Chapter 1
Some Inner Reflections... Painful Purification Of Some Gross Sins... Plus Heavenly Prophecies...!

For the past thirty-five years... or so... ever since Almighty God Willed... that this humble to Him soul... as Muftiah... now worship Him... as a Muslim... Calling His Holy Name... ALLAH... but only Inwardly... and not to study the religion... with her heart and mind... and no longer as a Christian... calling His Holy Name... Almighty God... very soon after He Willed... that she enter into Holy Matrimony... with one of His more favored sons... twelve years younger Farlan... who was already a Muslim... He Began her very unique Training of...:

“Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!”

At the same time... He very abruptly Ended... her busy working life... which she had loved... making her totally dependent... upon her much younger husband... which was very hard... for her fiercely independent spirit to accept...!

And then she started to spontaneously Receive... periodically... throughout her waking hours... of the day and night... to utter the Holy Word: "ALLAH"... which is the Arabic name for Almighty God... and His Divine Command of...:

"Obey ALLAH!"... and “ALLAH Guiding...!”

And this would Happen... like an involuntary Arising... from deep inside her Inner being... Spontaneously Coming Out Of her Mouth... like best described... as a kind of Gentle Sighing...!

All these Perfect Reminder Blessings Are Received... Regularly... even unto this very day... as a result of having her Inner self... initially "Awakened...”... and “Opened..."... into the Glorious Miracle of SUBUD... when she was thirty-one... some forty-seven odd years ago...!

And on that momentous Sunday evening... of February 12th 1961... in Johannesburg South Africa... on her soul mate Richard's lovely ranch... she was exceedingly Blessed... through him... as her God Commanded channel... To Receive Inner Contact... with The Great Holy Life Force... of her Creator... her Heavenly Father... Almighty God... Which ever since... she constantly Feels... like a Gentle Vibration... within her being...!

Then by the Power of Almighty God... by His Divine... Perfect Spirit... Being gradually Purified... By Him... during her Latihan Kejiwaan of worship... of all her own... and her ancestors' sins... according to her capacity to absorb... accept... and understand Inwardly... through the Spiritual Process of Growth... and Development... called SUBUD... in preparation for her Blissful... Eternal Afterlife...

Sad to say... there is the glaring... very true fact... that the Word of God alone... is no longer enough... for questing mankind today...!

So that in this day and age... to fit the Spiritual needs... of His suffering children... in His Merciful... Loving... Compassionate Wisdom... our Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Has Now Sent Down to earth... His Very Own... Perfect Holy Spirit... His Great Holy Life Force...!

And this Great Holy Life Force... Is To Reside Inside Those of His Specially Chosen... Exceedingly Blessed... "Inwardly Awakened..." ... and "Opened..."... Created souls... so that they may be Perfectly Guided and Directed... from within themselves... in thought and deed... throughout the moments of their lives... by Almighty God's Great Holy Life Force...

And these Specially Chosen souls... may be of any... and all religious beliefs... and even some non-believers... who are nevertheless Deemed Worthy... in the Eyes of God... to Receive This Very Special Grace...!

And for the past thirty-five years or so... this humble to God soul... has been having the very same wonderful reaction... whenever... instead of Spontaneously Receiving to say: "GOD..." ... over and over... as she used to... she has been Receiving to say...: "ALLAH... Amen...!" ... over and over...!

And Muftiah's whole being always swells... with the same Feelings of overwhelming Joy... the tears welling up in her eyes... every single time... as she feels the Divine Loving Breath... of her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Whispering in her soul... feels the Divine Flow... of His Eternal Merciful Love... Flooding throughout her entire being... by constantly feeling the gentle... pulsating Vibration... of His Great Holy Life Force... inside her most grateful being... best described like a Bubbling Fountain of Joy...!

These spontaneous Receivings... not differing from each other... in the slightest... are absolute proof to Muftiah... that "GOD..." and "ALLAH..." are One and the Same... the Eternally Living... Divine Spiritual Being... known to all of mankind eternally... as Allah Almighty God... and also by whatever other Holy Name... He is Called... in other languages...

Only today... as an adult... as Muftiah Receives to utter the Divine Word...: "ALLAH..."... she is sometimes Reminded... of her many sins... in this lifetime... some of them quite grave...

And this soul is most deeply ashamed to confess... that she has... at times... impulsively... and defiantly willfully... followed her fiercely independent Aries nature... even against the Will of God... Whom she worships... and adores so much...!

For instance... she has disobeyed the Warnings... of her life-long Protector... her Guardian Angel Friend... not just once... but three times... regarding the all important times of her life... the crucial crossroads... including that of marriage... and divorce...! (as you may read all about... in the sequel to this book...!)

The very first time she disobeyed God's Perfect Will for her... which earned her two years of a living Hell... of daily being chased around the classroom... by her lustful... uniformed Nazi schoolteacher... and each time... Being Rescued... by her Guardian Angel Friend... was when she... known as Graziella... and already standing at five foot eight... had just turned twelve...!

And the second time... was when she... known as Nadia... was about twenty-seven... and about to get married... for the very first time... out of gratitude... to a gentle giant... with a heart as big as the ocean... who... as her ardent fan... had faithfully nursed her... a total stranger... while she lay in hospital... in a seven month long coma...!

And that gross disobedience... had earned her three years of great unhappiness... being trapped in a most unnatural so-called marriage... which was never consummated... to a dangerously mentally unbalanced young boy/man...!

And the third time... she grossly disobeyed God's Perfect Will for her... was when she... known as Laura... was about forty-two... and about to get divorced... against His Will... from a man she had left... not just once... but three times... against His Will... and despite the fact... that her unfaithful husband... was already living in bliss... with a passionate Argentinian woman... for the past year...!

And because of her gross disobediences... of God's Perfect Will for her... her penance... which is actually a labor of love... for she loves to write... is to offer all of her extensive volume of writing... to all of her kindred brothers and sisters... across the globe... absolutely free of charge...!

There was her greatest sin of all... her cowardly abortion... when she was a bewildered and confused... starved for affection... girl of twenty-two... continually being rejected... by her adored Contessa mother...!

And in that unhappy state... she had "murdered" her precious five month old... fully formed son... whom she had named Marco... because... on one magical Holy Night of Christmas Eve... she had distinctly felt his exalted soul... enter her body... just at the moment... when her adored lover... poured all his love... into her most receptive... five foot ten and a half long being...!

And seeing... with her own eyes... the tragic... heartrending sight of her adored... murdered son... in the doctor's jar... nearly killed her... and she has never been able to forgive herself... for destroying him...

Even though that greatest sin... she ever committed... Was Forgiven her... by her Heavenly Father... via her Guardian Angel Friend... some eleven years later...!

And but just a few years ago... her great sin of murder... was forgiven by her precious son Marco... when he... sent down to her from Heaven... accompanied by her soul mate Richard... serenaded her with his violin... during a very special Heavenly Visitation...! (See "Heavenly Visitations...")

A particular sin... having been committed by her... is felt within her... at that particular level... of her Spiritual Growth... and Development... and each time... on an increasingly deeper... and wider level... so that she is gradually Shown... how much she truly harmed herself... and how much... she blackened her soul...!

And each time she is Reminded... of a particular sin... that she is Made to Feel... the increasing Reality... of her wrongdoing... the irrevocable truth... of how much she had harmed herself... in sinning... so does the remorse... and regret... become more and more real... and on a deeper... and wider level... with each inevitable Reminder...

So that she has finally come to the point... where her whole being... is filled with such pain of regret... and overwhelming remorse... and humbled... to the depths of her very soul... and filled with such self loathing... and feeling so unworthy... of Receiving her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God’s Wondrous Grace... that she wants to be eliminated completely... feeling that even a grain of sand... is far worthier of God’s Infinite Grace... than she is...!

And in that humbled... lowered state... of feeling enormous remorse... and regret... she sincerely begs Almighty Allah... throbbing in every fiber of her being... to please... oh please... Forgive His sinful daughter... known to Him... at different times... as Graziella... Tzi-Tzi... Grace... Chuchi... Nadia... Grazia... Laura... and finaly Muftiah... which is to be her name... even in her Glorious Afterlife...!

And no sooner has she uttered her fervent plea... with all the sincerity... that is within her... when she instantly tangibly Feels... a Wonderful Sensation... of Being Washed Clean... through and through... with His Boundless Loving... Merciful... Forgiveness... the Blissful Awareness... Suffusing her whole being... Being Made to Feel Indescribably Light... Peaceful... Calm... and Happy... Utterly Fulfilled... once again...

That is to say... until the next inevitable Reminder... of a great sin... that Needs To Be Cleansed... and Purified... out of her...

And so it is... with each Reminder... of each sin... at different times... For her Creator... her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... Is Loving... and Compassionate... and Merciful... and never ever Gives her... more than she can handle... or bear... regarding her negative traits of self-realization... at any one time...

Thus Muftiah is very grateful... that Allah Keeps her humble... so that she never runs the risk... of becoming Spiritually arrogant... believing that she is superior to others...

Her constant... and Spontaneous... Divine Reminders of...: "ALLAH Guiding..." and...: "Obey ALLAH..."... have been going on now... for some thirty-five years... ever since Muftiah's phase of “Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...” began... right after she married her last husband... Farlan...

And for the past twenty-six years or so... besides Divine Reminders... that now is the time... that Allah Almighty God Wills that His loving daughter Muftiah... prepare herself to leave earth... and return to Him... the Divine Reminders... forever Consistent... and Persistent... and Never Varying... there have been some Divine Revelations...!

For she has also been spontaneously Receiving... the following Holy... Prophetic Words... over and over... kindly bearing in mind... only according to her limited Spiritual capacity... to absorb... accept... and understand them...:

"Jesus Is Coming...! Sweeping Across Time... Obeying Allah... Forever And Ever... Amen...!"

Furthermore... there are the Heavenly Revelations of... :

"Giant Coming... Amen...!"...

And also...:

"Nations Rising... Amen...!"

And more recently...:

"Jewish Time Now Over... Amen...!"

And only once...:

"New York No More... Amen...!"

There is Muftiah's beloved... twelve years younger husband Farlan... becoming her husband... in name only... after only seven years... of a most unique marriage... Which Was Solely Orchestrated... and Directed... and Guided... by Almighty Allah...!

The State of Holy Matrimony... between them... Taking Place... after her Special... Anointed Preparation... from the Virgin Mary... and Bapak's departed wife Ibu... on yet another Magical... Holy Night of Christmas Eve... when they descended from Heaven... to attend to her... in a Golden Chariot...!

(That quite most amazing Spiritual Experience... is fully described in her Spiritual Odyssey... "From Seven Hells... To Seventh Heaven... SUBUD..."... presently being re-edited... for the very last time...")

And during which most unusual... Allah Willed marriage... Farlan and Muftiah Were Forbidden... to relate to each other... from their hearts... but only from their Jiwas... (Inner selves)... giving each other... not what each wanted... but what each needed...!

It so happens... that Farlan has also been Spontaneously Receiving... some of the very same Words of Prophecy...!

And whenever they try to ask Almighty Allah... for more information... more enlightenment... as to the time and place... these Momentous Events Of Prophecy... are to occur... out of their compassionate... loving concern... for their kindred brothers and sisters... and their unhappy situation... all over the world... there is only the very familiar Sensation... of a Holy Silence...!

Except where “Giant Coming... Amen...”... is concerned...

Becoming curious... Muftiah asked to have Revealed to her... if it should be the Will of Almighty Allah... for her to know... what that particular Prophecy meant...

And she Was Shown... The Entire World... In Deep Sorrow... And Floundering In Darkness... And Was Made To Hear... The Great Weeping.. And Wailing... And Anguish... Of All Mankind...!

And as she Was Being Shown... This Great Tableau Of Suffering... Upon The Planet Earth... As Time Went On... The Great Weeping... And Wailing... Increased... Louder And Louder... And Deeper And Deeper... until she could not stand To Be Shown any more... and begged for the terrible Heavenly Revelation To Cease...

Thus... both Farlan and Muftiah... have both come to the conclusion... that it is not the Will of Allah Almighty God... for them to know anything more... than the Words of Prophecy... Given to them... by His Merciful Grace... and they must be content... to merely be His ignorant prophets...!

Chapter 2
Another Wonderful Visitation... From Her Beloved SUBUD Father... Holy Man... Bapak... In 2009... While Muftiah Is Re-editing This Book... For The Very Last Time...!

And now... it is 5.41 a.m... on Sunday... June 28th... in the year 2009... after her usual... special Dawn Latihan Kejiwaan... set up by her dear mother-in-law... Jasie... - may she be happy... and at peace... in the Glorious Eternity of the Afterlife... - when she was Sent down from Heaven... to her daughter-in-law... on a Special Mission from God...! (see “Heavenly Visitations...”)

And at the now physical age of 79... and Spiritual age of 48... being in her 48th year... of living the SUBUD Way of Life... Muftiah is sitting in her wheelchair... blind in one eye... for the past eight years... due to the many God-Willed Strokes suffered... over the past 27 years...!

And while re-editing her volume of work... one last time... squinting... with only the use of her left eye... her Beloved Spiritual SUBUD father... Bapak... so alive... and youthfully vibrant with energy... fills this soul with delight... as he appears to her... once again... in Spirit...!

And she is Being Directed... here and now... through yet another one of her beloved Bapak’s delightful Heavenly Visitations... to offer this Wondrous... Miraculous Grace... and Blessing... to all of God's Specially Chosen souls of mankind... to have God's Miraculous Gift... Bestowed Upon them... right here... through the new Holy Website... “SUBUD Stories...”!

(You may be interested to know... that her Beloved Bapak's Spirit... even entered her body... for a very important Message...! And that amazing Spiritual Experience... with Bapak... is fully described... under “Heavenly Visitations...”... in the streamer... "Close Encounters... Of The Spiritual Kind..."!)

Bapak now dictates to his loving SUBUD daughter... Muftiah... saying... that mankind today... is living his life... exclusively following the destructive dictates... of the actually impure cleverness... of his mind... and the fickle... unreliable passions... of his heart... and his proud ego... which are all his lower forces... and not to be trusted...!

And as a result of following wrong thoughts... and wrong actions... the world has plunged itself... into such a state of utter chaos... and confusion... and on an inevitable downward spiral... falling down ever further... into the darkness of self destruction... and oblivion...!

Therefore... all of God’s Created... Beloved children... each individual... needs His Great Holy Life Force... to Perfectly Guide... and Direct... their lives... individually... from within themselves... more than ever before...!

And her Beloved Bapak... now tells his faithful servant helper... SUBUD daughter Muftiah... to remind all those Blessed souls... who are Led by God’s Special SUBUD Angels... to this Holy Website... that the Holy Divine Light... of Almighty God... is now to be available... to them...!

All those souls of mankind... who are worthy... in the Eyes of God... or by whatever other Holy Name they call Him... are to Receive... His Great Holy Life Force... so that they may worship Him... through their Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD...!

SUBUD... which is neither a new religion... nor a teaching... for everyone to follow... in the same way... is solely a Magnificent... Miraculous... Life altering... Spiritual Experience... a Perfect Divine Way... to individually Grow... and Develop Spiritually... even beyond... into the Glory of one's eternal Afterlife... and which has absolutely nothing to do... with whatever religious faith one happens to follow... with one's heart and mind... which actually do not go beyond their earthly lives...!

So... in compliance with beloved Bapak’s wishes... today... here is a perfect explanation... of Beloved Bapak's “THE BASIS & AIM OF SUBUD...”... written and compiled... by this Holy Man of God... being the very first man... on earth... in this day and age... to be exceedingly Blessed... to Receive the Great Holy Life Force of Almighty God... in 1922... when he was a young man of 22...

His Divine Mission... being to pass on the Holy Contact... to all of mankind... through his many representatives... all over this vast world... known as Spiritual Helpers... urging his faithful servant... SUBUD daughter Muftiah... this day... during yet another of his Miraculous Heavenly Visitations... to her... to let all of mankind read... in this book... as well... Bapak’s following perfect explanations about SUBUD...:-

And Bapak recommends... that in order to get the greatest benefit... of what you are about to read... and absorb... you should try to put yourself... into as quiet a state as possible... stilling your heart... of all excited emotions... and emptying your mind... of all disturbing thoughts...

"THE BASIS & AIM OF SUBUD" - By MUHAMMAD SUBUH

THE BASIS OF SUBUD

SUBUD is the abbreviation of the words: Susila... Budhi and Dharma...

Susila Means : The Good Character of Man... In Accordance With The Will Of Almighty God...

Budhi Means : The Force of the Inner Self... Within Man...

Dharma Means : Surrender... Trust... and Sincerity... Toward Almighty God...

THE AIM OF SUBUD

As the Latihan Kejiwaan (Spiritual Way) of SUBUD... is free of the influence of the passions... heart... and mind... and is truly Awakened... by the Power of Almighty God... the Aim of SUBUD... is naturally toward perfection of character... According to the Will of the One Who Awakens it... namely... Almighty God...

It is also necessary to explain... that SUBUD is neither a kind of religion... nor a teaching... but it is a Spiritual Experience... Awakened by the Power of God... leading to Spiritual Reality... free from the influence of the passions... heart and mind...

That is why... in the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... one really feels... that one’s Inner Self... is no longer influenced... by the passions... heart... and mind... which means... that in the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... the Inner Feeling... has truly been separated... from their influence...

Why should the passions... heart... and mind... be separated from the Inner Feeling... when these are man’s most important equipment... for his life in this world... which can be used... to increase... and broaden his knowledge...?

It is because... unless the passions... heart and mind... are separated from the Inner Feeling... it will not be able to be... in a pure state... in Receiving the Latihan Kejiwaan... so that it will be impossible... for the Inner Feeling... to Receive the Contact... from the Great Holy Life Force... which in fact... has Permeated it... both Inwardly... and Outwardly...

This is the reason... why the influence of the passions... heart and mind... must be separated... from the Inner Feeling...

In such a state... the Inner Feeling will Awaken... and be able to Recognize... the various kinds of life forces... which flow in... and out... and move it...

Eventually... it will be able to distinguish... between the good... and the bad... namely... between the Life Force... that originates... from the True Human Self... and the life forces... that come from the sub-human forces... i.e. the material... vegetable... and animal life forces... and the Life Force of man...

In Receiving the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... the Receiver... is Truly Guided... by The Power of Almighty God... towards the attainment... of an ability... to distinguish... between the various kinds of life forces in man... (Chemistry in the Spiritual Realm...)... and this will eventually lead... to the realization... of his True Self... and elimination of the false one...

In ordinary science... such knowledge (chemistry) ... is very important... for with chemistry... man can extract iron... tin... gold... silver... and many other materials... from a lump of earth...

The only difference... is that the latter is man’s work... done with his heart and mind... whereas the former... the Chemistry in the Spiritual Realm... is the Work of God... Whose Power... Reaches... far beyond the power... and ability of man...

And finally... in your true worship... of Almighty God... you need not worry about anything...

God Is All-Knowing... and All-Wise... in all things... God Can Make... and Create something... from that which does not exist... and God Can Put Right... something that... from the mind’s view... cannot possibly be put right..."

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So... dear Specially Chosen by God... kindred brothers and sisters... this Miraculous... Merciful Grace of God... is now to be available... to all of you... ABSOLUTELY FREE OF CHARGE... because God Has no need for money... via what Muftiah cannot help but call... Bapak’s Holy Website... “SUBUD Stories...”... on the Internet... because she has had so many meaningful discussions... about the internet media... with Bapak... during his many Visitations to her... over the past seven years... plus Heavenly Visitations... from Angels of God... Who Have Informed her... that this very special Website would...:

"Flower... Grow... And Flourish...!"

SUBUD is now available... in over 79 countries today... where there are either SUBUD Centers... SUBUD Houses... and or Groups... to assist you further...

So that every single soul on earth... from the poorest... to the richest... whether deaf... dumb... or blind... or otherwise physically challenged... or impaired... is able to Receive this Wondrous... Benevolent Blessing... without any membership fees... or dues to be paid... ever... and without your needing to give up anything... neither your wealth... money... assets... riches... your religion... your job... nor your loved ones... or anything else...!

All that you do need to give up... is yourself... give yourself up totally... to your Loving Creator... with a feeling inside you... of sincerity... and patience... and utter trust... and faith in Him... so that He Can “Awaken...”... and “Open...” you... and Fill your Inner Self... with His Great Holy Life Force...

So that you can begin the SUBUD Way of Life... and experience the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... while you submit your whole being... in full... unconditional surrender to Him... Who Created you...

Unconditional surrender to Him... meaning... that you will neither expect... or pray for... or hope for anything... in particular... for yourself... except that God’s Perfect Will... Be Done unto you... as you patiently stand before Him... with your eyes closed... just like a lifeless... mindless puppet...!

So that... in your utterly sincere... fully surrendered state... to your Creator... Almighty God Can Pull your strings... And physically Activate... your Spiritually Awakened self... by Making all your limbs Move... in the Correct Way... and Making you utter Sounds... with your Awakened Voice... according to His Perfect Will for individual... exceedingly Blessed you...

In other words... Work His Perfect Will upon you... each individual... separately... and according to his unique nature... character... and personality... for He Knows each and every one of us... His Created Soul children... inside out... and far far better... than we can ever know ourselves...

And He Knows Perfectly... what we need... in order to become truly noble human beings... of excellent character... men eventually becoming truly magnificent men... once they have become Purified... of their and their ancestors’ sins... and likewise women... becoming wonderfully feminine... once they have become 100% Purified... According to His Perfect Will... 6% of their own sins... and 94% of their ancestors’ sins... the depth... and magnitude of which... are truly only Known to Allah Almighty God...

So... dear kindred... Blessed sibling reader... if you happen to click onto this Holy Website... it will not be by chance... or accident... but because an Angel of God... Assigned to Show souls... the way to SUBUD... Has “Tapped” you... a specially chosen... worthy one... on your shoulder... “Leading” you here... to this Holy Website... to show you The Perfect Way... to have your whole being... Magnificently... and Perfectly Transformed... into Excellence... by The One Great One... Who Created you... namely Almighty God...

So that... in having your Inner Self “Awakened...” and “Opened...”... into the Glorious Miracle of SUBUD... you will be enjoying a very unique... “One-On-One” Relationship... with your Creator... without any outside influence... or interference... a unique Relationship... which will actually feel familiar to you...!

For when we were first Created... we were in Perfect Spiritual Contact... with our Maker... And His Great Holy Life Force... which we Felt... Gently Vibrating... inside our beings... as the Power of His Life Force... Guided... and Directed... Perfectly... our thoughts... feelings... and actions... for the moments of our lives...

Until... sadly... we strayed... by relying... more and more... on the influence... of the cleverness of our minds... our proud egos... and the passions... and desires of our hearts... straying further and further away... from that Perfect Inner Contact with... and Perfect Inner Guidance... and Direction... from Him...!

So now... in His Merciful Compassion... seeing what a mess we have made of things... down here on earth... over the centuries... through relying primarily on the influence... of our impure lower forces... which cause us to make mistakes... such as thinking wrong thoughts... and making wrong decisions... and acting wrongly... He Is Offering that Perfect Inner Contact with Him... once again...!

So that we can be Guided... and Directed... by the Perfect Influence... of our Higher Force... instead... leading us eventually... to no longer making mistakes... in wrong decisions... and wrong actions... so that we may enjoy lives... of Inner Peace... Grace... and Harmony... with all those around us... as we come to recognize each other... as true brothers and sisters... no matter what the color of our skin is... nor what language we speak... nor what different religions... customs and traditions... we happen to follow... and practice...

If you click... onto "BAPAK"... you can also read... the only Talk that Bapak ever gave to the general public...

And under “BAPAK’S INTRO TO SUBUD”... and elsewhere... both in this book... and its sequel... “From Seven Hells... To Seventh Heaven... SUBUD...”... there is much more information... and more details... about the Latihan Kejiwaan of SUBUD... and the SUBUD Way of Life... lived over the past forty-eight years... which this humble to God soul... describes extensively...

Chapter 3
Quite An Amazing... Spiritual Experience... Of Incredibly Wondrous Enlightenment... Regarding The Great Destructive Force... Of The Comet Kahoutek...!

Beloved Bapak’s wonderful Presence... brings into my feelings... from him... to share with you all... here... the following... quite extraordinary... personal Spiritual Experience...!

It concerns the period... towards the end of 1973... coinciding with shortly before the comet Kahoutek... was expected to come close to earth... when this trying to be humble to God soul... recently become Muftiah... suddenly began to find herself... out of the blue... at odd times... of the day... or night... Abruptly Being Made... to fall to her knees... begging Almighty Allah... to please Forgive her... for her many sins... supplicating her Creator... with all the fervor... that was within her...!

And these unusually Odd Occurrences... over which she had no control... Would Happen... whether she was at home... in her apartment... in the middle of watching a TV program... or reading a book... or knitting... or cooking... about to go to sleep... or immediately upon awakening...!

And even in public...! Whether at work... in the middle of the doctor’s Waiting Room... as well as at the supermarket...!

Although... strangely enough... at the time... she was feeling particularly blissful... about her busy life... and contented circumstances... after her five month Spiritual Crisis... when her Heavenly Father... Put her into a keenly felt... State of Disgrace... Forbidding her the Latihan... and Holy Ramadan Fast... and Allowing her to "Only Work With Your Hands..."!

Thus reducing her... for a good while... into becoming a lowly paid cleaning woman... for the Catholic church... as penance... and atonement... for her willful disobedience... of His Perfect Will for her... one too many times... !

Now she was living in a lovely... spacious... "movie star" apartment... and happily enjoying a busy working life... such as for a chiropractor... her SUBUD brother... Dr. Maniscalco... in San Francisco... in the art of Accu-Pressure... as well as teaching singing... and French... and writing... and elocution...!

And she was also typing up play scripts for playwrights... and ghostwriting... as well... And last but not least... she was even stringing Indian beads... for the SUBUD enterprise... Dharma...!

And of course... she was fulfilling her Spiritual duties... as a Reserve Helper... for SUBUD Marin...

So with all her useful... very busy activity... in the world... she was not at all feeling laden down... with sinful remorse...!

Even while driving her car... Muftiah would suddenly find herself... Sobbing... as if her heart was breaking... imploring her Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... to Please Forgive her her many sins...!

Begging Forgiveness... instead of joyfully singing Praises... to Him... at the top of her soprano lungs... as she usually did... when she drove... with the car seeming to drive... all by itself...!

And what was so strange... is that while she was suddenly Being Pushed down to her knees... in public... nobody seemed to notice... the six foot two female... suddenly Being Thrown down to her knees... fervently praying...!

And the more... nobody took the slightest notice of her... kneeling on the floor... Feverishly Jabbering out loud... and Wailing... and Sobbing... she came to realize... that Allah Almighty God... Was Making her Invisible... to all the patients... sitting in the quiet of the doctor’s Waiting Room... as well as to all the shoppers... at the hustling... bustling... crowded San Rafael Safeway Supermarket...!

During Muftiah's very next scheduled Group Latihan Kejiwaan... with her SUBUD Sisters... at the Marin SUBUD House... in California... after she Was Once Again... Made to Pray for forgiveness... instead of Receiving to joyfully sing Praises to Him... as she usually did... she experienced an overwhelming Feeling of Command... inside her... to urge her fellow Sisters... to also beg God's Forgiveness... for their sins...!

After their half hour of Latihan Kejiwaan worship was over... Muftiah immediately went to her fellow Sister Helpers... telling them of the Inner Command... she had just Received... hoping for their support...

But all of them intimated that... since it was her Receiving alone... for they had not Received... such an Inner Command... themselves... they suggested... that she go immediately... and talk to her other Sisters... telling them of her urgent Receiving... before they left the building...!

So once again... as happened so often... Muftiah was all alone... in her God Commanded Mission... And even though she was extremely shy... to pass on such an intimate... personal Message... she obeyed... feeling apprehensive... and with her heart in her mouth...

But... for some unexplainable reason... her earnest words... failed to impress them sufficiently... of the gravity... of their situation... with some of them getting very annoyed... and angrily walking off in a huff... and the others amongst them... deciding to come to Latihan... half an hour earlier... the following week... to pray generally together... but not... in particular... to ask God... to Forgive them for their sins...!

Extremely bewildered... at her odd behavior... for there was no doubt... that her whole being was throbbing... with earnest... fervent pleas... such as she had never... ever... experienced before... as if it was truly a matter of life and death... for her to feel Allah's Forgiveness... in her soul... Muftiah continued Receiving this Spontaneous Guidance... for about three weeks...!

Meanwhile... she heard that the comet Kahoutek... for which she had felt no real interest... anyhow... with her life being so busy... and fulfilling... had been reported seen... in the sky...! And she also heard the song... dedicated to the comet... which also failed to impress her...!

Shortly thereafter... the Marin SUBUD House... was visited by popular reporter/raconteur... SUBUD Brother... Varindra Vitachi... from India... who had come directly from Indonesia... where our beloved Spiritual father... Bapak... had given him a very Important Message from God... to pass on to his SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... throughout the SUBUD world...!

And this is the amazing... mind-boggling story... Varindra told us...:

Apparently... one day... during Bapak's private... surrendered communion... with his Creator... Almighty Allah Told His Favored son... that He was fed up with the world... and all the terrible sins... His children were committing... against one another... and that His Sign Of Wrath... Would Be Shown... By The Destruction Of The Planet Earth... Through The Comet Kahoutek...!!!

Whereupon Bapak... who loved his Creator... Almighty Allah... with all his heart and soul... and with every fiber of his being... became very alarmed... and asked whether he could pray... on behalf of all of mankind... for His Forgiveness of their sins... to avert the terrible annihilation... of the planet earth... for his heart and soul... were full of loving... compassionate understanding... for the frailty... of his fellow human beings on earth...

And Almighty Allah Had Replied...:

"No... My Beloved Son... You Alone Cannot Pray To Me For Forgiveness... Of Mankind’s Great Sins...!

However... If Enough Souls... Throughout The World... Pray To Me... For Forgiveness Of Their Sins... I Shall Spare The Destruction... Of The Planet Earth...!

And This Shall Be Evidenced... By The Comet Kahoutek... Having A Short Tail...!

And In My Mercy... I Shall Grant The Planet Earth... Another One Hundred Thousand Years Of Grace... Time For My Children To Repent... Change The Error... Of Their Sinful Ways...!

And Thereafter... Satan Will Be Chained... For All Eternity...!"

Furthermore... He Told Bapak... to advise his SUBUD children... that should they happen to see the comet Kahoutek... in the sky... they were not to be afraid...

Sitting in a daze... listening to SUBUD Brother Varindra’s astounding words... Muftiah finally understood... her most odd... Received... Spontaneous Behavior... of the past three weeks...!

And when it occurred to her... in her state of trembling... bewildering disbelief... almost making her faint... that her Heavenly Guidance... of Involuntary Spontaneous Actions... of Begging her Creator... to forgive her her sins... had perhaps contributed... in some tiny way... to possibly saving the earth... and all the millions of souls... who dwelt upon it... from being entirely destroyed... she Was Made to Feel extremely humble... her soul filled to overflowing... with incredible amazement... and gratitude...

And she was overwhelmed... with a feeling of wondrous awe... that her Jiwa (soul) ... was so in tune... with her Beloved Bapak’s Jiwa... whom his loving SUBUD daughter Muftiah... trusted implicitly... with every fiber of her being...!

And that his Jiwa... must have Spoken to her Jiwa... urging her to pray for forgiveness... for her sins... about which he knew all about... having Received all about her... during their momentous personal interview... in Wilgespruit... South Africa... when he summoned her to him... during her fifth year in SUBUD... when she was just recently divorced... from three years of a living Hell... married to a die hard alcoholic... and unfaithful... blatantly active bi-sexual...!

She always felt extremely Blessed... and Specially Privileged... To Be Allowed... by God... to be sitting in the presence... of this Holy Man of God... Bapak... who evoked feelings of love... and absolute trust in him... inside her...

Because... among other things... she knew that Almighty God... Always Spoke to His Created souls... Directly through Bapak's Purified mouth... as he patiently surrendered himself to Him... whenever he was among us... his SUBUD children... and that he never expected to simply be believed by us... whenever it was the Will of God... that Bapak imparted a Great... Secret Spiritual Truth... to us...

On the contrary... Bapak always recommended... that we ask Almighty God... To Show us the Truth... of what Bapak had just shared with us... so that we would be able to Experience... the Reality... of the Truth... for ourselves...

The Marin Latihan Hall... was full of SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... from far and wide... for they all well knew... that whenever SUBUD Brother Varindra... came to visit... he always had an important Message... to pass on to them... from their beloved Spiritual SUBUD Father... Bapak... and they wanted to be there... in person... to hear all about it...

Quite convinced... that there must be many of her SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... who had Received... as she had... and curious to know what their various Experiences were... and what form their Received Spontaneous Urgings... felt like... in begging their Creator... to forgive them their sins... Muftiah went around the Hall... asking quite a number of them...

But to her great surprise... and then sad dismay... found that not a single one... of her dear kindred in spirit... SUBUD Brothers... or Sisters... had Spontaneously Received... as she had...!

So perhaps... Bapak... and his loving SUBUD daughter Muftiah... at least... became two of the humble to God souls... who helped to prevent the comet Kahoutek... which turned out to have a short tail... after all... from destroying the world...!!!???

But if there are any other SUBUD Brothers and Sisters... throughout the SUBUD world... who had a similar Experience... where Bapak's Jiwa... contacted theirs... to beg God's Forgiveness... then please come... and join us here... share your wonderful Spiritual Experience... with all of God's Specially Chosen souls... Guided by His Angels... to click onto Bapak's Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories..."

Share that most important Spiritual Encounter... and any other Spiritual Experiences.. you have had... here... on Bapak's requested... Holy Website... "SUBUD Stories..."... which is your Website... to keep The Light of SUBUD... shining brightly... not only in your Jiwas... but also in the ever increasing darkness... of our violent... chaotic world...

Because our varied Spiritual Experiences... are really the only true proof... that we have... to share with today's fearful... bewildered mankind... reaching millions of them... through the worldwide reach... of the marvellous Internet... letting them all know... that SUBUD is a true Experience... Given to us... by our Creator... The One Allah Almighty God... or by whatever other Holy Name you call Him...

End Of Part V - Three Chapters

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