Visitations... to let all of mankind read... in this book... as well... Bapak’s following... perfect explanations about SUBUD...:-

And Bapak recommends... that in order to get the greatest benefit... of what you are about to read... you should try to put yourself... into as quiet a state as possible... and empty your mind... of all busy thoughts...

THE BASIS & AIM OF SUBUD - By MUHAMMAD SUBUH

THE BASIS OF SUBUD

SUBUD is the abbreviation of the words: Susila... Budhi... and Dharma...

Susila Means : The Good Character of Man... In Accordance With The Will Of Almighty God...

Budhi Means : The Force of the Inner Self... Within Man...

Dharma Means : Surrender... Trust... and Sincerity... Toward Almighty God...

THE AIM OF SUBUD

As the Latihan Kejiwaan (Spiritual Way) of SUBUD... is free of the influence of the passions... heart... and mind... and is truly Awakened... by the Power of Almighty God... the Aim of SUBUD... is naturally toward perfection of character... According to the Will of the One Who Awakens it... namely... Almighty God...

It is also necessary to explain... that SUBUD is neither a kind of religion... nor a teaching... but it is a Spiritual Experience... Awakened by the Power of God... leading to Spiritual Reality... free from the influence of the passions... heart and mind...

That is why... in the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... one really feels... that one’s Inner Self... is no longer influenced... by the passions... heart... and mind... which means... that in the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... the Inner Feeling... has truly been separated... from their influence...

Why should the passions... heart... and mind... be separated from the Inner Feeling... when these are man’s most important equipment... for his life in this world... which can be used... to increase... and broaden his knowledge...?

It is because... unless the passions... heart and mind... are separated from the Inner Feeling... it will not be able to be... in a pure state... in Receiving the Latihan Kejiwaan... so that it will be impossible... for the Inner Feeling... to Receive the Contact... from the Great Holy Life Force... which in fact... has Permeated it... Inwardly... and Outwardly...

This is the reason... why the influence of the passions... heart and mind... must be separated... from the Inner Feeling...

In such a state... the Inner Feeling will Awaken... and be able to Recognize... the various kinds of life forces... which flow in... and out... and move it...

Eventually... it will be able to distinguish... between the good... and the bad... namely... between the Life Force... that originates... from the True Human Self... and the life forces... that come from the sub-human forces... i.e. the material... vegetable... and animal life forces... and the Life Force of man...

In Receiving the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... the Receiver... is Truly Guided... by The Power of Almighty God... towards the attainment... of an ability... to distinguish... between the various kinds of life forces in man... (Chemistry in the Spiritual Realm...)... and this will eventually lead... to the realization... of his True Self... and elimination of the false one...

In ordinary science... such knowledge (chemistry)... is very important... for with chemistry... man can extract iron... tin... gold... silver... and many other materials... from a lump of earth...

The only difference... is that the latter is man’s work... done with his heart and mind... whereas the former... the Chemistry in the Spiritual Realm... is the Work of God... Whose Power... Reaches... far beyond the power... and ability of man...

And finally... in your true worship... of Almighty God... you need not worry about anything...

God Is All-Knowing... and All-Wise... in all things... God Can Make... and Create something... from that which does not exist... and God Can Put Right... something that... from the mind’s view... cannot possibly be put right...

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What you have quietly absorbed above... is a little booklet... which yours truly... was in the habit... of carrying around with her... in her purse... coming across many unhappy... "fractured" souls... and bringing them back to God... through the Glorious Salvation of SUBUD...

So ... dear brothers and sisters... of all mankind... this Miraculous... Merciful Grace of God... is now to be available... to all of you... Absolutely Free Of Charge... via what Muftiah cannot help but refer to... as Bapak’s Holy Website... “SUBUD Stories...”... on the Internet... because she has had so many meaningful discussions... about the internet media... with Bapak... during his many Heavenly Visitations to her... and also with special SUBUD Angels of God... over the past six years...

Since it is Almighty God... and He Alone... Who Decides... whom of his Created Souls... are worthy... to Receive... Inner Contact... with His Great Holy Life Force... through the Wondrous Grace of SUBUD... we do not generally advertise SUBUD... in an effort... to bring people to us...

So that now... through the wonderful... far reaching... world wide medium... of the internet... the special SUBUD Angels of God... Are Able to Direct... the God Chosen worthy souls... from all over the universe... to this Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories..."!

You may be interested to know... that SUBUD is now available... in over 79 countries today... where there are either SUBUD Centers... SUBUD Houses... and or Groups... to assist you further... through our links to them...

So that every single... worthy in the Eyes of God soul on earth... from the poorest... to the richest... whether whole in body... or deaf... dumb... or blind... or otherwise physically challenged... or impaired... can Receive this Wondrous... Benevolent Blessing... without any membership fees... or dues... ever... and without your needing to give up anything... neither your wealth... money... assets... riches... your religion... your job... nor your loved ones... or anything else...!

All that you... His Specially Chosen... exceedingly Blessed soul... do need to give up... is yourself... give yourself up totally... to your Loving Creator... with a feeling of sincerity... and patience... and utter trust... and faith in Him... so that He Can “Awaken...”... and “Open...”... your Inner self... to Receive Contact... with His Great Holy Life Force... Which Will Perfectly Guide you... in all that you think... feel... do... and say... for the rest of your life... and beyond... into the Glory... of your Afterlife...

Thus you can begin the SUBUD Way... of worshipping your Creator... and experience the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... while you submit your whole being... in full... unconditional surrender to Him...

Unconditional surrender means... that you will neither expect... or pray for... or hope for anything... in particular... for yourself... except that God’s Perfect Will... Be Done unto you... as you stand before Him... in as quiet a state as possible... with your eyes closed... just like a lifeless... mindless puppet...!

So that... in your fully surrendered state... to your Creator... He Can Pull... and Activate... your Spiritually dormant strings... Work His Perfect Will upon you... each individual... separately... and according to his unique nature... character... and personality... for He Knows each and every one of us... His Created Soul Children... inside out... far far better... than we know ourselves...

And He Knows Perfectly... what each individual needs... in order to become truly noble human beings... of excellent character... men eventually becoming truly magnificent men... once they have become Purified... of their and their ancestors’ sins... and likewise women... becoming wonderfully feminine... once they have become Purified... of their and their ancestors’ sins... the depth... and magnitude of which... are truly only Known to God... According to His Perfect Will...

So... dear kindred... Blessed sibling reader... if you happen to click onto this Holy Website... it will not be by chance... or accident... but because an Angel of God... Assigned to Show souls... the way to SUBUD... Has “Tapped” you... a specially chosen... worthy one... on your shoulder... “Leading” you here... to this Holy Website... to show you The Perfect Way... to have your whole being... Magnificently... and Perfectly Transformed... into Excellence... by The One Great One... Who Created you... namely Almighty God...

So that... in having your Inner Self “Awakened...”... and “Opened...”... into the Glorious Miracle of SUBUD... you will be enjoying a very unique... “One-On-One” Relationship... with your Creator... without any outside influence... or interference... from anyone... a unique Relationship... in which... experiencing the Power of His Great Holy Life Force... gently Vibrating... inside your "Awakened..."... and "Opened..." being... will feel familiar to you...

For... as Beloved Bapak explains... here and now...:

"When we were first Created... we were in Perfect Spiritual Contact... with our Maker... and His Great Holy Life Force... Which we Felt... Gently Vibrating... inside our beings... and Which Guided... and Directed... Perfectly... our thoughts... feelings... and actions... for the moments of our lives...

Until... sadly... the time came... when we discovered... that we also had a thinking brain... and emotions... in our hearts... and enjoying their sensations... we began to stray... by relying... more and more... on the influence... of the cleverness... of our minds... our proud egos... and the passions... and desires of our hearts... straying further and further away... from that Perfect Inner Contact with... and Perfect Guidance... and Direction... which Came from Almighty God... the One Who Created us...

So now... in His Merciful Compassion... seeing what a mess... we have made of things... down here on earth... throughout centuries... relying primarily... on the influence... of our impure lower forces... which often cause us to make mistakes... and wrong decisions... not only in our private lives... but also in our working lives... He Is Offering... that Perfect Inner Contact with Him... once again...

So that... once again... we can be Guided... and Directed... by the Perfect Influence... of our Higher Force... instead... leading us eventually... to no longer making mistakes... and wrong decisions... so that we may enjoy lives... of Inner Peace... Grace... and Harmony... with all those around us... as we come to recognize each other... as true brothers and sisters... no matter what the color of our skin is... nor what language we speak... nor what customs and traditions... and different religious faiths we happen to follow..."

If you click... onto "BAPAK"... you can also read... the only Talk that Bapak ever gave... to the general public... And under “Bapak’s Intro To SUBUD” ... and elsewhere... both in this book... and its sequel... “From Seven Hells... To Seventh Heaven... SUBUD...”... there is much more information... and more details... about the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... and the SUBUD Way of Life... which experiences... many of them Miraculous... this humble to God soul... describes extensively... over her past forty-seven years... of being in SUBUD... and living the SUBUD Way of Life... exclusively...

Chapter 3

Quite An Amazing Spiritual Experience... Of Incredibly Wondrous Enlightenment... Regarding The Comet Kahoutek... Which Was Supposed To,,, Destroy The Earth...!

Bapak’s wonderful Presence... brings into my feelings... from him... to share with you all... here and now... the following quite extraordinary... personal Spiritual Experience... while being in Special Inner Contact... with Bapak...!

It concerns the period... towards the end of 1973... coinciding with shortly before the comet Kahoutek... was expected to come close to earth... when this soul... recently become Muftiah... suddenly began to find herself... out of the blue... at odd times... of the day... or night... abruptly Being Made... to fall to her knees... and begging Almighty Allah... with all the fervor... that was within her... to please Forgive her for her sins...!

And these Odd Occurrences... over which she had no control... Would Happen... whether she was at home... in her apartment... in the middle of watching a TV program... or reading a book... or knitting... or cooking... about to go to sleep... or immediately upon awakening...!

And she would find herself... suddenly on her knees... beseeching her Creator... even at work... in the middle of the doctor’s Waiting Room... as well as in public... while shopping at the supermarket...!

Although... strangely enough... at the time... she was feeling particularly blissful... about her busy life... and contented circumstances... after her five month state of God-Willed... Spiritual Crisis... when her Heavenly Father... Put her into a keenly felt... State of Disgrace...!

He Had even Forbidden her... to worship Him... in the Latihan Kejiwaan... nor observe the annual Ramadan Fast... Allowing her to "Only Work With Your Hands..."!

Thus He Had reduced her... for a good while... into becoming a poorly paid cleaning woman... for the Catholic church... as penance... and atonement... for her willful disobedience... one too many times... of His Perfect Will for her...!

Now she was living in a lovely... spacious... "movie star" apartment... and happily working for a chiropractor... SUBUD brother... in San Francisco... in the unique art of Accu-Pressure... Receiving where to apply pressure... on the suffering patient... teaching singing... and French... and writing... and stringing beads... for the SUBUD enterprise... Dharma... and not at all feeling laden down... with sinful remorse...!

And even while driving her car... Muftiah would suddenly find herself... sobbing... as if her soul was shattering... imploring her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... to Please Forgive her her sins...! ... instead of joyfully singing Praises... to Him... at the top of her lungs... as she usually did... when she drove... with the car... which she had learned to drive... at the comparatively late age of forty-one... seeming to drive... all by itself...!

And what was so strange... is that while she was suddenly Being Pushed down to her knees... in public... nobody seemed to notice... the six foot two female... suddenly Being Thrown down to her knees... fervently praying...!

And the more... nobody took the slightest notice of her... kneeling on the floor... jabbering out loud... and sobbing... she came to realize... that Allah Almighty God... Was Making her Quite Invisible... to all the patients... in the hushed quiet... of the doctor’s Waiting Room... as well as to all the shoppers... at the hustling... bustling... crowded supermarket of Safeway...!

During Muftiah's very next Group Latihan Kejiwaan... with her SUBUD Sisters... at the Marin SUBUD House... in California... after she Was Once Again... Made to Pray for forgiveness... instead of Receiving to joyfully sing Praises to Him... as usual... she experienced an overwhelming Feeling of Command... inside her... to urge her fellow Sisters... to also beg God's Forgiveness... for their sins...!

After their thirty minutes of worship... Muftiah immediately went to her fellow Sister Helpers... telling them of the Inner Command... she had just Received... hoping for their support...

But all of them intimated that... since it was her Receiving alone... for they had not Received... such an Inner Command... themselves... they suggested... that she go immediately... and talk to her other Sisters... before they left the building... telling them of her urgent Receiving...

So once again... as happened so often... Muftiah was all alone... in her God Commanded Mission... And even though... she was extremely shy... to pass on such an intimate Message... she obeyed... feeling apprehensive... and with her heart in her mouth...

But... for some unexplainable reason... her earnest words... failed to impress them sufficiently... of the gravity... of their situation... with one of them... even walking off in a huff... extremely annoyed... at being told what to do... by another person... whom she regarded... as much less Spiritual than herself...!

Ultimately... the rest of them decided... amongst themselves... to come to Group Latihan... half an hour earlier... the following week... to pray generally together... but not... in particular... to ask God... to Forgive them for their sins...!

Muftiah was extremely bewildered... at her own odd behavior... for there was no doubt... that her whole being was throbbing... with earnest... fervent pleas... such as she had never... ever... experienced before... as if it was truly a matter of life and death... for her to feel Allah's Divine Forgiveness... in her soul...!

And she continued Receiving this spontaneous Ritual... for about three weeks... until she heard that the comet Kahoutek... had been reported seen... in the sky...!

Although she had felt no real interest... in the comet... anyhow... because her life was so busy... and fulfilling... paying scant attention... to the special song... that had been written about it... which she heard frequently being played... on the radio...

Shortly thereafter... the Marin SUBUD House... was visited by SUBUD Brother... and popular reporter/raconteur... Varindra Vitachi... from Ceylon and India... who had come directly from Indonesia... where our beloved Spiritual father... Bapak... had given him a Message from God... to pass on to his SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... throughout the SUBUD world...!

And this is the amazing... mind-boggling story... Varindra told his many rapt... goggle-eyed SUBUD Brothers and Sisters...:

Apparently... one day... during Bapak's private... surrendered communion... with his Creator... in the Latihan Kejiwaan... Almighty Allah Told His Favored son... that He was fed up with the world... and all the terrible sins... His children were committing... against themselves... and with one another... and that His Sign Of Wrath... Would Be Shown... By The Destruction Of Earth... Through The Comet Kahoutek...!!!

Whereupon Bapak... who loved his Creator... Almighty Allah... with all his heart and soul... became very alarmed... and earnestly asked... whether he could pray... on behalf of all of mankind... for His Forgiveness... of their sins... to avert the terrible annihilation... of the planet earth... for Bapak's heart and soul... were full of loving... compassionate understanding... for the frailty... of his fellow brother and sister human beings...

And Almighty Allah Had Replied...:

"No... My Beloved Son... You Alone... Cannot Pray To Me For Forgiveness... On Behalf Of Mankind’s Great Sins...

However... If Enough Souls... Throughout The World... Pray To Me... Sincerely Asking For Forgiveness... Of Their Sins... I Shall Spare The Destruction... Of The Planet Earth...

And This Shall Be Evidenced... By The Comet Kahoutek... Having A Short Tail...!

And In My Mercy... I Shall Grant The Planet Earth... Another One Hundred Thousand Years Of Grace... Time For My Children To Repent... And Change The Error... Of Their Sinful Ways...!

And Thereafter... Satan Shall Be Chained... For All Eternity...!"

Furthermore... He told Bapak... to advise his SUBUD children... that should they happen to see the comet Kahoutek... in the sky... they were not to be afraid...!

Sitting in a daze... listening to SUBUD Brother Varindra’s astounding words... Muftiah finally understood... her most odd... Spontaneous Behavior... of the past three weeks...

And when she realized... that her Involuntary Spontaneous Actions... had perhaps contributed... in some tiny way... to possibly saving the earth... and all the millions of souls... who dwelt upon it... from being entirely destroyed... she was Made to Feel extremely humble... her soul filled to overflowing... with the deepest gratitude...

And she was overwhelmed... with a feeling of amazed awe... that her Jiwa (soul) ... was so in tune... with her Beloved Bapak’s Jiwa... whom his SUBUD daughter... Muftiah... loved... and trusted... implicitly... with every fiber of her being...

Realizing...that Bapak's Jiwa... must have Communicated... with her Jiwa... urging her to pray for forgiveness... for her sins...!

Bapak knew all about her... as Grazia... having Received all about her... during their momentous personal interview... in Wilgespruit... South Africa... when he summoned her to him... during her fifth year in SUBUD... just after her recent divorce... from three years of sheer living Hell... being married... to a devilishly charming... bon vivant... die hard alcoholic... and an unfaithful... active bi-sexual... French/Dutch hotelier... who was the spitting image... of the French movie star heartthrob... Charles Boyer...!

(Grazia's wonderful... intimate meeting... with her Beloved Bapak... is fully described... in her sequel to this book... which is also available... to be read... on this Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories...)

On that momentous December eve... the Marin Hall was full of SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... from far and wide... for they all well knew... that whenever SUBUD Brother Varindra... came to visit... he always had an important Message... to pass on to them... from their beloved Spiritual SUBUD Father... Bapak... and they wanted to be there... in person... to hear all about it...

Quite convinced... that there surely must be many of her fellow SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... who had Received... as she had... and curious to know... what their various experiences were... and what form their Received Spontaneous Urgings... felt like... in begging their Creator... to forgive them their sins... Muftiah went around the Hall... asking quite a number of them...

But to her great surprise... and then sad dismay... found that not a single one... of her dear kindred in spirit... SUBUD Brothers... or Sisters... from all over California... had Spontaneously Received... as she had... with some of them even looking at her... in shocked amazement... bordering on disbelief... as she quite naturally... and honestly... shared her unique... Compelled... "Begging for Forgiveness Experiences"... with them...!

So perhaps... Bapak... and his SUBUD daughter... at least... plus hopefully... other sincere SUBUD souls... throughout the rest of the SUBUD world... that Bapak... may have also Inwardly Contacted... became the humble to God souls... helping to prevent the comet Kahoutek... which turned out to have a short tail... after all... from destroying the world...!!!???

If that is the case... then please... dear SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... throughout the SUBUD world... send in your remarkable... "Begging for Forgiveness" SUBUD story... and any other story... such as how you came to SUBUD... your three month probation period... your "Opening"... and following... unique Spiritual Experiences... to your website... "SUBUD Stories...

In order to keep the Light of SUBUD... shining brightly... in the ever increasing darkness... of this precious... God-Given world of ours... and to prove to the doubting world... that "God Exists"... and Is Not Dead... as so many... who have lost their faith in Him... believe...!

Come to think of it... it would actually be too much... for this trying to be humble to God soul... to really be aware... that only Bapak and herself... saved the world... from utter annihilation...!

End Of Part X - Three Chapters

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